Tuesday, May 29, 2007

maingay. @ 5/29/2007 11:26:00 AM

sunday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMIE!
haha. grbe.. nag simba lang kami. tapos nagpunta sa festival mall. haha. naood kami ng pirates of the carribean!! grabe!!! aliww!! gusto ko tuloy ulit panoorin from 1-3!!! aahahaha! tapos kumain kami sa candela yata yn. hayy nako... tapos bumili.. haha. i so love my new nike air. haha. joke. tapos umuwi. tapos nag internet ako. dumating sina dash. haha. tapos yun... natulog. end of sunday. (bilis ba?) haha.

mondayyy!!
umuwi na kami galing sa ts. tapos pag uwi ko, labas agad ako! haha. pumunta ako kina kat kasi andun din si lish. tapos yun, si aya na rin lumabas. tapos nagbaraha kaming four. haha. tapos sina jello nag internet shop. tapos yun.... blah blah blah. hanggang sa naglaro na kami. hahaha. napagtripan ko nga si kenjie ehh!! haha!! "P double A!! to the P-A-A to the P double A!" hahahha! wahoo!! cheerleader?! waheheh. tapos yun. INJURED si kenjie or yung bike? haha. joke. so pinuntahan namin siya sa swing... tapos, OK NA SIYA! hahaha. then it started to rain.. tapos nandun kami sa bahay ni bes, sa garage, soundtrip.. tapos nagbaraha kami ni kenjie at aya at lish. tapos more soundtrip. nag volleyball kami ni jello. tapos kumain ako. umikot kami. tapos naglaro ng patintero. tapos umulan na naman. so tambay kami sa swing.. haha. dun kami ng kwentuhan again. hahaha. ang ingayy namin! tapos yun... umuwi si jello. umuwi si cholo. dumating sina bes, tapos bumili kami ng ice candy, tapos umuwi. hahaha. end of the day.

*sorry, 'ala akong gana mag post.*

the painful saturday. @ 5/29/2007 11:16:00 AM

grabe, ang aga ko nto lumabas. mga 11 o 10:30 pa lang nsa labas na ako. ksma namin sina jello at cholo. tapos ako si kat at mikee. tapos nag counter kami. ahahaha!!! scary si jeff ehh!! the sniper boy. wahuhuhuu. :( nakaka tensyon nga kapag ako na lang mag isa kasi namatay na si jello at mikee. waaah. the pressure. huhuhuh. tapos yun. nag uwian na kmi. so nothing to do kami ni bes. haha. niyayaya ko ng siya pumunta sa vibang's eh. ayaw niya kasi daw HOT. so tinawag na lang namin si lish. tapos pinuntahan namin sina hans. tapos nasa swing kaming lahat nun nina jello. tapos umuwi ako.

after that... tinext nila ako kasi they have a bad news to tell me. crush ni toot si toot. grbe, nangiyak ako dun. huhuhuhuh. tapos i remembered one thing.. sabi ni bes.. "you moved on from raven, i'm sure you could move on with ***** too." sabi ko... "i moved on from raven kasi i found *****." DRAMA!!! tapos yunn. i wouldn't spoil much about it. kasi it's too private. bsta napaka lalim nito. deeper than anyone else. that's why it's hard to let go.. :(

nga pala. thanks sa lahat ng tumulong. hahaha.
..jazz.. slamat sa jokes!
..inna.. thanks for listening.
..kamshi.. thanks kasi kahit late na, you still worried.
..ate kat.. thanks for the advices!
..ate jamie.. ayus lang yun.. thanks for the quotes!

..bes, salamat sa support. at siyempre sa pagpapatibay ng loob ko.
..lish, thanks for the support too. and for opening my eyes. haha.
..aya! salamat sa pagdamay mo sakin.
..mikee... uhmm.. salamat sa pag-papaalala. T_T di.. joke lang yun. thanks kasi kht napaka young mo, nandun yung matured part mo na nakatulong sakin. wow naman chuchaii!! haha!

*for the others, thanks talaga!*

happy birthday! @ 5/29/2007 10:41:00 AM

yon.. bday ni Jake nung Friday(may 25, '07)... tapos invited kami. haha. so, we planned to go out ng maaga. ehh si mikee at kat lang yung lumabas nun. tapos lumabas na rin ako. nandun kami sa swing.. ako, si kat, si mikee, si jello, si cholo, si hans, si ziggy. tapos si zeke nagbibike. haha. tapos tawanan galore kami!! haha. as in, sbrang nakakatuwa talaga si hans!! haha! grbe, talagang nakakautot yung joke niya!! haha!! woohoo! nakaka high naman. 'tek! so... pagtapos nun, nagbihis na rin kami. tapos pumunta kami kina kat... tapos people started to go out. haha. bonggacious talaga party ni jake ehh!! andami!! haha! paglabas namin, pumunta kaming three sa swing, tapos nakakita kami ng pusa... haha. aliww ehh. kasi magjowa ata, pero may LQ. haha. weirdd. tapos yonn, dumating na si mie.. tapos si lisha... tapos si cholo, tapos si aya. tapos yun, umikot kami... nakita pa namin si kenjie, si raven at koichi nun. tapos binalik ko na ball ni hans.. pinagpalit na namin sila... tapos yun.. tambay kami sa tapat ng bahay ni aling nora. nag volleyball kami nina kenjie, mie at cholo. tapos ung iba nasa swing. so yun.. hanggang sa na injured si bes! oh no!! yarriii!! haha. tapos unn.. hinintay na lang namin si kat, habang pumasok na silang lahat. tapos di yata nila natiis. haha. joke. pero bumaba uli sila para sunduin kami. haha. oh well! tapos yun, umakyat na kami sa bahay ni jake. napaka taas! hayy! tapos ang kulit ni jello, asar! nanggugulo pa eh! tapos pagakyat ko, woooh! andami! grabe!! pati sina beca nandun! wahoo.. andami! pagakyat.. unang napagtripan si zeke. haha! tapos yun, nagbatuhan kami ng unan ni jello. tapos kaasar nung kumakain ako ehh. 'lang'ya. tama bang picturan habang ninanamnam ko yung chicken?! gosh!! hayy nako. tapos nung nanonood na kami ng the grudge 2, yon, wala atang nanonood. ahaha! kulitan ang kami ng kulitan! picture picture kami sa likod.. tapos yung mga lalaki naghaharutan.. tae natawa nga ako nun ke jr at koichi.. kasi naman, naghalikan! alam niyo yung tipong pag nasa sinehan!! haha!! gosh!! aliww eh! tapos sina kenjie, hans at jello, hinihila pa yung paa ko. waa. scaryy! lagi akong napapatili!! 'langya! tapos malapit na mag end yung party.. grbe nga eh.. bgla na lang tumili si jake.. 'lahat kayo baba!!' haha. tapos pagbaba namin, nanghihila na naman sila ng paa. wahuhuhu. tpos yun.. bumaba na kami. naglaro kaming base to base. haha. grbe, si koichi talaga ang layo ng nirarating, tapos nung nataya ko siya,, may base na pala! waah. wasted!!! tapos yun.. nagkainitan si jello at jeff. grabe.. hanggang sa nadamay na rin si rave. taen ga ehh. nagka pasa pa ako. huhu. sakiitt. kasi naman si mie, tumakbo patalikod.. eh tatayain ko siya... grbe, napahiga talaga ako dun!!! waahhh!!! huhuhuhu. :(( tapos yun. naguwian na sila kasi ang lakas na ng ulan. tapos yun.. nsa swing na lang kami, ang high ko nga nun eh. tapos umuwi na rin sina cholo at jello. tapos bumili kami ni mikee ng ice candy. haha. nga pala.. i learned to like the salad ice candy na. haha. :) grbe, tapos nakasalubong namin sina kenji, tapos sabi nila sakn "oyy may papakilala kami sayo!" tapos sabi ni raven "oo nga!" tapos yun, sabi ni jr.. "eto nga pala si koichi, at eto naman si mie janmarie." (hate that) tapos nabadtrip ako eh, so nakipag shake hands ako ng malagkit kamay ko. haha. :P tapos yun, pinapasok ako ni ate son, ehh gsto ko mag internet, so tumakas ako. haha. ehh natakot ako ma grounded, so balik naman ako... tapos bumili ako ng ice candy, kasi naman ayaw niya ako papasukin, eh tinawag ako nina hans.. sbi ko maya na. tpos balik ako sa bahay.. nandun sa swing sna jello, raven at koichi. tapos tinanong nila ako kung uuwi na daw ba ako.. tpos sabi ko lang "depende kung bubuksan ako ng gate nun." tapos yun, di nga niya ako binuksan. tapos pumunta ako kina kat sa comp shop. tapos balik ako. pumunta ako kina hans. haha. parang punerarya dun eh!! haha!! :)) tapos balik ako sa bahay. tapos ayan.. sbi ni ate son, palalabasin daw nia ako pag kumain daw ako. ehhh sbrang busog na ako nun, so cge, for the sake. ahaha. tapos dakilang utusan pa ako nun, nagpabili ng load. anak ng tae. tapos yun, nag counter na kami. terro ako!! weee!! haha. kami ni mikee. daya nga eh. di nia ako tinitirhan ng papatayin. huhuhuh. :( tapos umuwi na kami. ehh raining hard pa naman nun. waaa. so umuwi na ako. end of the day.

cornered. @ 5/29/2007 10:36:00 AM

everytime i see you, i fall deeper.. and that's bad.

...dream. it makes me change but not for real. in my dreams, that's the only time i can make you feel what i have for you is real...

i've been dreaming of you lately. mnsan ndi.. madalas oo. no matter how simple my dream is... you're there. everytime i dream about you... my day

would be bad. i mean real bad. kaya nga mas gugustuhin ko na lang na makasama ka for real kesa sa dreams ko lang tapos di tau magkaayos pag

totohanan na.

wednesday. madaling araw. di kta napanaginipan.

lumabas ako. actually naligo ako. REAL FAST. haha. paglabas ko. papunta na ako kina Mie.. kasi siya lang nkta ko. tapos bglang tumakbo papunta

sakin sina Jello at Hans. then they ASKED me something. bummer. >:( tapos ayunn. we just played after that. maaga nun umuwi sina Mie.

kasi nagkamali yata sila ng labas. ewaann. tapos.. yun, naglaro kami. nag volleyball kami ni kenji. tapos nag badminton kami ni Jello. in the middle of

our game, tinawag nila ako sa swing(andun kasi sina claude, cholo at JR. with henry rin ata.) kasi pag pumasok ka dun, wala na daw atrasan..

kailangan mo silang sagutin sa lht ng tanong nila. tinanong sa kin ni claude.. "kung may nanligaw sau... papayagan mo ba?" sabi ko.. "depende kung

gusto ko.." tapos yun.. umalis na rin ako. nag badminton na ulit kami ni jello. tapos kumain siya. so kami ni Claude. tpos un. nsa swing yung iba.

sina kat, nasa malapit lang sa swing. haha. tapos nag bike ako. grabe yung brakes. muntik na akong masubsob. haha. taeee! tapos ayunn. nag

patintero kami. haha. gandaa nga eh.. except for one thing.. haayy nako. tama bang' ikumpera? PUTEEEKKK! hayy nako. so ayunn. nag uwian na

rin kami afterwards.

thursday. madaling araw. i dreamt of you. oh no.

lumabas ako. mga 2:30. kaso 2pm usapan. oh no. haha.
pagkalabas naming' 4 (ako, bes, lish, mikee)... nakasalubong namin si Jello at Cholo. tapos nag comp shop kami. tapos dun na lang kmi sa AMC. kasi

puno na sa berks store. nag CS kmi nung una. kaso boring. kasi tatlo lang kmi tapos wla pa adbot. kaya nag internet na lang kami. tapos yunn..

nilibot namin yung village para makahanap ng ice cream. haha. tapos wala rin pala. bumili kami dun sa may court ng ice candy.. worth 7php. uh-oh.

money down. hayy nako. salad ata yun na nilagay sa supot ehh! tae! hayy nako. tapos yun.. naglaro na kami. dumating si Harah. sa knla na lang

ako sumama kasi jinojoke na naman ako nina kat. ayunn. tapos naglaro na for real. tapos nag volleyball ulit kami ni Kenji. sumali si Jello. tapos

sumali si Mie. tapos si Hans. haha. tapos hanggang sa kami na lang ulit ni Kenji. haha. nanalo ako sa race to twenty namin. yeay!! tapos naglaro na

kami ng ballintero. haha. tae si kenji ehh. humihiga sa may kotse pra daw di kita. eh pahingahan galore yung mga people sa likod! hahaha! tamad

eh. tapos nag patintero na lang kami. hanggang sa nagkainan. tapos yun na.

pagkakain ko.. akala ko si aya yung nasa swing, kasi dun ko siya huling iniwan. ehh mali pala. sina Mie pala yun. so pumunta na lang ako kina kat.

eh sabi ni ate clare kumakain pa daw. so pumunta na lang ako sa may kay Jello kasi ayaw din niya pumunta sa question and answer sa swing.

haha. tapos etoo.. funny part. haha tae. natalisod pa ako papunta sa knya. haha. kamusta naman! tawa siya eh!! haha. puttteeeekk! tapos nag

usap na lang kaming dalawa. tapos nag yaya ako mag badminton. so yunn. hanggang sa lumakas yung ulan. ehh umikot nun sina Aya. kaya

nakisilong n lang kami ni Jello sa may swing. uh-oh. CORNERED. ehh kanina pa nila ako tinatawag.. sabi nila.. "hoy Janmarie! pumunta ka na dito!

ikaw na!" sabi ko.. "wait lang! nagbabadminton pa kami ehh!" kaya ayun. oh no. pagkasakay ko... yarrii!! ang daming questions. yung unang

question.. "mahal mo pa rin ba si Raven?" sabi ko... "hinda na yata". whick is true!? ewaann. tapos yun... sumunod yung.. "eh si Jello?" sabi ko...

