Sunday, August 30, 2009

All this time @ 8/30/2009 04:29:00 PM

The one who understands you.. Been here all along, so why can't you see? You belong with me.

Nakaka LSS amp! Hahaha. Anyway, wala naman akong kwento. Pero gusto ko magblog, so ayan. Hahaha! Excited na ako bukas! I'll be seeing my friends tomorrow. :>


**goodluck!

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Days :)) @ 8/29/2009 09:31:00 PM

August 25 2009
Nice day, :) Really nice DAY.
Nung gabi, nagstart ang conflict with Family. Hayy nako, nakakainis yung mga ganun. Dapat strong tayo eh. Pero okay na naman. Nagsorry sorry na nung dulo. Pareho lang kasing pressured.
Sorry Ianne. Sorry Mommy Shi. Sorry LDS.

**ang weirdo ko nung nasa bahay na ako. May sinabi kasi si Sean na sobrang napaisip talaga ako. Tas parang ako "OO NGA NOH!" :> Hahahaha. Tapos ayun, excited ako nung kinaumagahan ng NCAE.

August 26 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAB!
NCAE... Damn, sakit sa pwet. Anyway, got the thing I craved for last night! Hahaha. Sikreto na lang.. pero sobrang "comforting?" talaga. Hahahaha. Practice and bad trip moments turned to bonding moments after.

August 27 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME =)
Ayaw ko na magkwento. Haha! Basta, masaya. Kahit na natalo kami, kahit na medyo may mga kaguluhan nung dulo, MASAYA PA DIN TALAGA. Umeeffect eh! Hahahaha. Nung umaga pa lang, after nung iyakan session ko with Abby sa chapel, after talaga nun masaya na ako. :P Tapos nagtuloy-tuloy pa nung bandang gitna. =)) Laughtrip.
Anyway, yun na lang muna. Katamad magkwnto.

August 28 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANS!
Boring DAY.
Really shocking NIGHT. :D
Problema pa din.

August 29 2009
National Youth Congress @ UP Diliman
w/ Sir Alex, Sir Leo, Micha, Aaron, Paul, Islau, Cristel, Frances and Gar.
Super fun! Food trip, cam whoring, tsambahang quiz bee, seminar.. seminar... seminar.. SUPER FUN ride home :P

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Between 10 and 20. @ 8/26/2009 10:48:00 PM

FIFTEEN YEARS OLD FOR THE LAST TIME. Hahaha.
Over dramatic! Anyway, di ako masyadong maka post, I'm tired as hell..
Uhm, ewan ko.. di ko nga feel na birthday ko bukas eh. Hahahaha! Anyway, goodnight na guys. Thanks sa mga bumati kanina.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGA PALA GABRIEL SEBASTIAN (kahit kunwari ka pang sa 29 birthday mo!!) Haha!
Ayun lang, next time na ako magdededic. :>

Muah!
Advanced Happy birthday to me. :) ..and Fayrene.. and lola.. and Gyll. Hahahaha!
...and HANS! Sa 28. :)

Monday, August 17, 2009

To my one and only dalagang pards @ 8/17/2009 09:43:00 PM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

WA :) @ 8/15/2009 11:41:00 AM

I don't know what internet shop this is. I just don't have anywhere else to go. I'm waiting for my DSouth class to to start. I don't what style we'll be taking today. I'd rather read WA because all my print outs were all finished. Major "shifts" in the story! I finished reading up to their "punishments" before the exams so I was left there. When I read the next chaps, they were still punished and forbidden to see each other which was REALLY sucky. No kissing AT ALL. And all the other stuff *wink*. Hahaha. Then, when I started reading Chapter 43, I got lost. But when I read AG's "ps-s", I think Edward's suffering from hallucination because of sleep deprivation. Bella's all fucked up too, she's sooooo aggressive and Edward became a victim of what she did because they both took advantage of their weaknesses during that time. So, its all so sucky and when I read Chap 44, I realized Edward wasn't hallucinating AT ALL when they did "it". Bella wanted it, damn it. It wasn't sweet at all either!! Mppfff. But then after reading some more you're going to really really be sorry for both of them and all the other characters like Emmet and Carlisle. But Edward remained loving and caring while Bella realized her own mistakes and left Edward's room after knocking the bookshelf down. They were still so effin in love with each other despite EVERYTHING. And! I love how Carlisle wanted Edward and Bella together but he just couldn't convince Esme to do the same thing. Hahaha. The latter part of 44 was really painful because it was like New Moon. Edward would leave to find his mother. That would mean no sleep AT ALL but maybe he'd be satisfied with the idea and return to his normal self. They're really out of their own minds, I really feel sorry for them. Being apart really made grave differences to them. The ending of Chap 44 was a month after Edward left Bella and she knocked on Carlisle's door and climbed up the stairs... to Edward's room... where I think she intends to stay until Edward is home, too. :)

Fuckin' nice story!


