Saturday, May 05, 2007

we're all scared of people leaving us. @ 5/05/2007 12:15:00 PM

peyton:people always leave. :(
fairy something:boo-hoo peyton. does people always leave? or does little peyton drives them away?

i remembered when kai and nina told me that. during my 'people always leave' days.
there came a point na, "oo nga, parang tinataboy ko sila.."

so.. pagtapos nun, after being friends with them again, okay na ako. i lived my life again. pero this time kasi, i don't drive or push them away. they leave. all by themselves.

i know a lot.. my friends have some "leaving" issues with their friends too.
katulad ni Aya, lilipat ng school. i'm sure she's going to miss her friends in seton. and i'm going to miss her too. parang yun na lang kasi yung paraan para magkita kami araw-araw, nawala pa.

si bes naman, yung mga friend niya na lalaki.. tatanggalin sa school.. just because of a door. and what's worse, they're being blamed for something na hindi lang sila yung gumawa.

i went through a lot of those issues na rin naman eh.
katulad nung pag alis ni France.
he was there when nobody was. and he made me smile in the simplest ways.
akala ko, nung lilipat na kami, i get to see him everyday.. pero hindi pa rin pala.

like my aunt and uncle who would be moving to canada.
nung isang gabi lang, nagtatawanan pa kami nila ate Jamie.. who would know... paalis na rin pala sila. :( sayang nga eh.

and the worst part is.. ndi lang ako yung "iiwanan"...
ako na rin yung mang-iiwan.

ngayon nga, we're starting to do out impake na.
binabalot na ni ate sonia yung mga mugs na babasagin.
it really hurts seeing this house as an empty memory, when 12 years ago, it was full of happiness and laughters.

its also hard to leave the people whom i spent my entire life with.
my barkada... berks.

it's really hard to go far from them. pero ayus lang..
my bes once told me na, "if your friendship is really worth it.. kakayanin niyo kahit anong problem."
sure, it's not actually that... what she said was deeper. i felt bad pa nga kasi inaway ko pa siya, pero i really got something from that. thanks bes. :)

people goes in in our lives, we'll never count how many they are.
they're like stars, even though some stars fade out, more would replace them. pero no matter what, they were still there, shining brightly in the sky, kahit sandali lang.. :)