"hindi...." which is.. ewannn. haha. bitin? tae. tapos yun... mga chain chain something. haha. tapos yung isang tanong dun.. "pano pag yung crush

mo nanligaw ke mie? magseselos ka?" sabi ko.. "nde. =D hahahahah." tapos react silang lahat eh! eh si jake pa naman PRANING! haha. ang

ingggaaay! tapos sabi ni Jello "weeehh!!" sabi ko.. "haha. oo na. pwede rin... =D" tapos sbi nila.. "awww..." hahha.. tapos nagtatanong sakin si

Claude about stuff. like "ano gusto mo sa isang lalaki?" tapos sinagot ko. sabi niya "kilala ko na" sabi ko.. "sino nga?" sabi niya.. "tetext ko sayo.

haha." yunn. tapos tinanong pa niya ako.. sabi niya "anong attitude niya yung pinaka nagustuhan mo?" sabi ko.. "pagiging makulit nia." wrong. i

lied. actually gusto ko tlga yung the way he is to me kapag naglalaro kami ng CS. haha. tapos nag smile si claude. tapos yun na. paikot na kami.

nagstart kay Jeff. tinanong yung issue about Mie. tapos si Cholo. about me and bes. tapos si mikhel. about sa crush niya. ganun din kay jake at

nikki. tapos si mie. wuh. buking. tapos ako. they asked me sino daw gusto ko sa choices na toh. kung si cholo, si jeff, si aries o si raven. sabi ko..

"si Raveeenn." eh nandun pa naman si raven nun. nag gigitara kasama sina nonoy. haha. uh-oh. tapos si claude na. eh tungkol naman sa GF niya

yun eh. tapos si jello na. ehh ayaw sumagot ni jello. lumalayo siya sa swing. hahaha. tapos yun... kung anu-ano na nangyari. sagutan tungkol sa

cartoon characters. tapos asaran. tawanan. tapos umalis na nun si Mie. so si jake na lang katabi ko. ehh si claude.. nanadiya yata. umalis din sa

tabi ko.. tapos si jello nakatabi ko. waaa. haha. joke lang yung "waaa." haha. half meant. haha. joke. tae. ang gulo. tapos tinanong ako ni

Claude..naniniwala ka ba na kaya mong' titigan yung taong mahal mo ng walang ilang?" sabi ko... "oo? ewann ko.. hindi cguro." tapos sabi

niya.. eh kapag crush? sabi ko.. "hindi rin." tapos nakita niya ako.. tumingin kay *toot*.. tapos pagbalik ng mata ko ke claude.. naka smile siya ng

sbra. haha! tapos pumunta na lang kami kina kat. naki join. medyo cold sila sakin. kasi dhl dun sa hindi ako sumunod sa knla thing. tapos yunn.

bumili ako. tapos sinundan ako ni claude at cholo. tapos nag kwntuhan na lang kmi.
tapos umuwi na rin si claude. umuwi na rin si cholo at jello. umuwi na rin si jake. umuwi na rin ako. without even saying goodbye to them (berks).

tapos yun. bumili kami ni ej ng ice candy tapos nakasalubong namin si mikee. sabi niya "BYE EJ!" tapos yun. alam ko na na galit talaga sila. tapos

tinext ko si bes. i explained. i called aya.. i explained. nag call wait si mikee. i explained. nag call wait si bes. asking about jake's gift. tapos

inexplain ko ke mikee. nag goodbye ako.. wla na si bes sa kabilang linya. so i called her again. tapos nagaalburuto na naman si mama. haaay. tapos

tumawag na lang ulit ako ke aya. kasi medyo cold pa daw siya. tapos yun. nag usap kami. di ko namalayan tapos na pala PBB. so... nag bye na

ako. natulog.

another sleepless night.

i'm scared of you. @ 5/29/2007 10:33:00 AM

so if we fall in love...
nakaka takot isipin.. na the greatest feeling you ever had would also be the greatest fears you'd be afraid of.
masakit masaktan. sobra. and for sometime now, i'm scared. especially kapag cornered ka. you want to scream, but you can't. nasasaktan ka ng palihim. tinitiis mo lahat ng sakit. it could've been better kung ikaw lang may alam. at least you can never show others the pain you're trying to resist. grabe... di ko inakalang magiging ganito ka deep toh. i mean nung una, wala lang. i never noticed that everyday... mas lumalalim na pala. mas lalo lang ding' sumasakit.

sabik sa bawat sandaling ika'y makapiling. anong nadarama, tuwing makikita kang dumarating, TULIRO.

pag alam na kasi ng iba, and they'd witness na di ka gusto ng taong mahal mo... parang they'd feel sorry for you. even though you know how much pain you had, ayaw mong' isipin nilang sawi ka. something like that. hrap i-explain eh. basta ganun. lalo na nung thursday night. napaka cornered ko. feel ko gusto ko na lang magtago kay claude nung time na yun. kasi sbrang nananakit na yung tenga ko. grabe..

pag ka uwi ko nga nun nandun ako sa banyo. tapos dumapo na naman sa isip ko yung sa blog ni bianca. yung "ang tunay na matapang ay lumalaban kahit natatakot." tama nga naman. i'm afraid of these feelings and in what they can do to me. but i'm gonna fight for it. naalala ko nung cnb sakin ng isang tao na "fight to live and fight for love, either ways, you'd always be a fighter." tama nga namn. pero naakatakot pa rin. uneasy. uncomfortable. unsure. afraid. :(

grabe. every night is always something precious. parang for all my life.. ngayon ko lang natagpuan yung mga tao na nandito lang pala.. di ko lang napapansin. and i'm glad na just before i go... i knew people like you. a person like YOU. :(

mabuti pang umiwass.. pero salamat na rin at nagtagpo..

when i'm scared... pumapasok din sa isip ko yung cnb sakin ni bes. about raven. pero pati rin naman siya may gusto ke mie. so... either ways, babagsak din ako. big time. pero kahit ganun.. nagwowonder pa rin ako.

sinong mas gugustuhin niyo? yung taong mahal mo.. pero may gusto na iba... o yung taong nagcacare ka.. kahit di ka sigurado sa pwedeng mangyari.. and you're only clinging to a few words that he said..? or something like that. ang hirap i-explain. bsta *a**n or **l*o lang yun. ewann ko. i know both of them likes someone.. but still.. umaasa kahit wala na? poor me. npka kawawa ko naman. tae yan.

and if there's a thing that you need. for you and your blood. I WOULD BLEED.

bakit gnun? yung mga ibang tao na nagsasabi sakinng gntong problema.. pag tinutulungan ko parang wala lang naman? parang ang dali magbigay ng advice... "kung mahal mo talaga, ipaglaban mo.." pero mahirap pala talaga... once you're already there.. di m na lam gagawin mo..
napaka WEAK ko naman. napaka unsure. very afraid. sobra. i may not seem like it. pro everyday na lumalabas ako... nandun yung kaba... na di ko alam, masasaktan n lng ako bgla. pero i still keep on taking risk. lumalabas pa rin ako. just to see him. to see everybody. kasi hanggang ngayon na lang toh. :( dinadaan ko na nga lang sa pag ka high yung sakit ehh. sa smiles. sa tawa. pero kapag serious talk na. there are a lot of people na nakaka sense nun. at ang hirap na magpa comfort sa kanila kasi i know she's there, pano pag narinig niya diba? yariii ako. kaya nga kapag nagiisa na lang ako tska whoever i'm with ako nakakalabas ng feelings. i feel stupid nga eh. it's not suppose to be like this. we'll really never know the people we will love... and how great the love we would be giving them. how great the chance we would give them to hurt us.. :(

bawat oras na wala ka, parang mabigat na parusa.. wag mong' kakalimutan na kahit nag-iba, di ako tumigil magmahal sayo..

ngayon ko lang naramdaman tong takot na toh. ngayon ko lang naisip na tama pala yung ibang tao... yung kapag nagmahal ka ng sobra sobra... masasaktan ka rin ng sobra sobra. kasi noon, i thought.. pwede ka naman kc mag move on.. HELLO! pero mali pala.. it's really hard. and one more thing.. kapag maglelet go ka pala, you need to be WILLING TO. ndi yung PILIT. kaya mahirap mag move on.

i shouldn't see you but i can't move.. I CAN'T LOOK AWAY. thought you should know, i've tried my best to let go of you.. BUT I DON'T WANT TO.

i can never really stop this feeling. kaya i hold on to it kahit na alam ko namang imposible. my head's so crazy about all the things other people say. ewan ko kung ano na paniniwalaan ko. :( di ko na alam kung pano ako magsisimula ulit kapag wala ka na. di ko alam kung anong gagawin kapag nakita ulit kita. i told you. i'm scared. VERY SCARED. i want to let go of these feelings, pero di ko kaya. gusto ko man pilitin yung sarili ko... ayoko talaga... i can't let go of you.

mahal kita. kaya ayokong sbhng ayaw ko na. kasi nga mahal kita.
lagi na lang tayo nag-aaway.. kahit di dapat pag awayan.

haha. mahilig tayo mag away. grabe. totoo yun. pero okay lang. siguro ito na yung way of talking natin. nakakainis na minsan, pero tinitiis ko. kasi for some reason, gusto ko rin naman. maybe that's what i liked about you. naging okay agad. walang ilang.. sige alaskahan agad.

and when i wake you're never there, but when i sleep you're everywhere. when i close my eyes, it's you i see.
in my dreams.. that's the only time i make you feel what i have for you is real..
kung ikaw ay isang panaginip, ayoko nang magising.
coz i'm dreaming of you tonight, till tomorrow, i'll be holding you tight.

yup. it's true. lagi kang nasa panaginip ko. siguro for two weeks na. bsta ever since we've met. i've been dreaming of you. dalawang araw pa lang ata nde. minsan nga i just want to be there in my dreams. kasi in my dreams. masaya ako. i know i can BE with you in my dreams. hanggang panaginip nga lang. :( sana ganun na lang palagi... yung di na ako magigising... forever na akong nasa dreams ko. kasama ka. kahit hanggang dun lang. ngayon lang ako naging ganito. swear. yung makapanaginip ng isang tao for a very long time. pero siguro naging ganun kasi matagal ko na rn kayong kasama. actually, kayo lagi kong' kasama. or maybe kasi ikaw huli kong' naiisip before i sleep. ganun ba yun? ayy ewan. bsta nandun ka. period.


i may not be enough for you. you may love someone more. you may look at me, but your heart looks for someone else. i may be scared. i may be insecure. but one thing's for sure... i'm falling deeper. i may not be in love with you yet... pero i'm getting there. speaking of *getting there*..
naalala ko na naman yung painful lines sa "paano kita iibigin?" i mean.. i'm not a big fan of piolo pascual.. actually i hate him. i think he's gay.. enough about that. naiyak ako dun sa trailer... kasi sabi...

regine:ibig sbhn ba nun mahal mo rin ako?
piolo: i'm getting there..
regine: makakarating ka naman dba?
tapos hanggang sa huli.. cnb ni piolo na..
piolo: i never got there.

kaiyyaakk!!
parang, it was almost there. almost lang. no matter how close that was, di pa rin yun yung inaasam mo. nakakaiyak talaga. huhuhu.
hayy nako.. dramadiz! kausap ko nga rin si aya nung thursday night. napunta kami sa topic na expectations. tapos oo nga, mahirap yung feeling sa dulo na inexpect mo toh na mangyari, pero di pa rin nangyari. SAYANG. all your hopes were useless. kainis yung ganun. yung nabitn. yung nawalan. sayang talaga. hayy nako.

i experienced that. SO SO SO SO many times. :(

ipagpatawad mo... MINAHAL KITA agad. ayoko nang titigan ka pa, dahil lalo lang napapa-asa.
ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal. ikaw lamang ang tangi kong' inaasam. makapiling ka habang buhay. ikaw lamang sinta. wala na akong hihingin pa.. wala na... oohhh...

i will be right here waiting for you..

