Wednesday, April 30, 2008

i super hate global warming na. >:( @ 4/30/2008 09:01:00 PM

why do I hate global warming?

1. it melts my chocolates and ice creams.

seriously, anyone who wants their ice creams melted are serious freaks. when it comes to chocolates, okay naman. hahaha. nagstart dun sa chocolate fountain ni Jesha. weee, ang sarap balikan nung panahon na yun! ay nako. kahapon kasi, nilabas ko yung Hershey's chocolate bar galing refigiderr. tapos kumain lang ako for 3 friggin minutes, tunaw na tunaw naaaa! T.T gaweirdo. kaya ayun, binalik ko ulit sa frigiderrr.

2. MASSIVE Climate Changes

kahapon galing kami sa clinic ni Ma, tapos nilakad namin hanggang bahay nina Mommy (lola), so napaka init. hahaha. understandable, pero alam niyo yun, any time of the day ganun na. hindi na nga rin ganun ka fresh yung air kaya napaka humid ng feeling. alam niyo naman siguro ibig kong sabihin.

3. waterworld?

count some years and you're gonna experience the same movie. have you ever seen waterworld? if you haven't, you better. dahil kung wala tayong magagawa sa climate changes na toh, the ice caps would continue melting and we're gonna be drowning. joke lang yung drowning pero lulubog ang dry lang sa sea water. at hindi daily inumin inumin ang sea water. tanging mga sira ulo lang ang makakampante sa 80% water ng mundo dahil mabubuhay naman tayo kung puro tubig lang ang iinumin. shett. ibalik sa kinder yooooon.

4. it CAN kill us.

our bodies can easily adapt to changes, pero baka ma sobrahan din. our resources on the other hand can adapt as well. pero hindi palagi. kaya baka pati sila, mawala. and what's gonna be left of us?

**let's do something about this. for our children, for our future.
50 years from now, we may regret this time, this opportunity because we didn't do anything about what's happening. it's happening, so let's take a step as well.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Tagum @ 4/29/2008 06:12:00 PM

ohmyGoD, i miss Tagum City.


last Filipino II with Sir Martin. :)
(photo from Gil's cam, ianne's page
eto yung trip namin na kapag tumingin ka dun sa kamay namin, sasapakin ka, papaluin ka sa likod o kaya kukurutin. ang lupit noh? dahil lang yun sa pagtingin mo, brutal na agad! hahaha!

TC! yan oh, ever famous trip ntin. =)) wala lang, naalala ko lang. lalo na pag ginagawa natin yan bago matapos yung lunch. grabe, baka magkawatak watak na tayo. :( pero ALWAYS remember.. I LOVE YOU so much. ingat palagi. ..sa uuliting muli.

Backbeat the word was on the street @ 4/29/2008 02:16:00 PM

from youcapturedme.bs @ 4/29/2008 01:56:00 PM

one
& the skin you call your home
Holds a heart that quits
& knees that buckle in
& lungs that just can't breathe
Whenever you think of him.

two
I'll be there when
The world stops turning.
I'll be there when
The storm is finally through.
'Cause in the end I want
To be standing at the beginning with you.

three
Late last night I made my plans
It was the only thing I felt I could do
I said goodbye to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one
Left to tell me the truth.

four
She swears there’s nothing
wrong but I hear her playing
the same old song.

five
She smiled in a big way;
the way a girl like that smiles,
when the world is hers.
-Dashboard Confessional

six
Sometimes confrontation is difficult.
Sometimes it's just easier to write
my heart & soul out on lined paper.

seven
Our hands touched. Not purposely.
Not slowly. Really quickly.
And we both looked at each other,
because we both felt the electricity,
& we both knew what it meant.

eight
come on baby, you and me,
lets cause a teenage love scene.

nine
He said last night that she was the one...
but men and mascara always run

ten
then one day I realized
the fairy-tale life wasn’t for me…

eleven
in a world of stilletos, be a ballerina flat

twelve
true love is never ending.
when someone is still with you.
even were youre apart.

thriteen
Trouble is part of your life,
and if you don't share it,
you don't give the person
who loves you a chance
to love you enough.

fourteen
like my favorite record -- you're alittle overplayed
and like my favorite summer, you'll never fade away

fifteen
sometimes music is the only thing
that gets your mind off of everything else

sixteen
She builds high walls around her heart because she
knows no one can climb that high. That way, when
no one is able to reach the top, which is what
she knows is going to happen, she won't be disappointed.

seventeen
I love how,
in the middle of a kiss,
I can feel you smiling.

eighteen
If you keep chasing yesterday,
You're gonna miss tomorrow.

nineteen
But all my words come back to me in shades of mediocrity Like emptiness in harmony
I need someone to comfort me.

twenty
Let the music move you, let the moment take your hand, let it lead you out intothe middle of the dance floor and embrace you. Dive off the high board, ride with the top down, thrive like a wildflower.


"You know that place between sleep
and awake, the place where you can
still remember dreaming? That's where
I'll always love you, that's where I'll be waiting."
-Peter Pan
[i LOVE this one coz i'm a BIG PETER PAN FAN.

-sorry for the randomness. :)

Ang Pilipinas @ 4/29/2008 01:35:00 PM

wala na, kupas na talaga ang Pilipinas. konti lang kasi yung napoproduce, at dahil sa populasyon natin, masyadong mataas ang consumption rate kumpara sa production. kaya hindi talaga mawawala ang kakulangan, gutom, hirap. lahat yan, problema ng Pilipinas. baon na baon na nga tayo sa utang, hirap na hirap na tayo sa buhay, wala nang masyadong trabaho, tapos pataas pa ng pataas mga presyo ng langis, pagkain, bilihin. parang noon lang naikwento ng lolo ko na ang pancit nun .25 lang. ngayon? nakakalampas ng ng isang daan ang isang bilao. kung magpapatuloy to, sa tingin niyo, ano na kayang itsura ng Pilipinas? kamusta kaya mga tao?