***for those who may not know. This is NOT Twilight. It's a fan fiction which explains all the change of story. Same characters, different story. No Jacob. :P


Hahhaha. I'll be printing more pages! =) I printed 10 pages last night (just for one chapter. I actually printed 3 chapters yesterday). Centaur 7! Kamusta naman diba. All the other chapters were only 7 or 8 pages. Hahahaha. Addicted. I can't WAIT for New Moon!

**I'll be reading "The Light and The Dark" which is - as said by the prologue of WA Chap 45 - is a story between Elizabeth Masen and Edward. I NEED to read this so that I'd understand Chap 45. It's quite long, darn it.

**I got so giddy with all the things I found today @ Twilight Forums. Hahaha. I'll TwiPimp this blog asap! :D Hahahaha. I can't fucking wait to go home.

Friday, August 14, 2009

So, you like UNICORNS?! :)) @ 8/14/2009 06:41:00 PM

I feel so much better. Well, at least when I'm in school.
Nights were really sucky and I just hope I could just sleep and avoid any small talk.
But school's really okay. Umaga pa lang kasi sobrang badtrip na dahil sa car, tapos pagdating sa school kahit na gaano ako kadown, napapasaya pa rin nila ako. Lalo na nung Tuesday! Ang laughtrip talaga nung TLE time tapos nag Angelus. Kasi nasa right side ko si Alec, eh pag angelus nakatalikod ako sa kanya. Tapos binasa niya yung mga nakasulat sa table ko.. Bumulong siya bigla... "Janzy.... so you like unicorns?" =)) POTEK, kung alam lang niya kung ano ibig sabihin nun! LOL. Pinipigilan ko talaga tawa ko nun. Tapos niyaya na niya si Sean, sabi niya.. "Tara Sean, dialogue tayo. Ikaw si Edward ako si Bella!" Hahahaha. Puteeeeek, ang laughtrip talaga nila. Pambabae pa boses eh. :)) Tapos nabored na ata si Tanawan kaya kumanta na lang siya ng Birthday Sex NA NAMAN. :| Ilang araw na akong LSS dahil sa kanya punyemas. :)) Haaay, ang sakit talaga nun sa tiyan.

Isa pa tong' si Ninang nabulol kanina sa assembly. =)) Tas humirit pa ng "XP1" kay Emika! =)) Tapos kanina din nagfood trip kami ni MK sa 7 11. Nakita pa namin si Migs, whatapaaaak.. kinabahan ako eh. Hehehe. Anyway, ayun lang naman gusto ko ishare. Yehey! Tapos na yung exams! Makakapag DSouth na ako tomorrow. Bwahahha, wala ako sa bahay buong araw bukas! Love it! Ayaw ko kasi talagang kinakausap mga tao dito, baka di na ako makapagpigil. Hehehe. Di na nga ako masyadong nagsasalita eh. Hmpf. Anyway, ayun lang naman. Makakabasa na ulit ako ng WA! :D Weeeeee.

BY THE WAY, look at their videoooo. Hahaha. Super funny!



'kay, some other time loves! :P

Friday, August 07, 2009

Unicorns! @ 8/07/2009 11:30:00 PM

Emmet: So, you like UNICORNS?
Bella: Very much so.
Edward: Someone gave her one recently. :>
Bella: Two, actually. :> :> :>



Hahahaha. Inside joke lang yan sa Fanfic. :P
Just wanna share. I'll share some REALLY sweet quotes when I'm already okay. It just doesn't seem right to post quotes like that when I'm effed up. :) I have already read up to chapter 37. Hahaha. In just 5 days. :)

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Please, please come for me. @ 8/04/2009 08:33:00 PM

Unfair.

I feel like I'm such a pathetic person. My guard's down. All the walls I built around myself, to protect me, to make me strong were suddenly gone.

Through all the weeks that passed by me, all those effin shitty days that I had, I realized what I really needed was safety and protection and warmth and someone to be there.

Hay, hindi ko kasi makwento. Basta after that incident, everything felt easier and clearer which is ironic because I feel like after that incident, everything got messed up and blurry. I hate myself. I really do. But God, I can't blame my stupid vulnerability and longing soul. I was just waiting for that feeling. THE feeling ANYONE could give me. A friend, a family member, a lover, whatever. I wanted to feel that - the sincerity and presence that I was missing.