Saturday, May 26, 2007

unrequited love. @ 5/26/2007 08:26:00 PM

my heart was stung but now it's shattered. @ 5/26/2007 07:26:00 PM

when you love someone more than yourself... you'd lose more of yourself too.

nakita ko lang tong' message na toh sa cel ko kaninang umaga lang. sinend ni mommy peng.. wow. di ko inakalang mangyayari na nga toh' this time. this day. UNEXPECTED. sabi nga nga ba eh... darating din tong' araw na toh. nagulat lang ako.. ang sikip ng feeling.

now that i know... what would i do? would i run? would i avoid him? would i let go? would i hold on? would i just act normal? ewann. :( random yung words. yung thoughts.
kasabay ng tears. ang emo noh? parang dati lang... sige, SMILE! TAWA! pero ngayon... now.... na nasa isang binggit ng paalam.. ngayon pa ako naging gn2? ouch.

when the tears fall down, the soul grows stronger... the heart gets weaker.

grabe. napaka SAWI ko naman. huhuhuhu. here i go again. expecting a lot. experiencing NONE. haayy. mnsan nga ayoko na lang mag expect. even though people always say to be positive. HOPE FOR THE BEST? i need to stop doing that. people see me the way they want them to see me. but i can no longer see myself..

ang hirap isipin nung narinig ko from my friends... pero... WELLL.... that's life. you HAVE to start over.

even though it hurts more than what you think.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

tuliro. @ 5/23/2007 02:54:00 PM

i fell in love with the guy that taught me a lot of stuff... taught me how to be strong... and the person who made me happy before my summer ended. but i don't see that guy that often anymore. he's here but not as good as he was before.

ang hirap pag nagmamahal ka ng isang tao na ndi mo naman alam yung nararamdaman. isng immature na tao. isang tao na nasasaktan yung feelngs mo, pero napapasaya ka rin naman.
weird noh? hayy nako.

mnsan nga di ko na rin alam paniniwalaan ko sa mga taong nagsasabi sakin about some stuff about you.

mhrp pag nagbago ka na. sometimes i just wish you could always stay the way you are. yung kapag tinutulungan mo ako. sana gnun na forever. sana mag stop yung time... ayoko nang umalis dun sa pwesto kong' yun. pero... twice pa lang nangyayari yun. o kaya the games we play. kapag ganun ka, napapatawa mo ako. sana ganyan ka na lang forever. sana.

ASA na naman. ugh. T_T

hayy nako. kung kelan naman kasi paalis na ako. tska ka sumulpot. pero ayus lang. i had a blast of my summer. because of you. of them. dhl sa inyong lahat.

thanks.


tuliro. di malaman ang gagawin.

run run and run. @ 5/23/2007 01:20:00 PM

grabe. the past few days?
ewann ko. UNEXPLAINABLE.
hayy nako. epal kasi si white bitch of gnarnia eh. ugh.
hayy nako.
i know i don't have to be like this. kasi he's so not mine.
but i hate her.
but there are two problems.
first, MAYBE he likes her.
second... she's PERFECT.
:( that makes it more difficult.
anu ba yan. lagi na lang siya nakakaribal ko pagdating sa mga gnitong bagay.
i mean. she ALWAYS gets what she wants. na sknya na nga full attention ng lht ng tao dito ehh. ugh. worse part... she likes it. she enjoys it. she flirts with it. haha.
napaka demonita ko na nman. ehh FOR ME it looks like that. hello.. napapaligiran ka na ng mga lalaki, naglalandi ka pa rin? HELLO!!! hayy nako.

my monday was so... MOODY.
nag start yung araw ko.... well... nag comp kami ni mikee. sa AMC. hayy nako. kasi sina Jello nasa berks store. so... yunn. naglaro kami ng counter ni mikee. tapos dumating si cholo. ehh ang boring ng laro namin ni mikee, kasi di pde adbot. ehh kami lang naman naglalaro!! huhu. so nilibre ko na lang si cholo. para tatlo na kmi. tapos dumating na sila. sina kenji. sina jello. sina zeke. bsta sila!! tapos ayunn. sumali sila. tapos nakalro rn namin yung isang guy dun. nakalimutan ko na name nia sa CS. bsta ang galing nia!! waahh. may trauma na tlaga ako sa sniper. haha. :)
so... sumali sila. tapos naglaro na lang kaming agaw base pagkatapos. okayy.. hanggang sa nag touchball. kakampi ko nun si bes. may sinabi siya sakin about *someone* na gustong makapag bye ng maayos. :( waaa. naiyak ako dun. i mean.. sbi ko sa sarili ko.. "wow... sinabi niya yun?" medyo na teary eyed ako. huhu. tapos ayunn. i kept thinking about that. tapos si mikee, nagaadik na naman at gusto mag CS.. so cge.. fine.. laro naman sila. eh ayoko. sa nagyaya ako mag badminton. turns out na si Jello lang pala nandun. so okay... let's play. okayy.. yan na naman siya.. nagyayabang na naman. kaya ayunn. sumali na rin nun si Hans. tapos si Ruth. tapos si Mie.. so... ang dami. hanggang sa nagsolo sila ruth at mie. hanggang sa na stuck yung bola nila sa puno. hanggang sa sumali uli sila. hanggang sa mas dumami pa. at ayunn.. nag quit na ako kasi sobrang dami nang EPS!! ugh. tapos yun.. hanggang sa may sinabi sakin si cholo. sensored na lang. tapos yun. continue may pagka BADTRIP. tapos... grabe. sobra sobra yung patintero. todo JELLY. hayy nako. tapos yun... hanggang sa natapos yung gabi. umuwi na sina Jello. pero nagplano na lang kami nina Cholo for tomorrow. tapos ayun. eh mikee wanted to know about *bee*. so kailangan ko pang umikot at sbhn skniya lahat. nung nasa tapat na kami ng tindahan ni aling nora. oh no. alert. si Cholo nasa likod!!! waahh! di ko maexplain feeling ko nun. natatarantang ewann!! haha. kaya ayunn. pinalipas ko na lang. tapos si jeff. ugh jeff. nakiki eps tungkol dun kay kenneth feniza. hayy nako. evs. so.. umuwi na lang ako.

the next day.
ewann. excited much? no way.

i felt sad nga eh. kasi last night i told cholo wag pasamahin si jello. why? ewann ko. kasi badtrip ako? haha. UNREASONABLE.
so... naligo ako. nagbihis. nag computer. dying for 2pm to come. tapos ayun. mga 1:30 pa lang, umalis na kami. sinundo namin si cholo sa house niya. tapos nag trike na kami. nagpunta kami sa school. nag quickly. haha. praning nga ni mikee sa quickly ehh!! hahahaha!! tapos nag talk talk lang kami dun. palamig. tambay. tawa. ganun. haha. tapos na tripan na naming umuwi. tapos nag comp shop kami. bglang dumating sina Hans at Jello. sina Zeke at Ziggy. so yunn. share yata kami ni jello ng comp eh. kasi wala nang available nun. so pinapalaro ko na lang xa. kasi tinutulungan naman niya ako bumili eh. haha. hanep nga eh. dami niyang frags. idol! haha. pero.. games have to end. back to the USUAL jello. the mayabang, mapang asar, nakakainis na jello. hayy nako. buti pa sa CS, ang bait niya. sana ganun na lang palagi. hayy. asa pa ako. haha. anyway.. nag base to base na kmi. at eto na ang masaklap. nag away kami. kamusta naman dba. hayy nako.
eto na yung cnsb ko sa inyo na di ko ma post kahapon.
kasi naman. nataya ko siya. pero sbi niya naunahan niya ako. wala akong naramdaman. promise. hayy nako. pero kung alam ko lang na nababadtrip na pla xa, nagpabilanggo na lang sna ako. hayy nako. after nun. natigil yung game. tapos katabi ko si Hans at Zeke. tapos bumulong so Cholo, sabi niya... "kaya ka ba malungkot ksi nag away kayo ni Jello?" hayy nako. tapos tumingin si Zeke at Hans. very weird smiles. haha. tae. tapos ayunn. di na lang ako umimik. tapos epal si Joshua. sbi niya may ___ daw ako kay cholo. well.. wala naman. so nag comp na lang kami ni mikee. wala akong gana mag CS. :( so nag internet na lang ako. at yun na nga yung nangyari. after that. nag patintero na kami. tapos di kami nag papansinan. haha. so...... what happened ast night repeated itself. hayy nako. so i just hang out with my teammates. tapos naguunahan pa kami dun sa pwesto sa likod. kasi kpag nsa likod ka, nakaka pagpahinga ka. haha. kaya ayun. nag enjoy ako dun. tapos dumating na sina AYA. haha. dinedma namin. ahaha. tapos lumabas na rin ulit. nag ketchup kami. nag ketchup sila. KAMI NAMAN NI MIKEE ORIG EH! hayy nako. tpos nag volleyball na lang kami nina kenji. haha. katawa nga si JR eh. kasi inaamoy yung bola. hahaah. hayy nako. laughtrip tlga. pero not as fun as ************************************* hayy nako. :(

kaya ayun. nag touchball na ulit. LONG LONG game. tapos nawala na ulit. nag volleyball na lagng kami nina claude at mie at cholo. tapos ayunn.. kwinento ko kay aya lahat. haha. haba ng ikot! tapos nagbadminton kami. ehh namiss ko CS. so nag comp kami ni mikee kaht mga 9pm na yunn. hahaha. tapos yun. nag enjoy ako. haha. tapos wala nang buhay yung labas. kasi ang aga umuwi ng mga tao. as in super. tapos nag gitara na lang kami ni Josh. haha. tapos yun. nag bike kami ni mikee. hanggang sa uwian na.

***it was a very sleepless night***

huhuhu. so sad.. :(

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

mhrap ang malapitan @ 5/22/2007 05:11:00 PM

haha. oh no. nandito sila.





kamsta naman ang post. ang ikli. hate it here. huhuhhu.
waaa. bless me Lord. huhuhu. hahaha. adiikkk.
nasira ang natural high. haha.

bsta... me time ko toh. kaso sumulpot. oh no. hayy nako. nasirra.

hayy nako. hrap talaga mag post pag may NAGBABASA sa gilid ko.

next time na lang.

bsta sana makayanan ko toh. wahoo. mga susunod na laro.

if.. @ 5/22/2007 05:03:00 PM

wahhh. di ako makapag post. dami kasi tumitingin.

♥ gnyan. waa. ganito ba tayo sa buong post ko? huhuh. si cholo ksi nasa likod ko eh. hahaha. grabe..

remember dunkin' donuts?
waaa.. la na yun, dunkin donuts gnyan na. kasi naman. waaa. hap i-explain. especially if there are people that could be reading habang nagpopost ka. huhuhuh.

bsta. nag away kami. haha. i meant huhuhuh. BADTRIP! asar naman kasi eh.
kung cnb namn nia kasi.. ayus lang. di ko alam nagagalit na pala siya. oh no.
hayy nko. bulgaran na toh cholo. hahh. kasi naman. wag k na diyan sa likod ko!!!!!!

asar. haayyy nako. pag nagka private time na ako... maybe ma popost ko laht nang toh. nang maayos. if ever di ko makalimutan. heehee. hayy nako.

bee.