sa panahon ngayon, domino effect na lang ang nangyayari. dahil sa kakulangan ng trabaho sa Pilipinas, yung mga kabtaan napipilitan mag aral ng nursing, para makapunta sa abroad. dun daw kasi, may pera. kaya hala, sige! pagkatapos grumaduate, ayan, sugod na! pero paano naman yung mga nagkakasakit dito sa Pilipinas? wala nang nars, yung mga doctor, nagaaral na din ng nursing para lang makaalis na rin dito. pero hindi naman natin masisisi kung ganun. gusto lang naman din talaga nilang makatulong sa sarili nilang pamilya. wala nga kasing masyadong job opportunities dito sa bansa at kung meron man, maliit ang sweldo kumpara sa mga sweldong aabutin mo sa ibang bansa. gusto mo man makatulong sa kapwa Pilipino mo, human nature na ang pagiisip muna sa mas prayoridad mo- ang sarili o pamilya mo.



hindi na maaalis yan, kay PGMA talaga mailalaglag lahat. kitang kita naman sa mga naganap na impeachment at rallies diba? nung uso pa yung tungkol sa impeachment sa knya, hindi maikakaila ang mga nagkabanggaang opinyon at komento sa mga nagaganap. sa school pa lang pag may balitaan, yan agad.. tatatatatatatata, tagum debate ika nga. hindi ko aakalain na hanggang sa simbahan magiging homily din yun ni Father. pero may napulot naman ako kahit papano. "kahit sino naman ipalit mo diyan eh, kung kurakot, wla talagang mangyayari." nung puntong yun, ang sarap buhayin ni Ex President Ramon Magsaysay (May you RIP) kasi para sakin, siya talaga nagtaguyod nito. siya lang yung naging matapat sa bayan. Kelan pa kaya uli yun noh? sana makahanap na uli tayo ng presidente na hindi iniisip sarili niya, yung hindi mabubulag sa pera o kayaman o kapangyarihan. yung presidenteng gagamitin yung kung ano mang meron siya para makatulong.

ang power kasi, nakakbulag na din. nahyhypnotize ka siguro kaya yun ganun. sa smallville pa lang eh, dahil mayaman si Lex Luthor, nagagawa niya kahit ano. dahil mapera siya, lahat nacocontrol niya. maganda sana kung yung kapangyarihan na yun nagagamit sa kabutihan. parang yung mga telefantasya lang na napapanuod natin sa mga local tv stations tulad ng darna, super twins, lastikman etc. o kaya sa mga superhero movies tulad ng famous line ni uncle ben na "with great power, comes with great responsibilty" at yung pagtulong ni batman sa gotham city kahit wala talaga siyang super powers. nabigyan sila ng kapangyarihan.. nasa kanila na yun kung saan nila gagamitin. pero ang gandang isipin na pinili nilang lumaban para sa kabutihan. sana pala buhay rin yung mga superheroes na yun noh. sana merong real life na ganun, hindi lang tayo magcocostume at magpepretend na isa tayong superhero.

hindi na natin masisisi ang mga nangyayari ngayon. wala na tayong panahon para magbunganga at mag rally ng mag rally. kung ako sa inyo, uumpisahan ko na ang pagbabago. at sana, kayo din makisunod. pag nagawa natin yun, kahit ang mga mas matataas sa atin, mahahatak natin sa kaunlaran.

Monday, April 28, 2008

" Ikaw ang star sa Star City! " @ 4/28/2008 03:09:00 PM

STARCITTYY!!!
with TK, April 26, 2008



thanks to TK, i got rid of my Saturday summer bummer and seriously had a great time!
ilang beses na din naplano tong' summer gimmick namin, buti na lang natuloy. kasama sina katrina, lisha, aya, mikee, raven, jello, cholo, kenjie, claud, jeff and my bradeR, ayun, tuloy na tuloy na nga talaga. but we miss mie, jr, OB, kobe, zeke, ziggy and hans. hindi talaga kumpleto ang TK kung bungi bungi. hahaha. anyway, ayun, nagkita kita kami sa star city. nakasakay na sila sa viking nun kaya yung flying carpet yung na kong' nasakyan.

that's the good thing about not being familiar with the place and having your friends right behind you. you don't have a clue with whatever's gonna happen so you just go with the flow, why not diba!? and it was so good kasi worth it siya. ganun nako with the rest of the rides.

pumasok naman kami ngayon sa terror house #1 (can't recall the name). of course with our little "TK touch" nagawa namin maging scary lalo. sumakay kami sa viking after. as usual, take the last row agad! first time yun, kala niyo! at ayun, halos mawala na ang kaluluwa ko. pumasok kami ni aya sa peter pan tapos sa caterpillar. then everyone gathered and got our bags and went outside.

nagkawatak watak na kami nun, kasi sumakay kaming Surf Dance. kasama ko sina Bes, Aya, Lisha at Raven. the rest, nag arcade at terror house ata sa loob. game na game talaga ako nun eh. akala ko pa relax relax ka lang, biglang.. ayun na! nakailang sala ako kay LoRd sa kakamura! hahaha! pero ang saya talaga! sobrang sigaw kami, sobrang laglag talaga mga puso namin! the best ride ever!

nag loop chuvaness kami. ohmyGoD, hello! takot ako sa loops! =S kaya ayun, hindi muna ako sumakay. tapos nakita na namin sila. nag wild river kami, after the wild river, bumalik kami sa may loops,this time napilit na nila akong sumakay. habang paakyat yung roller coaster, sobrang ingay ko... "i hate you guys! taena kayo! pinilit niyo ako! i hate you! huwahuwahuwa" hahahaha. pero sobrang worth it din pala. except sa madungis na nanyare while on the loop! hahaha! hay salamat, natupad ko na rin yung promise ko kay katrina na tatabihan ko siya the next time na sumakaya kami sa isang roller coaster (first time ko kasi, as in yung scary coaster rides talaga).