Good thing this HEAVEN SENT story's making me forget about everything. I still envy Bella though. But it's okay, we're sharing dark Edward anyway. :) This is my escape as for now though it still reminds me of the incident when everything was clear. Gah, the more I picture evrything, the more I feel confused. :| Fudge.

Another song I found somewhere. I was curious so I searched for the lyrics and boy, the longing keeps on coming.

Just one more moment
That's all that's needed
Like wounded soldiers
In need of feeling

Time to be honest
This time I'm pleading
Please don't dwell on it
'Cause I didn't mean it

I can't believe I said
I'd lay my love on the ground
But it doesn't matter
'Cause I made it up
Forgive me now

Everyday I spent away
My soul's inside out
Gotta be someway
That I can make it up
To you now some how

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

I was blindfolded
But now I'm seeing
My mind was closing
Now I'm believing

I finally know just
What it means
To let some one in
To see the side of me
That no one does or ever will

So if you're ever lost and
Find yourself all alone
I'd search forever
Just to bring you home
Here and now, it's a vow

By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you

Yes, I'd come for you
No one but you
Yes, I'd come for you
But only if you told me to

And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'll always come for you

No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you

I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember
You know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you

DAMN, its everything. Every effin' thing I want and long for. EVERYTHING. Every word seemed to be exact. Dammit. Stupid Janzy for looking for the lyrics. Now I'm stupid coz I'm posting it. WTH, I'll be stupid because painful heartbreaking things make me happy.

I'll be reading once again, drifting away with loooooong chapters of loooove. Hahaha. The next chapter's always longer than the last. It's heaven! Thanks to this awesome Fanfic I have reasons to live again. :)

PS. Wanna thank my old printer. When the new one ran out of ink, the printer I cursed so many times before saved me and printed all my Fanfic pages. I printed 10 chapters today like woah! Hahaha. Gahd, it quenched my addiction to this story so I just have to praise Old Printer and Ink.
PPS. Wanna thank "A.G" too. She made my nights to dreaaaaamy.
PPPS. Thank you Corienne Bailey Rae for writing Like A Star. It's "THE" song for this fanfic. Perfect perfect perfect. Kung may Kiss the Rain at The River Flows in You sa Twilight Saga, may Like A Star dito. :)

Thanks a lot to inanimated objects and intangible ones, ironically they're the things that make me happy lately. :)

Monday, August 03, 2009

Love love love. Fuckin Love! @ 8/03/2009 08:35:00 PM

Grabe, I'm so addicted. Like addicted as hell. Nakailang chapters ako ngayon GARABE! GAAAARAAAABEEEE TALAGA!
I missed these characters, super! Hahaha. At least I have something to fuel my longings. Haha! :> Grabe talaga!

I want the vampire, sparkling, protective, beautiful and possessive Edward.
But I also like the dark, quiet, emo-ish, mysterious, protective, beautiful and possessive Edward! :D

"This girl is going to be the death of me."

Tapos bagay na bagay pa yung kanta na Like A Star. Hahaha!
"Just like a star across my sky" :)

Twilight Fans! Hahaha. @ 8/03/2009 11:44:00 AM

Ahahahaha. Super funny videos made by Fabiiiaaaan. :))

EPISODE 1.


EPISODE 2.
(sobrang patawa talaga toh!)


EPISODE 3.
(auditions! haha!)



Grabe. Anyway, I'll start reading something. SOMETHING REALLY GOOD. :> Hahaha. Twilight-related. Hahahah.

Lovie guys!

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Amp @ 8/02/2009 11:24:00 PM

WHAT THE HELL. Something's wrong with this blog. :|

Post-Upcat! @ 8/02/2009 07:15:00 PM

GRABE! Finally, tapos na yung UPCAAAAAT!
Anyways, share muna ako ng mga experiences ko. :D
From my UPCAT diary:
(wala kasi akong blog kaya sa notebook muna ako nagsulat ng mga saloobin ko)

August 1, 2009
12:16 pm
A few minutes more. Magtetest na yung ilan sa mga kaibigan ko. Actually, some already did. I hope the people who got the morning session did their best. And I wish those who would take it later good luck. :)

Ako naman, HAY NAKO! Sabaw na sabaw na utak ko. Hahahaha! Kakatapos ko lang sagutan mga worksheets sa book 1 ng AG. Amf, sabaaaw.