Monday, May 21, 2007

dunkin' donuts,. @ 5/21/2007 11:22:00 AM

my gosh. let me tell you my may 17 experience. haha.

grabe, nung una, naglaro kami ng CS. as usual. nag base to base. nag touchball. nag bang sak, na wala naman hinantungan. tapos nag volleyball. at nakakainis si jello. naglalaro kasi kami ng maayos tapos bglang nagdabog! weeeiiirddooo!! haha. diyang nagsimula ang alitan namin. haha. tapos nga volleyball kami. kaming dalawa lang. haha. talo siya. tapos nag base to base. with our new found friend ruth. tapos nag badminton. haha. tapos nagyaya si cholo mag counter strike kinabukasan. so... yun.

next day. nag CS kami! weee.. haha. natuto na ako bumili ng nararapat na baril. haha. nararapat na pistol. nararamat na SMG. nararapat na sniper. nararapat na armor. haha. thanks to jello! haha. so... anyway.. natapos na laro. kami lang actually ni mie yung babaeng nakalaro. kasi naman ang poor ng comp shop. haha. tapos kalaro namin sina kenji at cholo. si jello at hans taga tingin. haha.

tapos pagdating namin, naglaro na lang kami. enough said. nakaka badtrip yung mga susunod na kaganapan.

skip ko muna splash island. still waiting for the photos. haha.

actually. nung saturday. nasa splash island kami, tapos sina jello nasa splash mountain. haha. weirdness ekek. haha. anyway. skip skip skip.

the next day. SUNDAYYY!

haha. church. nood ng shrek. netopia. stop. naglaro kaming CS. haha. so addicted. tapos nakalaro ko si kim someone. haha. tapos talo niya ako. talo ko rin siya. pantay lang kills namin. haha. tapos nakalaro namin ni EJ si kuya someone. pero sglit lang. pinatay muna niya ako bago kami umalis. haha. awww.. :( tapos ayun. umuwi na rin kami. dpat punta kami binyag ni zander. kaso nga lang... ayaw ni EJ. haha. pagdating namin sa bahay. nandun na sila jello at cholo. kakagaling lang nila sa binyag ni zander! ugh. tapos yun. nag CS kami. haha. nandun si zeke. nag aadik sa fster. haha. ako, si cholo at si ej vs. jello, mikee, zeke! haha! ang galing ni zeke eh! pinapatay ako PALAGI! hahaha! ang ingay talaga naming lahat maglaro!! weeee!! haha. tapos nag patintero kami. tapos nag badminton. haha. nag one on one kami ni jello. malas nga eh. kailangan pang sungkitin yung puno kasi ang lakas ng tira ni Mr. MBP!! haha. tapos yun. nag one on one kami ni cholo. tapos nag doubles. kami ni jello vs. mikee and cholo. tapos umuwi na sila. tapos bumili kami ni mikee. umikot habang nagkwekwentuhan tungkol kay.. *tooot*. haha.

end of story.

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

sometimes i run away far far away. @ 5/16/2007 01:28:00 PM

sometimes i want to be alone in my own little world. where nobody could ever enter. where nobody can ever see me. where all my fears are trashed and all my tears won't fall.

funny how i felt yesterday. he was there pero my fears about him were all gone. parang for some time, i was free, laughing and jumping and shouting. haha. it felt like something i never felt before around him. maybe because of the fact that *someone else* was there for him to look at, and for me to stare at as well. somehow, i frifted away with that feeling. i mean i don't like him... pero some part of me wants to see him always. it's not a crush thing, pero there's something about him that makes me happy. very happy.

anyway.. he was there(ex). pero wala eh. kahit bilanggo ako ng grupo nila, wala. walang grudges. walang ilang. walang kahit ano. bsta i'm there, he's there.

nothing else. nothing in between, nothing.

YOU'RE HERE IN MY DREAMS.

for the past few days. HE is there. in my dreams. palagi. pero i'm not imitating someone. i'm saying the truth.. he was really there. always there.

magpakailanman

hahaha. ang gwapo talaga ng boses ni Teddy!!! hahahaha!! grabe, i'm listening to "magpakailanman" by rocksteddy. grabe! ang gwapo ng boses ni teddy!! sana may kumanta rin niyan sakin!! waaa!! tama bang kiligin?! haha!! aliww.

magbaLik. @ 5/16/2007 11:35:00 AM

woah. noisy day. hahaha. so umuwi na ako nung umaga. yipee!! bye bye boredom!
tapos nag computer ako. tapos lumabas. ewan ko kung bakit, pero ang high ko!!! hahaha! ininspire ako ni ramon bautista!! hahahahahahahaha! tae naman yan!! grabe! ginagaya ko siya the whole time! ano ba! haha! tapos nag counter na kami ni mikee. tapos woah! dumating si bes!! hahaha! tapos yun... kinalaro namin ni mikee yung bata dun. tapos 2 on 3. kami ni mikee vs. yung lalaki. hahaha. tapos nanalo kami! hahaha! kala niya ah! tapos naglaro kami. ayan... after some freaking minutes ang daming lalaki sa may tapat nina Nonoy! duh!! the whole batch of bilbileros. hahaha. joke. sina Gelo yun. tapos nandun din sina Kenjie. sina Raven. bsta lahat ng grupo ng mga lalaki pinagsama-sama. so nananahimik kaming anim na girls sa aming little world of patintero... tapos si Josh, pasaway!! inimbitahan sila. so kami naman, sige... ANYTIME! pero grabe!! ang ingay nila! promise!! tapos ayaw pa nila maki-cooperate! hahaha! so.. pinapanood nila kaming mag patintero.ughh.. tapos nag base to base na kami. dun na sila sumali! grabe!!! ang DAMI!! eh pa eps pa yung truck ng tubig. so kinulit namin sila. ahahahhaha. :P tapos ayun. umayos din yung laro. ahaha. kakampi ko sina bes, mie, gelo, cholo, claude, ziggy, joshua, mikhel, sam. tapos sa kabila naman, si aya, lish, raven, kenjie, ej, mikee, zeke, jeff, hans. hahaha. lugi kami!! pero sige, GO!!! hahahahaha! hahaha. at least mas masaya kami kesa sakanila!! haha! not to mention, run like the wind si kenjie!!! huwaahh! ang BILIS!!! hahha! ayan.. laro laro. grabe, ang saya nung kagabi!! ang dami talaga!!! as in super! hahahaha!! tapos habulan ng habulan! pero sa sbrang saya, ngayon ko lang na realize na nde pala kami nka base. hahaha! 1-0! biruin mo! sa hinaba haba ng laro, yun lang kinahantungan!! hahaha! tapos kumain ako. pagkatapos ko kumain. tae talaga si gelo, sabi ko kasi *yeay! nandito na ako! to the rescue!* hahaha. buti na lang nde siya marunong mangbara!! :P belat! hahahaha!!

tapos ayun. boring na. ewan ko kung bakit. nde naman kami ganun dati. dati kasi dba, hanggang curfew naglalaro kami. so nag taguan kami. switched to bang sak. at si JEFF yung taya. hahahaha. sabi ko kasi ako taya pero pag taguan. pag bang sak naman, si cholo (haha. hilig ko kasi pagtripan yun eh. :P)... eh si jeff... nagalok na maging taya. so okay. siya na taya. pero wala pang ilang minuto, natigil na rin yung game. awww... si gelo, nakatayo sa may poste. si raven nasa may ilalim ng puno. si jeff nasa harap nina dudes. kaming 4, nakatayo sa may car. ewan ko kung bakit, basta lumago eh! ugh. tapos yun, umalis sina raven at jeff. si gelo nag bike. tapos ewan ko na kung nasan yung iba. so, bumili kmi. kung anu-ano na nilaro namin out of boredom. hahaha. nag bente uno kami. nag sardinas. nag volleyball. nag soccer. nag touch ball. tapos naging SUPER wasted na kmi. so bumili kami. tinali namin ni bes yung paa namin. haha. tapos naglakad kami hanggang tindahan. actually hanggang AMC lang. di kinaya ng powers namin. tapos ayun. bumili kami. si bes, HANEP ANG SIGAW!!! hahah! nag joggle siya ng ipis!!! hahahahahha!!! tapos yun.. umuwi na kami. habang praning pa rin si bes! hahaha!! tapos yun.. nagkwentuhan na lang kami. tapos yun na yun. weird nga eh. dapat sweaty kami hanggang curfew. pero nde. weird. anyway. di pa pala tapos yung kwento. the title. kasi nga diba, addicted ako sa song na yan dati. mga panahong hindi pa yan sikat. tapos nagtanong tanong ako kung sinong marong ganun. hanep si seezoou! ang saya pa niya habang pinapahiram sakin yung CD eh!! hahaha! tapos yun, inaasar na ako ni seezoou ng "magbalik" for no particular reason! hahaha1 tapos na create yung music vid. tapos nagsawa ako. tapos well well.. kahapon, woah! may bglang kumanta nun! actually marami sila, pero akalain mo nga naman, si *tooot* kinakanta yun!!! hahaha!! awwww.... so ngayon. yep. pinapakinggan ko!! haha!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

often. @ 5/15/2007 01:21:00 PM

wow nmn. ganun uli panaginip ko. it was gelo's bday. hahaha. belated. tapos nasa harap kami ng bahay nina Josh. dun daw nag celebrate si gelo ng bday nia. tapos parang nasa isip ko... ano ba yan.. di naman kami close para lamunin ko tong' mga pagkain dito eh. hahahaha. tapos ayun. nag base2base kami. bsta kami-kami. si Aya, kaso bumili daw siya ng ice candy kasama si mie. tapos si mikee at joshua nag gagame boy. tapos sina Gelo nagbibike. ewan ko kung bakit... pero naglalaro ako. hahahaa. ewan ko kung sino mga kalaro ko bsta alam ko eight on eight. hahhah. weird noh?! tae!

ayan. pagka gcng ko, wow... ang aga. asenso na eh! haha! tapos nanood na lang kami ni EJ. eh natripan niang mag comp so nanood na lang dn ako. tapos pinalabas uli yung movie about emily and paul sa star movies. this time di na ako naiyak... kasi late na nun eh! ahaha! anyway.. nood lang ng nood. nanood nga rin ako ng that 70's show. hahaha. naalala ko si cheche, favorite niya ksi yun!! hahaha! laughtrip talaga! ayan... ang dami ko na ring' namimiss. mga schoolmates... friends... ahahahaha!!! whew! anyway.. i'm back. i hope i didn't missed a lot. :P

Monday, May 14, 2007

complete in dreams. @ 5/14/2007 06:55:00 PM

wow.. gandaaa ng panaginip ko ngayong hapon!
i dreamt of my barkada. and SOMEHOW we're complete. actually, wala nun si kuya nikol. :( ndi ko siya nakita. tapos si Franz din kasama. hahaa. weird. ewwaann ko kung bakit. anyway. we played and played. kasama namin yung grupo nina Gelo at grupo nina TanTan. ahahaha. saya. teka break muna... ngayon lang namin nalaman na sina Tan, nagtatago rin pla kina Mr. S!! hahah. ang malupet sknila, hanggang 3am! ahahaha! anyway... back to my dream.. i won't go on details again. baka nde magkatotoo. i just hope someday it would happen. :) aheehee. sige... that's it for my dreams.

grabe, i'm craving for chocolate and jellies. oh no. haahahah. my mom did some mother's day shopping... tapos she bought tons of it. hahahaha. kaya ayun. i miss my other craving, ice candy. walang ganun dito. :(( huuhhuu. okay. alam niyo ba, i've been playing a lot of LAN games lately. nag start sa CS. tpos half-life.. tapos yung team fortress, un lang. :)

mamaya na ulit... iniinjectionan cousin ko. suporta daw!!! hahahaha!

the grudges. @ 5/14/2007 10:59:00 AM

wow. napaka LONG TIME AGO na nito. i dreamt of somebody last night. and it was kind of real. i won't go over the deatails.. but ever since that dream came to me, i felt happy. hindi kami nagkakailangan. at di rin kami galit sa isa't isa. we've been over some misunderstanding already. and now... we're friends na strangers. i hope he's okay with where he's going now.
and i always he knew he NEVER did that. he was blamed for something he didn't even started. so... goodluck. :)

Sunday, May 13, 2007

i will be around. @ 5/13/2007 10:54:00 AM

wow. it's been a long time since France and I had a serious talk. we both like to talk about life kasi. we both like seeing things more that what the eye meets. :)
i left you in the not so good morning right? so... while i was playing because the connection wouldn't want to cooperate, the phone rang. wow! it was FRANCE! it's the first time he called! hahaha! he was just nangangamusta. he's there in Makati na daw. and he left aya and I a remembrance. then he opened the topic about my blog. he laughed at me because he said di naman niya daw tlga favorite song yung "i will be around". gusto niya lang kantahin. hahaha. and he can't find any lyrics of it in the intrenet. (wish it SO true). haay nko. anyway... he sang it. and he sounds pretty good.

it's nice to have a friend on the phone when i don't have anyone else to talk to. good thing my parents and my brother's out for shopping. i was left alone. wala naman. parang kami lang pag naguusap kmi personally. then we went to the topic of cascades. how everyone was before he left. how kuya ross is now? what's up with his life. why i don't go online that much. this and that. he was blabbering. i was blabbering. we both love it. hahahaa. we just laughed and laughed kasi as usual he talks about his cousin. yung maangas niyang cousin. hahahahaha. tapos sometimes he'd interrupt in the phone. hahahaha! i kind of miss him. at least now i'm sure i have a shoulder to lean on when i'm scared. and i would always know... he would ALWAYS BE AROUND. :) thanks peps.

once in a while i sink into my thoughts. @ 5/13/2007 10:00:00 AM

May 11.

grabe. i'm so inspired. i just read the blog of Bianca Gonzalez bago ako mag burst out. it's hard to trust people nowadays. ang hirap. feelis like you actually can't just trust them that instantly. so, from now own, i wouldn't trust anybody agad-agad. after those "i-want-to-rebel" moments, the line from the "words from a wise man" is bianca's blog got to me.