tapos nag galactic ata yun? or cyclone? hahaha. malay ko ba. basta pagsakay namin dun, sobrang takot kami. kasi baka malaglag kmi habang nasa taas. hahaha. praning na praning na ako nun. you know me, natural blabber while nervous. noisy under pressure. hahaha! si lisha, tapos si kat, tapos si aya, tapos si raven tapos ako, tapos si ate na naging bago kong friend sa kakadada ko. tapos nung nagstart na yung ride, parang naka magnet na ako sa kinatatayuan ko. kumakanta ako ng Soulja Boy nung nasa taas hanggang sa pinagtripan na namin ni Raven yung mga mukha ng mga tao. hahaha! pangpawala ng kaba. astig eh. :) kaya ayun, di ko na rin naramdaman yung takot.

tapos kung anu-ano pa sinakyan namin. hindi ko na din maalala yung sequence. hindi naman masyadong nakakatkot yung wild river, ilang beses pa nga nila sinakyan eh. sumakay ulit kami sa roller coaster na may loop. this time, katabi ko naman si first. di na ako masyadong natatakot pero super kapit padin ako dun sa safety chorva. sabi wag ko daw pikit mata ko habang nasa loop, kaya hindi ko pinikit. hahaha, oo nga, okay rin pala. tapos nag flying carpet ulit. tapos nag snow world kami. daming beses nga eh. grabe, ang gaganda ng mga nangyayari sa loob. sobrang saya talaga. :) ayun, sobrang sarap ng feeling sa loob. bumalik ulit kami sa surf dance. paulit-ulit na kami sa rides. umulit pa ako sa surfdance.



nung second time ko, katabi ko si claude. eh wala akong katabi sa right ko kaya sobrang "waaaa!!" kaya lahat nung mga pumapasok sa loob kinukulit ko, "kuya, ate, ayaw niyo ba dito? ganda dito!" noisy me. third time, katabi ko ulit si claude tapos sobrang kapit talaga. the best! eto isa pang nakakatawang story, nung nagpunta kami sa "kilabot ng mummy" seryosong takutan talaga. dahil sa mga biglaang pagbagsak ng mga ulo sa kisame, talagang adventure ang inabot namin! hahaha. nagkadapaan na sa lob, sigawan, takbuhan! lahat na! ang saya talaga. then it was time to go, napaka bilis naman. nagpapic kami sa snow world, at yun lang ang kumpletong pic namin through the whole gimmick! and it was the best. nauna na kaming umuwi kaya nag stay pa sila dun.

one thing's for sure, iba talaga ang gimmick kapag kasama ang TK. ibang-iba. :)

Sunday, April 27, 2008

the so called "sweetest drug" @ 4/27/2008 08:01:00 PM

My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep;
the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.
Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene II by WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE



"Romeo and Juliet". i have seen the movie once, but the modern version. yung may mga baril na. where Romeo was portrayed by Leonardo DiCaprio. still, the deep Elizabethan words were still present but it was like the modernized version of the play. but, as we all know, this "love" was probably the most tragic love affair ever written in history. yet, we still admire this work. it shows us about strong faith on how GoD would give us reasons to hold on to something close to impossible. we admire it because of it's intelligent use of words and the passion that comes with it.

i was in the sixth grade when i became so interested about "Romeo and Juliet". we were sitting in our chairs and probably doing something that's not to be done. because, hey! it's english! that day, we were discussing William Shakespeare with Ms. Ella. as a child, i thought that this would be an awfully great story. i thought that it has happy endings. but during that day, i stopped whatever i was doing because.. i like the topic! then i found out about the tragic ending about the star-crossed lovers. how romeo thought that juliet was dead but she was only pretending to be dead so she could marry him instead. but the news that was suppose to be sent to romeo failed and he drank some poison when he saw juliet laying on a t(tomb?) then after he drank the poison, he saw juliet woke up and then, juliet decides to kill herself. i was baffled. i wanted to watch it right away. so during the weekend, i did bought a VCD of the modernized version. it was exciting that i wanted to watch the original movie (the one where Juliet used a dagger, not a gun).

i was definitely in the "comparison area" that time coz it was the same time when i had my first love. so i could definitely relate since the movie was all about forbidden love and me and my first love's story was DEFINITELY forbidden. anyway, back to the story.. i actually salute both of them, coz despite their differences, they still managed to cling on to something that would set aside everything and just love each other unconditionally. though they had to face the tragic consequences of death. when romeo died and juliet woke up from her slumber. that time, she had a choice. whether to live or die. but she chose to face death because she couldn't live her life without romeo. if she lived, would you think she would be happy? the capulet-montague rivalry was still there. their deaths were the ones which opened the eyes of the rivals. so if juliet didn't die beside romeo that day, the capulets would probably be hysterical with what happened and the rivalry continuous.

tragic love affairs do have some good points din naman pala eh. but if we take a closer look, don't you think that it's the best form of love? i'm not saying that death would prove how much you love a person, but don't you think that when it comes to a point that you could lose everything, even your life, you still give it up just to be with the person you love, it proves how much you want to face the world together? typically, it's within the journey where we experience the most favorable of things. our destination is just a bonus for us to look back on what we have accomplished. and wouldn't looking back at them be really good? think about it. the point of giving up is just what measures the love we have on hold.

let me share with you a personal experience which happened just a while ago.
typical sunday mass. we went to our old parish were Ningning (childhood friend) and I would be LOAs. a lot has changed but of course, we still did our LOA thing.

we've probably heard dozens of homilies before, but i assure you, this sunday's homily was probably one of the best ones i've ever heard. "love is not simply giving your all. they say that love is love when you love somebody more than anything else, period. i don't believe any of those. i believe that somewhere along the way we would wish and trade anything we can trade for them to just give the love we gave. we wish for it to be returned. and when they can't return, we give up, maybe not that soon but along the way, we do. we've grown so hopeless that we may love a person who doesn't love us back, and that would definitely hurt. that mean that when we sum up everything together, love is simply expecting to be given your love back along with the sacrifices you need to face." those were the words of a "four-week" priest namely father Don. i was so amazed with this homily that after the mass, i asked him for his copy. he gladly gave it to me and i took off, gleaming while reading those magical words on a sheet of paper. i realized that he was right. we are easily capable of giving up when the love we give isn't returned. but, that's from what i see. i am still 14 years old and has a lot to see later on in my life, i haven't probably seen the best of loves and the worst. i know that there's still more out there, there would be more to see and to experience. and i know that somewhere along the way, i would definitely know much about this "sweetest drug" that gives us the wildest side effects and reasons to look for more.

dear broken heart by bianca gonzalez @ 4/27/2008 03:07:00 PM

you'll be amazed by how many people may inspire you in your life. there will be these people who would change you and make you a better person. people who would most likely inspire you to do good or be good. well, as i've said before, nainspire talaga akong magblog dahil kay ate iman at bianca gonzalez. i was browsing through her blog and i found this..