Currently waiting @ Starbucks. Ang tagal magstart ng DSouth. :| Caramel Cream (extra caramel na para namang wala) and HG doughnut! Bwahaha.

Listening to Candles by Hey Monday. Tamang-tama sa rainy/gloomy weather. Tapos pag tumingin ka pa sa labas ng malaking bintana sa Starbs, akala mo MTV eh. Hahaha!

Okay din mga studymates ko dito. Sa kanan ko, may cute na couple (although di gaano kagwapo yung guy, ang cute nila maglambingan eh). Doctor na ata yung girl or med student or intern. Ay ewan. Hahaha. Basta dun kasi malapit sa may cr, may isa pang girl na nag-aaral tapos magkakilala pala sila. Junior na ata si friend sa medschool. Hahaha.

Sa north of east ko naman (yes, vectors!) may lalaki. Siguro IT student toh. Hahaha. Tapos sa katabing table ko lang, may nagiinterviewhan. Sabi pa nung girl "I like you a lot ha, I like your personality and the way you grew up!" Wow, sepsep. =))

Amf, ang dami nila highlighters. Ganito ba talaga mag-aral sa college/med school? Wow, colorful! Hahaha. Ako nga purple lang eh. Anyway, lahat sila nagsstudy na, ako na rin. Back to UPCAT. :|

PS. amf, tagal ng DSouth. Umuulan na ng malakas! :|

1:23 pm
Hindi pa kami nagsstart! OMG. Dapat 1 nagsstart na kami eh. Anyway, ako, si Josh at si Ramon lang nandito. Nag-aaral pa rin ako ng UPCAT. Si Josh pinagmamayabang yung isolations at moonwalk niya. Si Ramon nirereview mga choreo sa Popping at Locking tsaka nagb-Bboy. Hahaha. Ang cute naman naming tatlo! Sana nandito din sina Daniel, Raiyne at Beca. Kung sino pa mga kasundo ko sila pa yun wala! Hahaha. Stuck with these two tuloy. Jooooke. Ayos naman sila eh, tinulungan nila ako sa ibang english words tapos tinuruan ako ni Josh mag moonwalk! Bwahaha!

2:09 pm
wala pa din amf. Kuya RJ just arrived pero wala pa si Sir Christian.

2:17 pm
tinuturuan kami ni Kuya RJ mag kneedrop. :> Hahaha, Josh eh. CAUTIOUS. =))

2:37 pm
Yeay we'll start na! :> Bboying baby!


**ANG SAKIT NG TUHOD KO. Di kasi ako nagstretching. Shhhh. :|
After DSouth, we went to Rizal Complex for EJ's team tournament. Hahaha. Daming tao tsaka ka-stress nung una. Pero ayos lang, okay naman nung naglaon.

Afterwards, we went to Quezon City na. We'll sleep at Tita Joy's house so that I won't be late for UPCAT the following day. Gabi na nun, around 6 siguro tapos medyo traffic pero light lang. Nadaanan namin maraming universities! Hahaha. Even UP Man (where I hope to study), PGH (internship ko), and UST (where I also hope to study). Tapos nadaanan na namin UP Diliman, Commonwealth tapos bahay na ni Tita Joy. Then we went to UP which was like 5 mins away lang, tapos pinakita sakin ni Tita yung Law Center. So we went home na rin agad kasi gates will be closed ng 9pm. So yun, watched Fat Albert with my cousin then I slept na.

August 2, 2009
5:48 am
OMG. UPCAT na! :| Nananakit pa shoulders at tuhod ko. :| Dahil sa hindi ko pagstretch kahapon! Anyway, eto na toh. Ely Buendia, Eraserheads, Sunken Garden, Star Gazing, Gmick, I've Fallen For You; BASTA LAHAT NG MAY KINALAMAN SA U.P! Lahat ng yan ay nagsisilbing inspirasyon ko. Hahaha! Come what may, here we go! :D


Grabe! Tapos na UPCAT! Hindi ko alam kung mapapasa ko or what pero parang AG lang din siya. After the UPCAT, I went straight to the church. I used the red rosary which Kaii gave me. hahaha. cute eh. Then prayed a little then Tita Joy, Jared and I went to UP Tech Hub? Tama ba? Ate at KFC. Then we went back to Vito Cruz (Rizal Complex) and watched Taekwondo tournaments. Grabe talaga yung nangyari kay James. :| Sarap jombagin nung kalaban niya eh. HAYYY NAKOOOOO TALAGA.

Ayun, bumili lang ulit ng Starbs, tas uwi na. :) Yehey!

Next stop, USTET! :D