"ang sabi ng iba ang matapang ay walang takot lumaban
ang sabi ko naman, 'ang tunay na matapang ay lumalaban kahit natatakot."

grabe. it was really very inspiring. :)

then i went further. nakita ko yung "you must be the change that you wish to see in the world."

and it was true. if we want to see changes happening. we should change ourselves first right? we start the change within ourselves.

then i though of forgiving. tapos the 'thought' suddenly stopped. kasi dumating si Mikee. knocking on my door. so i took a bath. while taking a bath. the though went back.. then i decided to actually forgive. then i came up with these things that was blowing my mind off... a.k.a conscience. :P

1)everybody deserves a second chance.
2)do unto others what you want others to do unto you.
lastly...
3)'ang tunay na matapang ay lumalaban kahit natatakot.

so i decided to forgive my brother and give a last chance to be trusted.
after all, he is my brother. :)

after takign a LONG bath. i went out. looking for my friends. i went to the usual tambayan. i asked ate if they're playing. ate said nasa kabila.
uh-oh. here comes the fear again. while walking towards the other tindahan.. i was choosing whether to go, or not to go. i chose GO. but as soon as i opened the door, i saw peopl playing. not them. without actually knowing if they were inside, i ran away. being haunted by my grudges that i trashed long long before. so i walked again. this time, my house was my destination. while walking.. i thought of a lot of things again. LIFE mostly. then there i go, daydreaming. then, natalisod ako! hahahah! good thing no one was there. i was so gaga. then i remembered what my bestfriend told me. kapag natalisod ka, pretend like you're jogging. so i did it. hahaha. i want to laugh at myself. hahaha! then i was entering Augustus street. i saw people. "walisan galore".. yung bglang lumabas sa bibig ko. typical me. i love blabbering. then i though of "what could they be talking right now?" then i saw someone, "cguro, ssbhn na naman nito pa importante ako. kaya ayn, iniwanan ako ng kaibigan ko." wrong. di niya ako actually nakita. then i passed by Torek and then "don't care about what the think about you" was all i can think about. i went inside. looking for my yaya, wondering what she would think about me. then i saw. DEADMA. then i opened the computer.

i really wanted to post the "words from a wise man" but PRIVACY nga naman. so few. kaya i just left it there in ate bianca's page. so if you actually want to see it.. click here.
okay, there you go. wait. someone's calling....

great. it's for my mother. btw, she's not here.
back to blogging. look at her page tlga. u'd really be surprised.

SCRAMBLED THOUGTHS.

i don't actually have a particular topic here. since i can't do anything, i went to my folders and browsed through some of them. hoping there would be some funny memories to laugh about. whoops. and here they are! my past YM archives.
i may seem weird, but they are treasures. they're actually memories from my past.. people i talked to, or what we have done. blah blah. then i did some "remembering" time. i remembered the first time i actually saw blood from the wrist. oh no, why did that dropped by in my mind. nag drive thru. tae. i remembered the first time i sang in fromt of many people. mostly, i remembered my tropa. i don't know why. but they're suddenly here. i miss PEARLSHAKES. maybe it's because i'm listening to kamikazee's director's cut. which everyone favors. :)

May 12. (May 11 continuation.)

okay. enough about that. di ko tlga toh na post yesterday, so i guess, icocontinue ko na lang. ayan. after writing this, mikee fetched me here, told me everyone's outside. so we played patintero. seems a little dumb though. kaming four lang (mikee, ako, aya, mie) yung naglalaro. why? ooohh. it's gelo's bday. hahahaha. so.. we decided na mag computer. at eto na ang pinaka demanding na part. the grudge from the past hunts me again. we were about to meet ways, but they took a right turn. uh-oh. worse. nandun sila sa tindahan. so aya asked "ano.. tutuloy pa ba? (while looking at me. promise. ang lakas mangasar)" then we all said, "oo naman" si mie.. sbi.. "talagang nananadya kayo ah!" hehehehe. anyway. whew. i though they were going to play. good thing bumili lang sila. so, i wanted to prove to them that i have finally gone through my fear. so i walked towards the door where the internet shop is. but sadly, kailangan ko pa xang daanan. so i did. quickly. our butts ma have touched. hahaha. so kumuha na kami ng upuan. i kept looking outside, but i tried to hold myself back. because i know he's there. so we played counter strike. kami ni Mikee magkakampi.
tae, yung control nung sakin iba. i was used to the "b" for buy and "<&>" for bullets. kaso dun sa comp na napunta sakin, "F1" for buy. and "F2&F3" for bullets. so all counter strike beginners out there, there's the guide. then suddenly, two kids helped me. i think the other was James. and the other one was "boy panghi" well actually... that's what i call him. kasi he pees on his shorts. anyway.. i JUST usually buy bullets for my pistol and a rifle. the fifth or sixth one. and if i have extra cash, i buy flashbombs. but when the kids helped me buy stuff and taught me what keys to press... i was so happy. i never knew there was an armor. life supports. hahahahaha. then they said to me to ALWAYS switch my pistol to burst fire mode. but sadly, "kugelfang" killed me. so nasayang lahat ng binili nila. but then again, there's always next time. tapos they kept on typing "impulse" in th tab screen, pero di daw gumagana. oh well... so they left, because they have to go home pa. and happily, we were winning. of course thanks to our adbots! hahaha! but then again, i looked around. coz i knew i heard a familiar voice. and oh no. it's him. he's actually watching us play. or maybe just mie play. anyway... alam ko nandun sila. i also heard him near me. teaching the guy by my side who was playing DBA. i was really shaking? there was one time when i can't even look at my screen, then the next thing i knew, a CT killed me. damn it. then all of a sudde, mikee just through a flashbomb in front of me, so it turned my screen so white i can't even see my enemies. so, THEY KILLED ME. duh. we were done playing. i killed a lot. and the bomb was still and undefeatedly useless. i paid. and the money was pissing me off. ayaw niya lumabas. i wanted to get out of that place ASAP! felt like i can't breathe. tapos, pasaway pa si Mikee. bumili pa ng ice candy.. so we still have to wait for her. meaning longer time to see HIM. oh no. finally, we took off. whew. pagkabalik namin.. yeay!! naglalaro sina Gelo. hahaha. we played all night long. actually we took a break for dinner. the the break was over. back to the fun! :P actually, before playing, aya and i did some us time first. we talked in the swing. we talked about my travelling dreams. and tons more. then.. we decided to play. nung una, sina jeff at cholo lang kalaro namn. tapos sumali na sina gelo at ej! then we played. and played. and played. we were actually supossed to wait for Mr. S but sadly, pinapasok na sina Gelo at cholo ng 9:00pm. haayy. so aya and i had some serious talk. we talked about cascades.. and my revelations. and hers too. how we REALLY feel that time. and it was sakto. kasi i needed a friend. but then again, even days have to end. so because of the undespicable curfews (this time, it's not Mr. S's fault) we have to stop from our talk........ and continue it in the phone! ewan ko kung bakit, pero maybe because of the eagerness of the one i'm with. hahaha. but even phone hours should end nowadays.
end of my fun not to mention sweaty day.

May 12 (hello world.)

i'm sinking. i woke up so early just to go to my brother's STA. actually, ayaw ko naman pumunta. pero my parents forced me. i slept at 12:30am waiting for my cousin to talk in Y-VOTE election special in studio 23. she was interviewed there. and i aslo waited for PBB. but heck, i SHOULD wake up at 7:30 am. and whoa. it was a VERY VERY VERY VERY bad morning. anyway. back to where i was. i went to school. watch. video my brother's ridiculous look. and then, go back. blah blah..... my day continuing... whoops stop the forward. i want to post this.

ever since i made this blog. it already became my online confidante. i mean i feel happy when i write about this stuff. it's my own personal outlet. this might sound crazy but i made a world here. in here, i can step out of the real world for some time. here, i can just be myself. and not the girl everyone is thinking about.
everytime i go here in my "terror house" i always feel bad. not just because of the fact that i would be moving here before SY starts, but maybe because of the whole thing. and a lot more. after getting home from my mom's clinic, we went home. and then, i packed my clothes. i watched TV.. and i watched Narnia. hahahaha. it was the only bearable movie i can watch. hahaha. aliww nga eh. kasi everytime Lucy cries, bumababaw luha ko. heehee. tapos i turned on the PC and saved most of the files in my MP3. so i can transfer them HERE. yep. even my files need to move out. haha. then.... oh no... here comes my reality. eating up the whole me. my mom came.. and she was so berseck. she was tensed. ALL THE TIME. of course, my nerves was so scared of it too. so nataranta din ako. while in the car (long long way from my house)... i suddenly remembered... i forgot the MOUSE. and the CD of GTA. so... boo me. i was stuck watching a bunch of movies. and being blamed for not doing anything. well.. here's the thing. whenever i do something, i always mess up. who to blame? me. it's better to be blamed for not doing anything because that would what it will always be. while being blamed for, messing things up would make it hurt much much more. so i watched epic movie (finally, napanood ko na rin!). tapos pagtapos nun, i did some stuff. then words were in my mind. they were all yelling at me.. yada yada yada. wow, can;t you balme my brother for being in fromt of the computer for too long? ugghh. so after watching the movie, felt like it was actually the end of my world. oh no. felt like it was the end of my fantasy. it was time to go back to reality. okay. my reality. napapagalitan. my reality? i cry. a lot. maybe it doesn't show... but when i cry, A LOT of things and words steps inside my mind adn just flash and flash and flash. then.. i would write it all down. writing calms me down. so's photography. either ways, they make me feel good. they make feel confided. if there's such a word as that. heehee. maybe that's why i tend to forget my problems when i would post my entries already. wow... "sometimes fantasy is better than reality." -sam on a cinderella story. my guitar also gives me comfort. like i'm needing it now, but it's not here. i forgot tons of stuff and MY GUITAR. clumsy me.

my imaginations.
i have an alter ego. she's so perfect. wish i could be her. sometimes i would just sink into my thoughts and i'm wanting to be taken away by it. haayy. i wish i would never get out of this world i have created. the world where only my good thoughts exist. and the world where i could SMILE. i mean really SMILE.
all this time the world was seeing me. but just a part of me. there are only a few people who sees most of the real me, and none to see to whole part of it. some thinks they know me, but they don't know me a lot. why? yah. why. some people thinks i'm the perfect girl. my family actually thinks i can't make any mistake.
i dont want the whole world to see me in just one snap. why? because if i would give them all the infos, none would be surprising them in the near future.

i hope they can see as the real me. not the alter ego i made. not the girl that was stuck in their mind.

i just want to be remembered as a CLUMSY, SIMPLE, IMPERFECT, HAPPY girl that is not very far away from other's world. i just want people to see right through me. to know what is inside the mask in my face.. i just want the world to know me not for what i made them see, but for who i really am. they knew me for a wrong reason. i am what they know, but not all of me. there are LOTS more.