"
dear broken heart..

this post is dedicated to all those going through difficult matters of the heart!

”diary of a broken heart”, this was my planned title for a diary-of-sorts that i wanted to write when i was brokenhearted once. i thought to myself, what if isulat ko lahat ng nararamdaman ko araw araw sa loob ng isang buong taon, then i’d be able to read it when i am healed, and see my journey from a new point of view, from denial to anger to bitterness to hope to healing (or whatever jumbled order you’ve experienced in your own love life) and maybe, it might be able to help future broken hearts out there.

but, i never got to writing it.

siguro dahil sa sobrang sakit, kapag naiisip kong magsulat, nananalo na lang yung kagustuhan kong magmukmok sa isang tabi. imbis na mag-effort pa ako na mag-isip at magpagod, ginusto ko na lang na wala na lang akong intindihin. hanggang sa lumipas ang mga linggo, mga buwan, i went through all kinds of emotions (na slightly nakakabaliw talaga yung iba ha!), until one day, i was okay.

having said all that, and having heard some of the most saddening break-up stories the past weeks, allow me to try to reconstruct a few of the things i’ve learned in life, and love, that might help that broken heart of yours or of someone you know.

1. on advice.

kapag brokenhearted ka.. no advice said to you will make you feel better. none. as in. wala. kahit ano, walang effect. kapag brokenhearted ka, the only thing that you think will make you feel better is if the one you love will say they love you too. but they won’t. (in some cases, they won’t ever, but in some, they won’t just for this point in time.) hugs will comfort you, concerned texts will make you smile, but no amount of advice will make you feel better.. unless! unless you decide to let it make you feel better. don’t be pressured though to follow everyone’s advice. kanya-kanya lang yan. of the one hundred cliché lines thrown at you at an attempt to make you feel better, most will not make you feel better (in fact, some will make you feel worse), but there will be a few major lines (not necessarily given by those closest to you, mind you) that will speak to you and touch your heart and soothe your soul. those pieces of advice, you hold on to.

2. on prayer.

a broken heart will wake up some days so unbelievably hopeless and wanting to just stay in bed all day. some will even go all out in saying they want to die (but of course you don’t really want to die, right?) a broken heart will wake up some days feeling somewhat rested and peaceful, but with a slight fear that they might encounter something that day that will bring back all the pain. whatever mood the broken heart wakes up in, one thing remains. it’s a broken heart. and this may sound cheesy or false to some, but there is only one thing that can heal all things broken. our LoRd and personal savior, JeSus ChRisT. when your heart is peaceful, give thanks. when your heart is troubled, still give thanks and ask for deliverance. when your heart is shattered into a million pieces, still give thanks, and ask that you may learn whatever life lesson it is that He wants you to learn. in both high and low, give thanks, because it is one of the surest things in life that GoD only works for the good of those who love Him.

3. on moving on.

don’t be pressured! for some it takes weeks. for some, months. for some, years! of course no one likes the pain that a broken heart brings. (its pain like no other! araaay talaga grabe!) but, you have to go through it. there is no short cut, there is no other way. go through it. go and let it out. cry before you sleep, cry when you wake up, cry in the bathroom, cry to your friends. lock yourself in the room, stay in bed all day, don’t talk to anyone for hours, make senti all you want. do it all. don’t let anybody stop you. (but don’t let it get in the way of school or work or the things you have to do either! okay? okay.) feel all those yucky, disgusting, heart-shattering feelings, curl it all up into this unbelievably sad ball, and one day, when you are ready, throw it out the window. it will happen for you. i know you feel it won’t, that the day you will be okay will never come, but it will. have faith, it will.

let me stop at this third point and end by saying that i’ve felt all those feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness that you might be feeling right now. and, honestly, so have thousands, and millions of other people around you. it sucks. it really does. but hey. nobody said that it would be easy, but nobody said that you have to do it alone.

all this i share with pure sincerity from the bottom of my happy heart, to your soon-to-be happy heart! :)

posted by bianca @ 7:10 PM "
-BIANCA GONZALEZ

click this link to go to her site. :)

..it's true, moving on is hard, but you're not going to face everything alone. so i hope this entry inspired those have their hearts broken.

Friday, April 25, 2008

It's like the whole world stops to listen @ 4/25/2008 04:11:00 PM

do you ever remember the feeling when you're in love, heart broken and then found a new "love of your life"? you know, that crazy little feeling that keeps you going. what you call the "reason for happiness" and all? mine's not exactly like that. it is my recent "reason for happiness" but not exactly the "love of your life" thing. i mean, it's not yet getting there and i'm not sure if it would go there. i just have my fingers crossed that it would. ever since "pween" suddenly disappeared, honestly, i became so numb about that matter once again. after the "blackman days", i wanted someone who wouldn't leave me hanging. he said he would never do that, but hey, how can i be so stupid? of course he can do that. that's why GoD gave us free will. i just believed that it would be different because i thought that through the times we've been together, we have already found some reason left for us to hold on to when this "summer disease" comes. but of course, it wasn't a walk in the park. it was just so disappointing that everything good and bad happened in one day. he was happy that morning, then suddenly, it all became so moody at night. that was the weirdest thing i ever encountered with him. then suddenly, he popped out again and started texting me with some cheesy stuff which was so weird because we were in a dark place that time. he knows how stupid he was that time and yet he wanted to skip that conversation. GoD, how jerky can that be? that's what i hate the most about jerks, they tell you they love you, then they leave you, then comes back as if nothing happened. but don't get me wrong, i still want us to be friends. ayokong masira yung samahan naming dalawa just because of some misunderstanding. hindi naman kami kaya okay lang na bumitaw. nauna nadin naman siya kaya why not? but(!) thank GoD i was saved. :) i never focused on my problem with "pween" because i was madly having summer fling with this guy. you probably know him as "stranger" because of my gm's. and if ever you have read my post which is entitled "falling stupid for you", yes, his name is Ivan Santos. it's still in some place where we just steal glances and look the other way so that we won't catch each other looking but i REALLY wish that it would go somewhere. hahahaha. after that tournament, i still go to LPTC gym because of my STOMP classes during tuesdays and thursdays wherein i have to commute after my make up classes. and every after classes, while lexii and i are in starbucks or jolibee or while we're already in the car lagi kong binubulong ke LoRd, "LoRd sana naman po makasalubong ko siya papuntang LPTC gym, kahit makasabay lang po sa pagbaba sa overpass o kaya sa may stairs sa gym", sadly, wala pang natutupad. it's either mas maaga ako or mas maaga sya. i guess GoD has His own timing for everything. right? but i'm glad to take the waiting game again if it's gonna be worth it. after all, summer pa lang naman eh. anything can happen, let's just wait and see. sayang nga lang kasi last session na namin yun sa STOMP kahapon. kaya, oh no, pano na. hehe. ilang araw na naman kitang mamimiss.

siguro naman naramdaman niyo na yung feeling na kinikilig pag tinitignan nung crush niyo. diba ang sarap ng feeling? hehehe. ganyan din ako pag andun ako sa gym na yun eh. nakakakilig kasi pasimple pa yung glances namin. yun yung thrill part dun eh. eh may mga ibang lalaki kasi na pakapalan na talaga. as in tititigan ka niya hanggang sa matunaw ka, trying to sweep you off your feet. sure, nakakakilig yun minsan, pero let's face it, kinikilig lang tayo kung gusto natin yung guy diba girls?! admit it, napipilitan lang naman talaga tayo kapag ayaw natin eh. and the guy's wrong move is when he assumes you like him back. yun na yon eh. sarap sampalin. bwahaha. alam niyo yun, yung tipong ang sarap sarap na niyang sigawan ng isang malaking "hindi kita gusto!" magaassume pa din. mga lalaking magfoforce talaga sayong isabit sarili ng patiwarik sa kisame eh. hayy, back to stranger.. ayun na lang naman yun, masaya lang talaga ako pag andyan siya. yungmag iimagine ka ng mga pwedeng manyari. mga what if's, mga "awww moments"... mga ganun. so that's it. i'm damnly falling, hope you guys are loving your summer too. :]

some amazing links you SHOULD visit. :) @ 4/25/2008 12:48:00 AM

here are some of sir christian's youtube moments. :) waaaattttccch iiittt!

Library (his own composition)
Pa Rin (own composition)
Sexy love cover

eCSentric!

South Vibe Finals
Beacuse of You
STOMP rehearsal

more pa! visit kayo sa links ko ha. :) yung mga channels nila. ganda kasi talaga eh. amazed tlaga ako, as in NGANGA. :-o

OTHERS

hyperacice beat boxing!
kiss kiss music vid. :))


ayan lng. :) hehehe. geh, gdmurning guys. ayy, gdmurnight pala. :]]

the best one and a half week ever! :) @ 4/25/2008 12:13:00 AM

sorry kung hindi masyado nakakapag post, :) busy kasi eh.. nasira pa yung computer. kaya eto, dates na naman. hehehe. ocge, here goes. :] enjoy niyo ha. :)

The Suite Life
April 14-16, 2008



actually, the very thing that i always do was take some pictures. hahaha. i just like photography that much. i love the lights, the views, everything! so i took the chance na! :)) we checked in at 12nn and went to our room. we don't have anything to do so we just went to MOA's seaside wall. :) we ate at harbor view. mmm, yummy calamares. :) then went shopping for bathing suits and some other things. :)) i bought a cute cococabana royal blue tankini. :) ancute tlg nya. hahaha. then we went to eskimo bob for some ice creaaaaamm! :) weeee, FERRERO INDULGENCE! :] yuuuummm! then we went back to the hotel na. ooohh, love the hot showers. :))

the next day, woke up and got dressed for some morning jog. we went to seaside wall and jog, jog and jog. hahaha. we ate breakfast at mcdo since mom and dad got the free breakfast. hehe. then went back to diamond hotel and took a bath. i got dressed for Stomp naman. i still have hip-hop classes that day. so i went to stomp na and danced. :)) after, dad fetched me and we went back to the hotel. we went for a swim at night and since we don't have any time to go to seaside wall na naman because it was like 10 na ng gabi, we just ate instant noodles! :)) then we went to bed na. we went home the next day. :) awww.. i just spent the remaining hours of the day watching my ever beloved smallville. :)

Just another STOMP-STRANGER day.
April 17, 2008

awh, no stranger today. :[ but this was the best STOMP class ever! sir christian taught us "like a boy" by ciara but most importantly, he taught us about the freedom in hip-hop and "character". :) the best!