there was a survey in one of the blogs i visited. then i saw one question there, "have you ever made a change in your life? have you ever wondered what is more?"... wow. it hit me. big time. i took a few steps backwards and went to bianca's blog. the picture about the tiles that kids designed. the "change" thing.. it was such a relief. i can get a little bit of a dork sometimes. i talk to myself much. words would be so random in my head. it's like a big explosion where words would be the explosives. and they'd be there in my head.whenever i go through something rough.. hard would be the exact word... i would be quiet. but my mind won't. it's like a peaceful place for me. it's like a diary. where words would randomly appear but i wouldn't remember it.. and it would be gone. i can be a bit of an emo sometimes. but not the i-need-razors-to-cut-my-wrists-off kind of emo. we can put it as an sensitive and emotional philosopher. i always wonder about life. what it means, and what's more. told you i can get a bit of a dork.

getting away from my imaginations and entering real word again.

my relatives came. for dinner. wow. just after my "me-time".
my cousin Pauline was there. it feels ackward though. i can't talk to her that much like we used to when we were little.. playing power rangers and hide and seek in my lola's house every sunday. i guess i left a lot of people along the way. and after that, i can't find my way to find them again. to pick up what we left. maybe we SHOULD be going with our own lives. take different paths. i hope not. but that's it. anyway.. i'm not a very big fan of mingling while being angry. because sometimes i would just burst out and i don't want that to happen. i don't want people to notice me when i'm sad. sure i need comfort, but sometimes i just want to be alone first when i want to think about stuff. so i watched READ IT AND WEEP again. it's an influence for me to crave for a stylus laptop. hahaha. why? because i love DOODLING. and i love writing, so it's like a combined ready to be bought laptop with pen and paper / tech savvy thing i would ever want. wow. dreams. kelan kaya magiging mura yun?
anyway, so i watched. my cousins were playing PC games, tita madel and pauline were reading magazines while i'm sitting at the far end of the couch watching my NEW FAVORITE MOVIE. it's like CALIFORNIA DIARIES made into a movie. too many inspirations nowadays huh?! :) then... surprise surprise! they told my brother he would be transferring to southridge on his freshmen year. it's a good school. way better than seton.boo hoo. control control. that's what they always do. that seems as a culture already. i couldn't speak. i know my brp doesn't want it too. but surprisingly, no words came out of my mouth. anyway.. i continued watching until i heard that they were saying sayang daw kasi dpat lumipat na rin ako ng school. pero i hate to admit it, but i don't want to. nothing could compare to the family i made with the school i was in since pre-school. the all of a sudden i'd transfer? moving was already a big deal. and i don't want school to add. so NO WAY! then, i can't hear anything anymore. from the TV. but i hear a lot of voices. talking about bra colors. some showbiz scoops. the game, because sadly, my brother doesn't know how to use headphones. and more voices, LOUD VOICES. shouting, yelling, debating! good thing the movie has subtitles. i could read and watch their mouths say the words. thank God. then it was time for to go, and my tita notices my scrape and spider scar. uh-oh. criticism. criticism. and more criticism. hey, i'm only HUMAN! actually an IMPERFECT one. i'm not wolverine whose wounds would heal quickly. speaking of... my scrape hurts. hahaha. i keep on calling it scrape. laugh laugh.
so as usual, i was speechless... and i decided to confide to my journal again. but sadly and irritatingly, it wouldn't cooperate. yep. it WON'T connect. boo-hoo. guess i'd try tomorrow. happy mother's day to my mom anyway. :P and i hope things would be fine. if not... i would put on dates on this post again. :P

may 13.

wow. dates. so that means the connection was screwed over. HAPPY MOTHERS DAY by the way. if it is happy. i did too mucb crying lately. parang unlimited supply yung luha ko. tsk tsk. anyway.. last night, i slept at maybe 2am. because i watched King Kong. and the actual reson : CAN'T SLEEP. okay. so nakatulog na ako afterwards... di ko na natapos yung movie.
then... whoopee. that's what i hate here, VERY SUNDAY.. i'd be harrassed first before i wake up. kailangan pa akong balian ni Sonia. berdugo kasi eh. tae tlga. she ALWAYS ruin my sunday mornings. so AS USUAL, i had a bad morning and my dad, ugghh, he was really making me irritated. i ALMOST forgot it was mother's day. he embarassed me. and the bacon really tated AWFUL. so much for hep hep hooray in mother's day. :( so i went to the room and i lied down. then i was guilty because it IS mother's day. and i haven't done anything to make my mom happy. i kinds miss the little things i did before. years back. when EVERY SUNDAY, i'd wake up early finding my mom and my dad in the bed, sleeping. our 'before' sundays. but it's so far away now. things aren't the same. every sunday, i'd wake up being pulled from the bed. every sunday, i have a bad morning. before, kapaga mother's day o kata father's day... i'd wake up early to cook for my mom. pero ngayon. SONIA interrupts. I know she would yell at me when i lay my hands on the kitchen. things were all simple and good before i started growing up. i was contented. nothing makes me SAD. nothing. kasi wlang Sonia. wlang TS CRUZ. wala. and maybe that's what pisses me off. hate it.

so, i watched read it and weep again. i'm so adidcted to the song "i will be around". (i'm sorry france. share na tayo sa fave song ah!) *that's my friend's favorite song kasi eh*. it's great. :) after watching the movie.. i lied down again. i saw my mom was all dressed up. she was going to the hospital. then she asked me if i can accompany her. i said NO. why? because i know she'd yell at me. kasi alam kong' nagmamadali siya, eh ang tagal ko maligo. either ways, wheatever i pick, i'd ruin her mother's day. and it makes me so guilty. i wish i should've just accompanied her.. :( "happy mother's day mama.. i love you" :( i wish i could tell her that.

Friday, May 11, 2007

bee. @ 5/11/2007 02:34:00 PM

hahahaha!! buti naman! naayos ko yung links ko! woohoo!! :P
ahahaha. grabe, naiwanan na naman ako dito. speaking of. ahahaha. putek. sna ndi boring tong' araw na toh. alam ko lang mag co-counter kami. yun lang. ano pa kaya? ewann ko kung makakalaro namin sina gElo. bday niya kasi ngayon. haha. speaking of.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ahehehehe. kamusta naman. online greeting. as if naman makikita! ahahahah! tae, ang high ko. mmmpppff.
napadpad na naman sa kokote ko yung iniisip namin dti ng pshakes ko!! haha!! yung "ibig sabihin ng bumble" hahahaaha!! ano ba! tae naman. hahahah!!
ayy alam niyo ba, may na discover ako sa sarili ko... gusto kong' libutin yung mundo. see great things before my eyes. ndi sa TV's. ndi sa computer. in real life. bago ako mamatay i swear kailangan ko yun gawin.

when we imagine. @ 5/11/2007 11:27:00 AM

ang senti ko ngayon. grabe. i don't feel like listening to rock ngayon. i don't feel like even watching their music vids. ano ba. aheehee, tae.
kasi naman, i watched a movie. paggising ko kasi nagsisigawan si mama at si ej sa phone. so kinuha ko yung remote. eh ang tagal pa ng one tree hill nun, so naghanap ako ng mapapanood. tapos nakita ko yung sa starmovies. grabe. kaiyak tlga. akala ko nga action eh. hahahaha! aliww. anyhow.. ganito kasi yun. parang yung babae kasi, she slept with a lot of guys (ndi ko naumpisahan, yan na naabutan ko. :P) tapos she got pregnant. yung parent kasi niya, parang walang pakialam. happy-go-lucky. ganun. so parang she grew up being misunderstood. she was very greedy with her son. ndi niya pinapapasok sa school... HOME SCHOOLED yung anak niya. happy-go-lucky din sila pareho. like they have the world of their own. hanggang sa naging curious na si Paul (yung son). tapos pinunta ni Emily (yung mother) si paul sa may sea. tapos parang dun muna sila.. kasi ayaw nga ni emily na magaral si paul. tapos si mark, fisherman siya. tinuruan nia si paul ng kung anu-ano. tapos nagselos si Emily. kasi parang inaagaw ni mark si paul sknia. so umalis na uli sila. pumasok na si paul sa school. tapos parang di parin maka let go si emily. tapos si paul kwento ng kwento tungkol sa teacher niya tapos nagselos ulit si Emily. hanggang sa there was a time na sabi ni emily, pupunta sila sa doctor. pero pinunta niya si paul sa isang boat. parang pupuntahan daw nila yung indian chief who knows all the secrets of the world. makebelieve lang yun ah. so, nagalit si paul. tapos umalis siya. tapos eto na yung nakakaiyak na part. sabi ni emily dun daw sila matulog ni paul sa car. nung una paul was saying "no mom, it's wrong. we should sleep in the bed." tapos nag insist si emily. kiniss ni emily si paul. tapos nakatulog sila. yun pala, yung car, naka on. tapos nasa garage yung car nun. ni-lock nia lahat ng pwedeng daanan ng air. grabe, in order for her to let go of her son, she needs to let go of herself first. so namatay si emily. cguro nilabas niya sa car si paul nun. kasi nung huli buhay si paul. nakakaiyak tlga. promise. :(

anyway.. weird nung dream ko. ahahaha!! berks&cascades combined. ahahahaha!! tapos si France daw nagyaya mag italia. pero iba yung itsura nug italia. tapos kami ni bes, naglalakad sa pool. kami lang ni aya nag swimming. kasi si lisha at kat daw merong BISITA. :) heehee. tapos yun. bsta weird nga eh. ahahahaha!!

imagination. :P

Thursday, May 10, 2007

why can't i. @ 5/10/2007 10:09:00 PM

hahaha. saya ng day ko. parang kahapon lang din.
computer. tapos si Joshua tinawag ako. so ayan. dali-dali na namang maligo. ahahaha!
tapos tinawag namin si Mie. hahaha. *ang twag ni Josh sa gulay MOnay. ayiii.*
so nag computer na kami. nag counter strike. GO TERRORISTS!! aheehee. tapos wala na kaming magawa afterwards.
nag monkey in the middle kami nina Mikee, Mie at ako. tapos nilaro ko si Awa. sina ej naman, nagbibike kasama si Kenjie. dumating na nga pala si Aya this time. kaso ang tagal lumabas! so pagkalabas.. kwento kwento. lakad lakad. tapos nag computer na rin kami. magkakampi kami ni Mie. tapos si Aya at Mikee. tapos mga adbot. ahahaha. as usual terro prn. tapos pagkabalik namin, nag tataguan sina Gelo.. so join naman kami. ahahaha. tapos kumain ako. tapos lumabas. naglaro kaming base to base. grabe, injury day ko ngayon. kamusta naman. :( na scrape yung legs ko! joke lang. pero prng ganun na rin. grabe!! LUGI TALAGA KAMI THIS TIME! ako, si mie, si aya, si josh, si nikki, si mikhel at si sam. tapos sila! huhuhu. lugi talaga kami!! 6-1!!! at kami yung 1!!! grabe.. hahaha. nga pala. na adopt na ng mga tao yung expression ko. hahaha. tapos sinasabi nila ng sinasabi! wow! napaka influential ko na pla ngayon! ahaha! ako naman, nahawa sa bea laugh. oh no. tska sa "ano ba?". ahahaha! tapos nag patintero kami. di ko naman aakalain na may gana pala silang maglaro ng mga ganitong laro. ahahahaha! aliww. tapos yun. kainis si Cholo eh! sinira niya yung slippers ko! di naman literally. ndi. sira tlga. pero napatid kasi ako. aheehee. kasi naman nagulat ako sknia. oh no.:(( huhuhu. kaya di ko na xa pinapadaan. anyhow. 9:30 pa lang uwian na. sayang di pa kami umabot ng curfew!! sayang talaga! aawayin na sna nmn si Mr. S eh!! hayy nko. sige, late na. manonood pa ako. basta, ang saya tlga ngayon! si Zeke lang kasi eh. laging ang aga umuwi. wla tuloy ka tandem si Mikee.