Happy Monthsary Pearlshakes!
April 18, 2008



yes naman. unang picture na six! sa dinami daming araw na magkakasama eh! :)) anyway, ang laughtrip ng araw na toh. swear. :) haha. ako yung pinaka una kina kaii. sympre umorder pa ako ng cake. hahha. MANGGOATARA inorder namin. :)) juk lng mangu. anyway, ayuuun, pagdating ko kina kai, kwentuhan. nag gitara ako (kasi sira yung akin) whahaha, tapos pinanuod namin yung cheerdance namin! wee, memories lang naman! :)) tapos dumating na si nina. ayuuuun, kwentuhan some more! :] tapos nagtext na si jas, sbe nya "uy chong, buksan nyo naman ako dito. kanina pa ako eh". :)) laughtriiipp! tapos sina mk at justin ndn, ayun.. pagkadating nila alis na agad kami. trike papuntang value point (sik-six!) tapos nagshopping nga pekeng dibidi. :)) daming kalaughtripan nun. nanuod kaming "superhero movie". tapos umalis na si nina. so naglaro silang monopoly, e bored ako. so ako nanunuod. :)) tapos una my bestfriend's gf pa yung pinapanuod ko, eh hindi tugma yung sinasabi dun sa lips, so wedding daze nlng pinanuod ko. whahaha. tapos dumating na si ma, nakisabay si emika, UWIAN! :]

Happy Grad Kuya Ino!
April 19, 2008



went to MOA for kuya ino's grad. kumain sa Gerry's grill tapos super duper picturan. :) hahaha. tapos nagpunta sa Fujifilm for a family pic. hahah. patawa tlg yung pamilya ko, whahaha. =)) laughtrip tlg sa loob ng studio, SWEAR! :))


see, wacky. :)


yeahbaaa! work it Bong! =))

ayuuun, super luaghtrp tlaga with the maaño family. :) haha. anyway, ayuuunn. after picture picture, nagshopping for training pants and boarder shorts. :) tapos nag eskimo bob uliiiitt! ferrero baby! tapos uwian narin! :)

Splash Island baby!
April 20, 2008



splash island with tita joy, tita luz, kuya lo, kuya vroom, jared and my family. :)
hahahaha. as usual, ALL THE SLIDES ulit. :) sarap unng bigbamboo ehh. lipad tayo pare! :)) hayuuuup. anyway, ayun na yon. buong araw na nagkasunugan sa splash island. :) loved it.

monday was... boring? hehe. just watched smallville. as usual. :)

STOMP-STRANGER day. :)
April 22, 2008

awww, the last day sir christian would be teaching us. he won't be available on thursday kasi. :( huhuhuhu. went to stomp at around 12:30 for my Hip-Hop C class then went to starbucks right after. lexii and i were super bored! we went to ruins and tropical hut and the rest of the buildings near stomp! :)) then finally, it was 4pm, so we went back to stomp and started our Hip Hop A make-up class by 4:30. we just reviewed "kiss kiss". then, uwian na. so nakisabay ako kina lexii kesa sa mag commute pa ako diba. hanggang overpass sa may mercury. tawid, papuntang lptc!!!!! :) hooraaah! ayuuun, akala ko nung una hindi sya darating eh. :) hehehe. buti na lang. hayy salamt. ayan, isang "heart-melting" day na naman. :) falling for you. whahaha. naman the drama. :P

Haircut Day!
April 23, 2008


my abnormal side hair! :))

anyway, yup, i got my hair trimmed. actually, layered. hehehe. spent the day at "plangketa". :)) got new school uniforms too. :)

that's it! i won't be posting my thursday yet coz lexii has our "last day sa stomp" picture. :) wait for it nalang guys. :) hehehe. thanks for reading kahit medyo random. promise, i'll be postnig something more worth when i have the time. :)

Sunday, April 13, 2008

marathon @ 4/13/2008 04:39:00 PM

hmmm. the past few days? marathon lang ng SMALLVILLE!!!!!!!! hahaha. sorry. i got so addicted. anyway, aside from morning till midnight non-stop marathon, may ginagawa naman ako kahit papano. every tuesday and thursday nga lang. :)) yep, STOMP classes and going to LPTC with ma and ej. of course, andun si stranger. :D yiiiie. hahah. nung thursday, after classes, sumama ako kay ma sa clinic nya just to escape the terror in hell. hahahaha. potek. ayoko tlg pag ako lang mag-isa. ayuuun. then we went to lptc gym. nung una taena badtrip na badtrip ako. kasi naman, ang baho na, wala pa si stranger! mmp. so ayun, bumaba ako para kunin yung pabango sa car tapos bumalik na din. hayyy. gusto ko na talagang umalis nun. tapos nakita ko sya! dumating! hahahaha. new hairstyle, tapos sumasayaw. :) HEAVEN! hahaha. ayun, mega eye-contact marathon na naman. :] then we went home. that's pretty much it. :) hahahaha. kasi naman, puro smallville marathon lang talaga. nagstart ako nung monday, ngayon nasa season 5 na ako. 1week! oh diba. :] adiiik. hahaha. geh, lovelots!!

new skin @ 4/13/2008 04:34:00 PM

hahaha. nagbago po ako ng skin dahil kay ms. BIANCA PATRICIA PADILLA YAP. hahahaha. dahil di sya maka navigate. onga naman, nakakinis rin yun. hahahaha. so bumalik ako sa isang page lang na sandamakmak ang nakalagay. hahaha. uhmm. ano pa nga bang masasabi ko? BRING BACK THE DARKNESS TO MY BLOG! :)) halata naman na itim na ulit siya. hahaha. sorry nman. nakakatamad maghanap at mag edit. hmmm. take a look at my imeem. hahaha. katawa talaga. nag experiment na naman ako. :)) hmmm. as usual, kung gusto nyong masama sa links, just tag. :] ayy wait! hindi pa ayos yung cbox ko. di ko alam kung bakit ang bagal ng cbox. haha. kaya sorry kung hindi pa kakulay nung blog yung cbox. :)) masyado na bang matagalog tong' post na toh? :)) hmmm.. wala pa rin talaga akong mapost. di bale, lalagay ko sa susunod na post mga happenings the past few days. :) goodluck naman. hahahaha!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

where i stood @ 4/10/2008 04:18:00 PM

OMG. naiyak tlaga ako sa kanta na yan. :(


WHERE I STOOD- missy higgins

tae. by the way, naadik na nga pala ako sa smallville. :] hahahaha. wla lang. nagsimula nung sa superman returns. hahahaha. ayuuuunnn. sobrang nakakaiyak talaga nangyayari. actually wla pa ako sa part na may lois lane. hahaha. pero nung pinanuod ko yung vid plus yung music, ohshit. ang sakit tlaga. ewan ko. hahahaha. basta, yun na yon. :)

hmmm. sorry nga pala kung matagal na akong hindi nakakapag post. nasira kasi yung pc. gadaming virus! grabe. kaya ayun, pina reformat. nagsSTOMP narin pala ako. 2nd class ko ngayon. hahaha. astiiiig. i love it. hip-hop yung tinake ko. kasama ko si lexii. nakaka 2 choreo na kami. una yung just can't let you go ni omarion si sir christian nagturo nun. next yung say it right by nelly furtado, sina ate nixx naman nagturo nun. more of robotics sya. hahaha. ASTIG TALAGA. tapos every after class, sa starbs kami tumatambay ni lexii. well, since nakamiss kami ng dalawang class... makikisabay kami sa hip hop B. hahaha. :) geh, hope to post more. smallville marathon muna. :)

Saturday, April 05, 2008

falling stupid for you. @ 4/05/2008 09:25:00 PM

it was never in my plans to fall for you. but i guess you already got me hooked. wtf. :( i only thought of this whole "thing" as a simple fling. i mean, we're strangers for crying out loud! we only looked into each other fro three freakin' days! gahd. and then some tournament came about and everything just happened!!!! woah. i mean... this is major flirtation or whatever you may call it. hahaha. but really, it is. we went to sm muntinlupa first to drop ej in his tournament. then all the LPTC guys were there and i can't even believe that he was the one i looked for! woah. i used to hate these tournaments. i mean, really. i make excuses just to get out of it, but this time.. I WOULD NOTHING ELSE BUT TO GO THERE. see? weird. then I SAW HIM! then i went up and down through the escalator looking at the place and looking for him too. then there was this time when i was standing at the railings and he was passing by (in front of me and at my back) then they were scolded for practicing at the side so he left the place but he came back for that little boy and he carried him and they passed by me. ♥♥ i don't know but everytime we stare at each other and just steal a glance or something and seem to deny that we looked. i don't know, it just really makes my heart jump. hahahaha. then we went to sm molino (long road trip) for lunch. 40th day of my kapamilya. then we went back to sm muntinlupa, ej hasn't fought yet so that means neither was "stranger" (that's what i call him). when i got back, he was really being a "Senior". he coached his fellow LPTC team mates and stayed there for them. wow. then he coached some more and then he went to his bag, and i realized that it was just right beside me. wow. then he CHANGED right in front of me. i don't know. he was also looking if i was looking but i tried to keep my eyes on my cp. :)) laughtrip tlg. more of those "looking" then suddenly, at some point, it stopped. :( awww. i still looked at him though, only he was more focus on the tournament. which was good. he won a gold medal for his division and he was the best player for high school advance boys division. :) great great. hmmmm. but then, at some points, i got jealous of some girls!!! wtf! i don't even know why i should feel that because that was only flirting! hahahaha! then i can't stop looking. i can't stop staring at him. i look for him everytime. good thing is mom knows him. actually, the first time i saw him (coz it was never a "met" because we never actually did), i was just forced to go there because i never really liked going to places like that. then i saw him. i can't help but stare at him ALWAYS and he stares back! so i thought, "what is this?! but its actually making me smile. and i really mean, SMILE!!" then i was taking stolen vids and stuff. he was actually very noisy when he fights. he screams like a girl, no the "wooooooo!" thing with the girl's "tili". hahahaha. nag gm pa nga ako nun, sbe ko "bes! may gwapo dito! kaso ang hilig tumili! T.O!!" hahahahaha. awwww. mems. second time i saw him.. was the day yujiro was going to leave and mom picked me up so early just to go to LPTC. i was crying that time so my eyes were really soar. then i went up there and stopped crying so people won't notice and then i saw him, wearing yellow... :] hahahaha. he saw me too. and he looked like as if he was so concerned. hahaha. then we stared at each other once again! i sat at the end of the seats and every water break, he would go near my place even though his gym bag and water were in the other side! hahaha. third time, that wasn't really very long. we just dropped ej because we were going to sm. i stood near the stairs and there was a little hole and ALL I CAN SEE IS HIM! really! it's really odd that he's always the first one or the only one i see. and i mean it. not because we have this "flirt thing" going on that everytime i look at people he's the one i see. i see him because he's the only one there! wow. hahahaha. then the tournament. :) there was a time when he was just going through everything in his bag, i don't even know what he was doing but he just squat in front of his bag and stood up without even getting something from it or changing his clothes! hahaha. we were looking at each other that time, you know.. the stolen glances thing. hmmmm. after everything, maybe at around 4pm, i was really jealous of this girl and it gave me some uncomfy feelings. it's really weird to feel that. but i guess i knew what that was. that was a "crush". hahahaha. i'm getting there. :] it's just a crush for now. i got a video of him, changing. :)) then we were about to go home but all i could ever think of was him. really. :(
at the end of the day, you got me hooked. you got me real hooked Ivan Santos. :P



PS. i never posted something this long lately. hahaha. i was having trouble thinking of things to post. but i was so ....... with this one. haha. odd.

ps#2. i looked for him in friendster. i did that during the third day, i only knew his name was ivan so i typed "ivan" T_T hahaha. 18,000+. i gave up.
today, i know his last name already. 188 people with the name ivan santos. i never checked those without pictures. then there was this profile, i don't know if that was him. at first glance it looked like it was him. i don't know. never saw him though. awww...

oh, before i forget, here's a song i actually DEDICATE to him, odd.

Stupid For You
Marie Digby

It's not everyday
That I meet a person quite like you
Perfect every way
I finally found the nerve to confess that it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you..

Oh, oh stupid for you..

The proper thing to do
Is for me to act like a lady and wait
For you to make the first move
But I don't think you're getting the point
That it's you - that I want
I don't care if I act a fool
I would damn near beg for you
Put aside, all my pride
So don't keep me hanging here
Cause this girl is falling stupid for you

Oh, oh stupid for you

Why's it always feel like I am
Chasing love when nothing's there
And here I go just making the same mistakes...

I've fallen stupid for you..
oh, oh stupid for you..
oh, oh, oh, oh


*for those who read this, let's keep it here. it's our LITTLE secret. :] alright?