*ang bango. shet. ka-melt eh!*
hahaha. konek?! weird. tae. nababaliw na naman ako. ahahaha!!! scrape!!
sige na nga. bukas na uli. :P

uplate. @ 5/10/2007 01:41:00 PM

grabe. i took a bath after pbb on primetime. naglinis ako ng kuko after that. everybody was sleeping. tapos tumawag si mommie peng. grabe!! MIDNIGHT!! we both watched pbb uplate. tapos tawa kami ng tawa. hahaha. tapos pareho na pala kaming nahawa sa 'bea laugh'. hahahaha!! grabe talaga! aliw talaga yun si mommie peng! anyhow.. walang tears kagabi! success! nasa US na bf niya. finally, nakapag come up sila ng magandang realtionship kht LDR. heehee. nakakatuwa nga siya kagabi eh. kasi paos. parang ka boses ni France! ahahaha! hayy nako. i'll be missing my mommie peng. sayang di kami magka age. pero at least we're friends. aliw eh! hayy nako mommie peng. ang lakas na mang alaska kagabi!! crush ko daw si *tooooot*hindi nga!! grabe, sbrang lakas na mang alaska, sobrang lakas pa tumawa!!! hahaha! tapos sabi niya naka bikini da siya kanina! ahahahaha!!! aliwww talaga!! fenk pa! oh yeah!! hahahaha!! ayy ewan. pang alis stress talaga yun!! laughtrip eh!!! :)) grabe!

teardrops on my guitar. @ 5/10/2007 12:57:00 PM

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

scratch drew. who the hell is he?
heehee.
maybe i'm just feeling weird today. i kept on imagining a person pag nakikita ko lyrics ng kanta na toh. hmpf. ayoko. ayoko nun. wala naman talaga eehhh. feel ko lang someday magkakaron. ugghhh. ayoko ng post na toh. nakakatae. ughh!! scratch this!!

over it. @ 5/10/2007 12:49:00 PM

ang stupid ko naman.. kasi minahal pa kita.
i just wasted a lot of my time.
i don't regret anything that happened.
i actually just hated it. kasi imbis na maging masaya ako, i wasted a lot of tears for you. so scratch the trust i gave you.
boo you. i'm so over you. blackman. nagsayang ako ng pera sa telepono! my gosh!

over it-katharine mcphee.
I'm over your lies,
and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,
when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,
and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,
I know you're not alone.
oh..

That's why
(your eyes)
I'm over it
(your smile)
I'm over it
(realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over..

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm over your hands,
and I'm over your mouth.
Trying to drag me down,
and fill me with self-doubt.
oh..

That's why,
(your words)
I'm over it
(so sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

Don't call,
don't come by,
ain't no use,
don't ask me why,
you'll never change,
there'll be no more crying in the rain.

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

I'm so over it....
I'm over it....

Wanting you,
to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,
because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,
you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,
but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

so goodbye to all the lies you said.
goodbye to the days i was so crazy about you.
goodbye to everything we did.
and goodbye to you.

curfew. @ 5/10/2007 11:09:00 AM

hahaha!! sobrang saya ng araw kahapon!!! subbrraa!
nag iinternet kasi ako, as usual.. tapos bgla nang dumating si Mikee at joshua. my gosh... mga 3:30 pa lang yun. ehh di pa ako naliligo.. nagyayaya na kasi sila mag counter strike!!! huwwwaahh :(( so ayoko naman maglaro mamaya ng couter strike na puro adbot lang ksma ko. NO WAY! kaya naligo ako ng ubod ng bilis! nag time sila ng ten freaking minutes!!! haay nako. grabe, pagkalabas ko ng banyo, feeling ko nabasa lang ako. i was soaking wet. piga piga pa nga buhok ko nun eh!!!! >:( tapos nag counter strike na kami!! haha!! magkakampi na kami ni mikee.. tapos si Ej tska Joshua. grabe!! laging nasa akin yung bomb, eh di ako marunong magplanta... hahaha!! so lagi kong nadro-drop o kaya binabato ko na lng sknla!! bleh!!
laughtrip talaga nung napatay ko si joshua nung ndi niya ako nakikita ehh!! hahaha!!
tapos nag time na kami. dumating sina Mie.. tapos bumili kami ng ice candy tska umikot. ayunn. tapos sina Mikee, Josh at MIkhel nag laro ng pokemon cards. tapos si ej nag basket ball kasama sina jeff. tapos ako tska si Mie, loner sa swing!!! tapos umulan pa!! :(( nakalimutan ko nga sumayaw sa ulan eh!! haha! first rain of the month pa naman! tapos pasilip silip kami sa intrnt shop kasi tnitgnan namin kung may 2 slot. balak kasi namin mag counter ni mie. tapos puno!! huhu. kaya ayun. nag punta nalang kami sa bahay ko. nanood ng love truly. tapos tumawag si kat. *splash*. tapos lumabas na kami. nag counter strike kami sa AMC. kasi puno pa rin sa berks store. tapos malas si bes, kasi nasira computer niya!! :( tapos nag CS na kami dun. hahaha!! terro kasi ako. LOVE KO YUN EH! tapos natuto na ako magplanta ng bomba kasi tinuruan ako ni Kenjie. yeay!! kaso laging dinedefuse ni Mikhel o kaya ni mikee. >:( hmmmpppfff!!
tapos natapos na kami. panalo pa sina mikee! tapos bumili na lang kami. tapos nag patintero. gulo nga eh! tapos nagtaguan kami. ay bangsak pala. tapos ang saya ng hiding places ko! si Awa kasi buntot ng buntot sakin! kaya lagi akong nababang! :( tapos sumali si Jeff. hanggang sa nauwi sa base to base yung laro. kasali sina Cholo, Gelo, Zeke, Jeff, Ej, tapos kami (ako, bes, mie, mikhel, sam, josh, mikee). so kami vs. them. grabe, hinabol ko si Gelo hanggang dun sa may court nila tapos wala man lang sumunod!!!! buti na lang na corner tapos si Jeff nagtatago pa!!! hahaha!! boo-hoo!! tapos nataya ko si Gelo!!! yeay!! grabe! ang layo ng narating namin!! kasi si *tooooot* ndi sumunod! inaasahan ko pa naman na sumunod xa!! anyway, si mikhel lang naman sumunod. kaso late na.
tapos sunod-sunod na... grabe!!! sunod ko nataya si Cholo!! hahahaha!! :P bulok na bulok na sila sa base namin eh! jowkk! tapos umuwi si Zeke, kumain si Mikee.. oh dba, sabay!!! ayii!! heehee. joke. :P tapos naka base kami!! yeay for us! akala namin lugi kami eh!! hahaha! ang jujumbo kasi nila eh! tapos umuwi na kami ni Ej, ay kumain pala. tapos balita ko... nadapa si Mie, dhl kay Cholo!! uh-oh! bawas ang pogi points!! hahahahaa! tapos pagkalabas ko, nagyaya na lang mag patintero. hahaha!! di nga kami magka sundo sundo sa kulay eh!! tapos natagalan pa bgo matupad yung laro! hinatid muna si ate claire sa may trike. tapos si mie kumain. hahaha!! tpos na uwi rin sa (ako, mie, gelo, jeff, mikhel, josh vs. kat, cholo, EJ, mikee, sam) ayan. tapos naka home kami!! yeay again!! tapos pagtapos nung laro.. nang libre si jeff. hahahaha!! tapos tambay na lang kami sa may poste. tapos eto na.. ang pinaka malalang nangyari sa araw namin. eh kasi joyful pa kaming lahat nun... sina gelo nagbibike. dumating si Mr. S (tawag ko yan sa pulis na pumupunta sa village namin. a.k.a Mr. Suhol.) tapos sinabi samin umuwi na daw kmi!!! kasi k\curfew daw ng mga bata 10:00pm!!!!!!!! SHETT!! tapos naisipan ko na ngang "umuwi"... so tumayo ako. sabi ko "tara na! uwi na tayo!!" hahahaha!! eh imbis na papunta ako sa bahay ko, pumunta kami sa Romolus. hahahaha!! tapos nag spy kami. nandun kaming lahat sa dulo. tapos si Mr. S kinakausap sina Ruby. haay nako!!! sip-sip!!! tapos ayan. eto yung nakakatuwang part. eh nag uwian na rin naman kasi sina Cholo at Gelo. so sabi namin, uwi na rin kami. tapos nung pauwi na kmi, nakasalubong namin si Mr. S!!! eh may mga katapat naman kaming mga bahay. so katok kami to the max!! feeling bahay eh!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!! grabe!!! laughtrip talaga!! tapos ayun. umalis na rin sila. tapos uwian na kami. si mie nga ayaw pa!! haahahah!! gosh! gs2 pa makita si "China"! hahahaha! may plano pang mag Counter Strike!!! lampas na yun ng 10pm ahh!! hahaha! so sabi ko bukas na lang kami mag CS. ayun. pumasok na rin siya. heehee.
hayy nko. kelan pa nagka curfew?! tae yan!! Ruby kasi eh!! putteeeekkk!!
anyway. at least nagkaron kami ng adventure. kahit sndali nga lang. hahahahhaa!!
tapos we had fun pa! nalaro na rin ulit namin yung base to base. :P kasi di namin yan nilalaro pag kami kami lang eh. kasi boring. walang sumusugod. pag may visitor lang tska nalalaro. heehee!! so ayun. i missed that game. btw, di ko uli makikita si bes for the past few days. nasa Bohol kasi siya wid the tarsiers!! heehee!! haayy. saya sobra! i'm also gonna miss my bestfriend. :P haayy... ang saya talaga!! sayang wala si Aya at Lish!! miss you both! sige, ayun lang yun. :P

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

hmm.. pwede nga naman. ;p @ 5/09/2007 01:58:00 PM

kainis. heehee. ever since aYa told me about that "bakit kaya hindi mo siya gusto?" i've been thinking lately.
pero totoo naman. there's actually NOTHING. hahahaha. for me, ordinaryong kaibigan lang.
not the guyfriend-boyfriend. pero guyfriend-friendforever. parang ganun. gets? ano ba yan.. katuwa nga eh. kasi i dreamt of cascades. pero just a few. tapos si reybelle at caizzer nagkatuluyan. uh-oh!! hahahahaha!! sabagay, bagay naman sila.
tapos may party kina kuya Ross... debut ni France. hahahah.
NO OFFENSE. panaginip ko lang yun. anyway... heehee. katuwa naman. tae yan. :)
wala akong ma post. :P

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

ako'y isang bilanggo. @ 5/08/2007 02:11:00 PM

nakakainis toh. no money.
at worse, bawal kami lumabas ng bahay. taena!
nakakainis talaga!! promise!!
we need to fix our things. eh maayos na nga eh!! :(( waaahh!! ang lagkit pa dito!!
ayy nako!!!
di ako makakalabas.
so that means.
scratch 30 mins of counter strike.
scratch my craving, ice candy.
scratch patin.
scratch touch ball.
scratch me w/ my friends.
scratch ikot.
scratch G.A.
scratch laughters.
scratch everything i do outside.
scratch david #11.

=(A BUMS'S LIFE. =(

hello to bummed life. part infinity.
hello to california diaries, coz i'd read it again. kasi i'm so bummed.
hayy nako. what would i do here?
asar!!! taena talaga!
the int card would probably expire by now.
hayy nako. screw their world.
nagpapaka rebellious na naman ako!!! nyaaayyyy!!
tae tae tae!!!
and i hate herr... so MUCH!
hindi pa mawala sa isip ko yung email ni G! tae yan!! tapos yung electric fan dito, ewan ko ba kung gumagana pa ba toh o sprinkler lang ng alikabok ehh!! anak ng toge!
tapos yung windows media player ko, pirated ata! kanina pa "not responding"!!! ugghh!!
yung aur ang humid humid! yung tubig, ndi bumubuhos!!
oh no. isa pa toh. si Sonia kanina pa sigaw ng sigaw.
speaking of Sonia.. kagabi, badtrip talaga ako sknia! eh kasi naman, inunahan niya ako maligo! putek siya! "hoy! sino ba amo satin hah?!"
sinabi ko na nga na maliligo na lang ako sa baba kasi walang tubig sa kwarto, aba, pagtapos ng PBB, dali-dali siya bumaba eh!
ano ba yan? sakaniya na ata tong' bahay eh!
una yung digicam, sunod yung banyo!
tapos ginising pa niya ako kanina 7am para lang mamili ng picture frames!!!!!!! puuttteeeekkk!!sirang-sira na araw ko! tapos andito pa siya! ewan ko kung tumitingin sa monitor!! tsismosa!!!

tae talaga. tapos nag sisniff pa. nagpapaawa. ginagawa lang naman nya yun pag malapit ako. ano ba gs2 niyang gawin ko? sbhn ko na "ayus lang yan.." "oo na..mali na sila.." tae! gs2 ba niya yun yung sbhn ko?! asa siya! kasi naman, gs2 niya umuwi this month. for family reunion.

boo-hoo tlga. tae tae. >:(

i'm so poor. umalis yung mom ko, di niya man lang kami iniwanan ng money. buti na lang nakakita ako ng 50php dun sa floor ng walk-in closet! yeay!!
kaso kailangan itago, baka nakawin na naman ng kptd ko. ugghh.
napaka prisoner ko naman ditooo!!
kailangan ko pa bang magsuot ng orang na tshirt na nakalagay sa likod, "bilanggo"?!?!?!?! tae yan!! :(( boo-hoo!!