Friday, April 04, 2008

saved. @ 4/04/2008 12:39:00 PM

"...and just when the people thought everything's a mess, a superhero comes and saves the day..."

i really had a blast yesterday. :D probably because of someone. hahahaha. mmmm.. ewan qb. pween has been disappearing lately and i'm in my most vulnerable stage because i have dad probs again and i haven't started any classes yet and i'm too far away from friends. i really can't believe this. i haven't smiled ever since mom drove away from augustus. but then this "superhero" came and saved my day! :D grabe tlaga kagabi. i was so teary-eyed na tapos ayun, tumahimik na ako kasi public place na yung pinuntahan namin. hindi ko kinakausap si ma pero sbrang wala akong magawa. lowbatt na kasi ako nun. kaya ayun, grabe talaga. :D kasi last week pa yun. hahaha. mga tuesday last week. tapos ayun. hindi ko tlg makwento dito badtrip. hindi ko toh like ha, sympre pween prn. pero ayunnn.. grabe kasi kagabi eh. naging magka vibes kami. ewn ko ba. :D mejo showy rin. hahaha. taena. gusto ko tlg tog ikwento sa inyo..... mmp. pero hindi ko tlg makwento. :)) o basta yun. hahahaha.

till' next time. @ 4/04/2008 11:48:00 AM

awww.. umalis na ulit si yujiro. mamaya pa yung flight nya pero nasa qc na sya ngayon. :[ hayyy. nakakainis nga ehh. i haven't spend much time with him. i had one week of usherette thing and the days after, i'm here. can't do anything. anyway, i am really really upset yesterday. mom dropped us in augustus at about 1pm in the afternoon. and we spent the day with him. kuya nj came too. we went to quickly and played afterwards. them mom arrived and i was pleading to stay, but she won't allow it. so i got into the car and cried. what else can i do? :[ we were heading to EJ's lpc taekwondo unti 8pm.

Thursday, April 03, 2008

just when i thought it's a change.. @ 4/03/2008 02:18:00 PM

april 2,2008.. everything just got messed up. :( something is not right. i know that there are reasons for this but are those reasonable enough? i don't know. i wanna go to classes and hotel getaways na. i just want to leave these problems. i hope after april is over, everything's over as well. sorry kung random, di lang talaga kaaya-aya yung mga nangyayari. napaka unattached ko lang siguro. kahit san ako magpunta, lagi na lang underdog. amp. buti na lang merong ibang hindi. waaa. ang RANDOM na tlg. sorry sorry. gusto ko lang talaga ilabas.

eto pa, may something or someone na hindi ko alam kung anung sinasabi. si "pween", sabi nya kasi baka hindi kami makapag-usap ng matagal. okayyy?? bakit naman? sbi nya hindi pa daw sya sure. tapos sabi ko... bakit nga? di na sya nagrep. OKAYYYYY. hayyy. sana hindi na naman toh another "you-left-me-hanging" story. ayoko na ng ganun. akala ko kasi this time, it would be different. pero i guess hindi pdn pala. grabe. eto na nga lang yung akala kong'sure ako. hindi pa rin pala. :( ayoko tlg nito. sbrang coward ko na para hindi toh pansinin or para takbuhan toh pero ano pa nga bang magagawa ko? kailangan ko laging mag umpisa ng something again EVERYTIME. ang hirap na nun. fifteen minutes na lang. what should i do after 15mins?? :( amppp. sana naman maging maganda natong' araw na toh.

everything changed ever since. pano na?! :( ang hirap na talaga nito. lahat na lang, :(( ayoko na talaga.:(( ayoko na. :(( sorry talaga kung random. nga pala, BYE BYE na naman yujiro. :(( i am actually teary-eyed na dito. puteeekkkk. :(( puteeekkk tlg. walaakong tatakbuhan. malolowbatt pa cp ko. ohmygosh.Ö hayyy. cge na, bye na. sorry kung random. manunuod nlng ako ng vids.

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

@ 4/01/2008 10:45:00 PM

i miss my home, that's simply it. no matter how hard i try, this place would never be home. :[ people say that as long as you have your family, it's home. but no. this may sound emo but the "family" which i may call home was left back there. in our old house, all the memories of a happy family were all left there. it's almost a year.. celebration of being in HELL. i don't know. it's probably what i call this place. you can't do anything here. i'm really scared this summer. this summer is what i've been waiting for the whole school year.. but it's not really what i imagined it to be. not another bummer, please. i seriously don't have anything to do. i WASTE electrivity here. if i don't go online, i watch DVD. it's always "either". coz i can't do anything. i can't go outside or even go to my old house! wtf. and i thought this summer was suppose to be special.. but i was so blinded with that fantasy. i forgot the fact that my "reality" exists. and that it has a sign that says "HELL!". shit shit shit. i f i had one wish, i would've wished that we never moved. i never really liked this place. two more year and i'm out! but i don't want those two years to happen so fast! i just hate the fact that i need to deal with that 2 years HERE. yes, here at hell. i just HATE it. i HATE it. i HATE it. I HATE IT. I HATE IIIIITTTTT! wtf. anyway, i still hate it. but enough of that... i'm wasting precious space. uuugggghhh. nothing to do..... you probably get the point, and i have nothing good left to say. better shut up now. BYEBYE! :p

Nick J. @ 4/01/2008 05:34:00 PM

hahahaha, :) i got so obsessed with the jonas brothers once again. especially NICK JONAAAAASSS! :]] damn, a diabetic with muscles who flips on stage and has curly hair! ♥♥ plus, he was the one who was first discovered and had a SOLO CAREER. =P so the jo. bros owe him. :] next, he had this "david archuleta" voice when he was little. hahahaha! i swear, those sweet "girly' angelic voices are so cuuuuttteeee! hahahaha. oooohhhh. gotta love NICK J! :] if you wanna hear that sweet "girly" angelic voice of his, listen to my background music. he also makes these "the nick j" shows on youtube! watch it! :P too many to post. hahahaha. that video above is "hold on" by the jonas brothers. la lang. ♥