>:(

hate it!!!!!!!!

at the beginning. @ 5/08/2007 11:56:00 AM

in the end i wanna be standing at the beginning with you.
heehee. fever ng adn. madali lang kasi magkaimpluwensyahan sa section namin. kinakata mo ngayon, kakantahin din nila mamaya!
we had our Xmen fever. bawa't isa samin may mga xman characters. si sir miguel pa nga nagshe-share nung mga alam niya sa marvel eh! yung dapat na movies ng marvel.. blah blah.. grabe!!!

tapos dahil sa movie nmin, yung People in the War... sinuggest ni Stephen yung "at the beginning" tapos si Kai naman, na addik! kaya ayan.. eh si kai madaling makaimpluwensya, edi nagkaron na rin kami ng at the beginning fever!!! meron pa nga yung kanya kanyang lines sa song, tapos dedicated kay *specialsomeone* hahahah!!
yung akin, when i lost hope, you were there to remind me, this is the start... tska we were strangers in a crazy adventure, never dreaming how are dreams would come true, now here we stand, unafraid of the future.. at the beginning with you. kay kaii... yung no one told me... tska yung chorus!! kaso may version siya nun, life is a rogue!! hahaha!!
siya kasi si Rogue sa Xmen. tapos ako si Shadowcat/kitty. hahahaha!! ayun... grabe, ang tagal din nung mga fevers na yun!! hahahahaha!!! miss you adN!!


awww... aDn... :)

anyway.. alis naman tayo sa topic na fevers. i miss my classmates kasi!!! hahahaha!!

paul- popo!! badminton varcity. secretary. tahimik. ewan ko nga kung nagkaayos na sila ni pat eh!
aaron- mraz! hahaha. :P talino yan! soobbraa! galing na choreo! magaling na leader! magaling gumawa ng cheer. inaasahan namin every intrams. president ng klase. friendly kahit bossy minsan. hahaha. yan yung bumuhat sakin nung dasayawit eh! ahahaha! saya talaga nun. daming ka-adliban eh! haha!
gil- lagi ko pinipisil tiyan niyan. jumbo kasi eh. hahaha! tapos cute pa pag nagagalit! walking encyclopedia. adik sa science, uhhmm.. hilig kumain?! :D
jasper- makulit. bestfriend ni mitch. klars! haha. :P pero mabait din yan. superr!!
islau- islau!! shokoy yan eh! isda! whatever lives in water!! galing kasi nian mag swimming! go islau! hahahaha! sobrang patawa yan! tapos may abs pa! hahaha! nakanamang islau! simple lang toh si islau. mika. :P pero may 'angas'. haha. o diba?!
mitch- my gosh. sa lahat siguro ng mga kaklase ko, eto lang di ko nakakausap ng matino. hahaha. totoo naman eh. super. galing mag drums. minsan masyadong proud. ewan ko ba. di ko nga xa maxado kilala. pero nakakatuwa xa minsan. galing mag joke. lumalabas na nga bituka ko kakatwa sa jokes nian eh. hahahaha. :P
kevin- wow. rough year noh? pero matalino toh! trustworthy din. nde siya yung blackmailer na tipo ng kaibigan. kaibigan mo talaga siya kahit lalaki yan.
reyben- hahaha. adiik sa rock. ayaw niya mga senti na kanta. 'anghel sa lupa'. matalino din toh. cb2. mabait toh, tska nakakatawa. mahilig maglabas ng dila. hahaha. pero astig rin toh!
daniel- galing sumayaw. lambot na nga ng katawan nian eh! grabe! confident! galing kumanta at mag acting! si lam-ang! :)) naka bahag ka pa nun eh! pero thoughtful na friend toh. kami palagi nag uusap sa klase. masaya rin siya kasama.
gelo- wahahahahha!!! sobrang patawa yan! mahilig mangasar!! laging namumula! as in namumula!! hahahah! what is adn without you gelo?! hahahaha!! grabe, yan din palaging inaalaska ng mga tao samin eh. hahahaha!
patite- ka class number ko toh eh. hahaha. patawa rin! soobbraaa!! tapos umiiyak pa pag tumatawa! sobrang nakakatuwa rin toh! tapos serious rin minsn, masinsinan tlaga! haha!
dan- adik yan! talino eh! adik sa comp games. tapos generous lover rin. :)
gab- napaka bait niyan! madaling mag trust sa tao. un bang nde nagaalinlangan. tapos astig. napaka loyal nian kay toooot. :P masaya kasama tsaka palabiro rin.
ryan- i don't know him that much. di kami masyadong naguusap. matalino tska seryos. pero all i know about him is.. "ryan's wathcing us". hahaha. scarryy eh! pero yan yung cnb nia nung counceling! hahaha! adik!
stephen- minsan punong-puno siya ng galit at inis. pero there was a time that i talked to him, long long before the 'problem' that struck me and my classmates. nung kinausap ko nun, nalaman ko kung bakit siya ganun minsan. why nobody knows him that much. pero i know he's a kind person inside. i hope maipakita niya yun positively.

micha-seezoouuu!!! waaahhh!! green card holder tong' seezoou ko eh! sbrang talino! lovable of course! hehehe. tska maaasahan talaga toh. she's been there with me for the past five years. and i'm glad that none of those problems broke out friendship.
tata- ayy ewan ko ba dito. stalker ni marga! hayy nako. can't wait for the day na babae ka na talaga! haha. jowk. :P pero si tata, masaya rin kasama. nakakasundo ko naman. mahilig nga lang mang-asar. huhu. :'(
cha- guess what i'm listening right now.. october night-yellowcard. hahaha. okayy. kapareho ko rin tong' adik sa yellowcard. haha. talino rin nito ni cha! tapos positive din tska sobrang bait!!
mika- taekwondo girl!! islau! jowk. :P masaya rin naman kasama toh si mika. saya nga nung recognition day ng mga kapatid namin eh. hahahha. dun lang kami sa track&field ng gym. hahha. lamiggg!! napaka caring na friend ni mika. matalino. :P
sonja- magaling na choreo. thoughtful. tska masaya kasama! tapos she's ready to learn new things with you. tska kapag alam na niyang may problem ka sakanya, ma sesense na niya yun.
jesha- cheche!! sobrang sarap niyan kasama! talagang go na go! trustworthy din. super bait! parang ate na rin turing ko sknia. since grade 5 pa! ahahaha!
marga- margarita! gar! kahit ano pa tawag ko dito, she's still the sweet cute gar! hahahaha!! ang ganda ganda nito! matalino tska mabait pa! tapos yellowcard fan din toh. hahahaha! tska masaya toh kasama. lalo na kapag kasama din si gino. hahaha. haay nako. pakasal na kayo!
inna- katty ko! medyo this year lang kami naging ganito ka close. nagstart nung may mga sayaw sayaw na kami. pero we talk. kasi classmates kami. saya kasama nito. talagang sasakyan niya mga trip mo sa buhay. hahaha! napagkakatiwalaan tong' babae na toh tska tlagang nakakausap mo ng masinsinan. kaso nga lang. mahilig lang toh makinig, nde mahilig magkwnto! haha! :P
lloyd- mommy! medyo nag kabuhol-buhol nung mga unang weeks ng classes. nung mga araw na yun, na nakasam ko tong' si mommy lloyd, i've seen how strong she is. kahit buong klase na yung nagagalit sa kanya, she can still walk like nothing's wrong. mabit rin toh. talagang caring. mother-like. tska very very thoughtful. talagang parang anak na yung turing sayo. naalala ko nga nung nagtatanim kami ni reyben ng halaman, pinupunasan pa niya mga pawis namin. awwww. :)
abby- abigool!! hahahaha!! kwela tong' babae na toh eh! hahahha!! sobrang saya kasama! lalabas na mga lamang loob mo! hahahaha!! pero nakakausap rin toh ng masinsinan. tapos dedicated sa studies niya. pero takot din siyang makihalubilo sa ibang tao. don't worry bigool.. for sure, they'll like you! kwela ka eh! partner nga sila ni gelo eh!! hahaha!
alec- leclec! taekwondo momma naman toh. hahahaha. makulit tska mahilig tumawa! matalino tska masayahin! mas nakilala ko toh this year kasi nasa likod ko lang siya nung first qtr. hahaha. :P
kai- seatmate! kamshi!! kundi si dani, eto kausap ko. kasi lagi naman nia kausap c 1o1 eh. ayyii. anyway. haha. >:) sobrang saya nito kasama! galing sumayaw tska adik sa music! (see pshakes for more..)
ida- sexyy!! haneepp!! si mommy ida ko, di takot magpakita ng nararamdaman niya. magaling umarte at sumayaw!! hahahaha!! si annie b. yan eh!! hahaha!! =)) sobrang artistic din toh!
joanne- napaka galing maging emcee. galing kasi niya magsalita. may accent talaga. very positive din siya. tapos napaka friendly din.
celina- ate lina ko!!! naging close kami nung 2nd qtr. hanggang sa nagtuloy-tuloy na! like joanne, positive rin toh si ate lina. sobrang bait tska tahimik! saya din kausap at kasama.
charmaine- ketchup! pusa! hahahaha!! ewan ko ba dito, pero sobrang angas nito! as in!! sexxyyy!! hahahahah!! bilib ako dito kay charmaine eh, kasi di siya takot mangsumbat, when she knows she's right!! galing mangbara nito eh!
klars- for all the people na nasabihan ko ng positive, eto na ang reyna! sobrang happy-go-lucky nian! parang 'sige! go!' obrang bait kasi ni klars. galing sumayaw at kumanta! tapos sobrang saya nian!! hahaha! parang pag tinignan mo, laging naka smile!
anlo- hahaha!! what is adn without you! =)) eto ang laging pinagtritripan sa classroom. partners din sila ni gelo! sobrang saya kausap nian! we talk about boys and celebs tska past memories a lot! hahahah! ewan ko ba, pero lagi ko tong' ka-tsikahan! hahaha!
bianx- eotts!! napaka kulit nito. crazzzyyyy!! hahahaha!! lagi tong' naka smile. minsan nga weird na, pero sige go! smile pa rin! ganda din nito! tsaka sobrang kulit!


aDn poWer!

ayan. mga classmates ko! :P haay nako. miss them so much.
we've been through good and bad times. mostly good. we've been through pressures and expectations. nagawa natin silang pagdaanan kasi solid tayo. we had teamwork. ewan ko lang sa cooperation. hahahha! thanks so much kasi kahit kelan, u've always had my back. marami na rin tayong napagdaanan na pagod. pero we worked together. marami satin na puyat... pero worth it naman. marami na rin tayong natanggap na criticism. pro ayus lang. we went through it! and i'm so proud i spent three years with most of you! thanks thanks!


streetdance namin. ADN power!


biag ni lam-ang. first play.


people in the war. first movie.


acos. di pa yan kumpleto. movie. pero ndi filmed.

sana someday.. we can do all these crazy things once more.
thanks for the wonderful year ADN. di ko toh malilimutan. ICE SECTION! we've met a lot of people who made us laugh, cry and... shake? heehee. basta thank you talaga. thanks kay Sir Rene, kasi ginawa niya tayong ganito. ginawa niya tayong fighters. ginawa niya tayong achievers. we learned the looser attitudes! hahaha! nagkahawaan sa mga expressions ng isa't isa.. and most importantly.. we became one. napagdaanan na natin ang napakaraming bagay. maraming nabuong alitan. we visited Ms. Lhou several times na. the whole class included. no matter what, we'd always stay this way. but i'm glad we ended a very crazy year. thank you so much! sana walang limutan. at kahit ndi na tayo magiging classmates, always remember we'd still be friends. thanks. i love you Adn!!

At The Beginning
We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we’d have to go through
Now here we are, I’m suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody, somewhere
A new love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I’ve been waiting so long
Nothing’s gonna tear us apart

And life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever, wonderful journey
I’ll be there when the world stops turning
I’ll be there when the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

Yeah

Life is a road that I wanna keep going on
Love is a river, I wanna keep going

Starting out on a journey

Life is a road that I wanna keep going
Love is a river, I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you.