Sunday, June 22, 2008

i'd play a song that would never end. @ 6/22/2008 08:10:00 PM

last night was pinoy dream academy's first gala night. i was cheering for Chivas since I'm really amazed with his name. Plus I was scared that he may not be able to perform because he hyperventilated. By the way, he was rushed to the hospital for the second time and it was the same reason. Oh no, poor Bunny. Anyway, when it was about to end, Zel (Liezel) was awarded as "First Star Scholar"... since the theme was about dads, she sang "Dance with my Father" by Luther Vandross. She never saw her dad since she was a first grader, it's so sad. I was struck by the song since it was about fathers. And the whole thing applies maybe not literally, but figuratively yes.

Here's the song lyrics but it's Tamyra Gray's version.

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again

Ooh, ooh

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again


I played it over and over again and I found out that it was such an easy song to sing.. Hahaha. Anyway, getting away from the topic, I feel SOOOOOOO guilty about tons of stuff.

Hm, first and foremost, I am guilty because I haven't found any gift for bestfriend's birthday! Ugh. I just don't know what to give her or I'm still confused. AND I REALLY REALLY MISS HER. It's nearing two mos. since we've last seen each other, oh my. Hahaha. And I don't even know if she's been texting me since I have cellphone off since last Monday or Tuesday. I can finally say that it's not a necessity anymore. Sun phone is more useful nowadays. I also felt guilty about those people who yelled at me through YM. Still because of my cellphone. Good thing is there is YM. Peace na tayo guys ha.. ;)

I also feel guilty about the fact that I don't talk to other people even though I'm online. I won't expound, but there's this big piece of guilt that pinches me everytime I see their names in my "online list." I feel guilty about this person too. I know I shouldn't have IM-ed him/her with that. That was so *shitty.* I feel so damn stupid.

Another is this issue that I had with a person. I really feel so sorry because what I did was wrong and I know that I should understand his situation. I guess it was peer pressure once again. But the guilt is because I hurt this person for me to look good or something. Nasaktan ko siya dahil akala ko 'ay masayang trip toh!' Pero mali, maling-mali. But I'm not afraid to admit it or to say that I never did it.. I did, but I hope you forgive me.

Next is my argument with France. Argh. It was so mababaw. I'm so guilty because I made him say sorry even though I KNOW that I was the wrong one. I have never even told him how he means so much to me as a friend. Okay, starting now, I won't be a pain in the ass anymore peps. I'm sorry if I ever made you do that. Nagpaka scene queen na naman ako eh.

Lastly, this "thing" that never left my mind for months. It's like a nightmare that haunts me even though I'm awake. Ant the most painful thing is I can never tell this person what I really know or what I really feel. Second most painful thing about it is that I cannot tell anyone about it. And it's very sad to hide a secret that only you know, a secret that you can never tell anybody.

In my journal in CCF, I wrote about fears and dreams. How fears hinder us from the things we want to attain. I conquered most of my fears, but never this one. This "secret" that only I know of. This feeling that only I may feel. I fear that it may destroy something or that it may lead to a lot of people's dismay and sadness. I also wrote about taking risks. But this is something that is too big to risk. I'll think about it, but right now, I find no courage in me to tell this person the truth.


Earlier this evening, I read about Forgiveness in The Reader's Digest with Obama's face all over it. It was a heart-whelming story about poeple in Cambodia during the Khmer Rogue period. It was about a young boy who, along with his family, suffered the 'whips and deaths' of the Khmer Rogue. They were accused of theft and thought they were "enemies" so they "destroyed" them. He had 11 brothers and sisters but all of them died inside a pit hole where they were hit to death. They thought that everyone was dead but the boy survived. He was the only sole survivor among 33 people who had been killed that day. He saw his father die, his mother and his siblings.. that was probably the most painful thing that a person could ever feel. Witnessing how all the people you love are slowly being taken away from you. That day, he vowed for vengeance. 15 years passed by and every morning he woke up with the thought of killing those people who killed his mother. But he then realized that all those years that he was suppose to be happy, he, instead, lived in darkness and despair. It just seemed like he was also dead, like the rest of his family.He was then invited to hold a seminar in Cambodia.. He was the perfect person to enlighten the people who've been suffering from Khmer Rogue period. But he asked himself "Why would I want to go back to a place that caused me too much loneliness?" After some thinking, he accepted the offer with a clear mind of his one and only purpose-- forgiveness. He saw those people who killed his family, but instead of killing them just like what he had imagined it to be for the last 15 years, he gave a Cambodian scarf which was a symbol of friendship and a hug which Cambodians don't do often since it was a symbol of long-time friendship. "If you have a wound in you leg, you remove the plaster and cleanse the wound. It stings, but healing is taking place. Cleansing the wound is necessary for the healing process. Delivering the message of forgiveness to the man who had killed my father was extremely painful but it brought healing."

Forgiveness is a very big thing to do. It requires a heart and a person that means it. It is not something that may be given into a split second. It takes time for it to be meant whole-heartedly. Sokreaksa Himm was a man of bravery and forgiveness. Some people would let revenge take control over them and let them live in darkness for as long as they keep that feeling of revenge. We may feel like we want vengeance, but this will not set us free. It will keep on adding and adding to the guilt and sadness that we will feel. When we take this route, we may never feel contentment and happiness. Because only contentment and forgiveness can give us happiness.


"Reconciliation can never take place if forgiveness is not granted first."
-Sokreaksa Himm

sorry kung mahaba. napakarami lang talagang bumulabog sa isip ko.

PS. naaamaze ako sa The Testament! ang hirap bitawan! Hahahaha. Tsaka next time, book shopping na ako. Ang dami ko kasing nakitang magaganda, gahd. Hahaha.

PPS. if you have noticed, bago na po ang aking header. Thanks to Ate Denne. Siya rin po ang gumawa ng font sa "Janzy's Storybook." And the ever popular "deathmunkey" in multiply. Siya po ay gumagawa ng themes, katulad ng aking mga previous themes. Please support her, kahit mahilig yan sa talong, talented at matapang yan! Love you Ate Denne. :)

PPPS. buti na lang walang pasok tomorrow. ang dami kasing homeworks. Not that I'm happy because of the storm, I'm just relieved that I had a day-off. But please, Lord, guide all those people who are in most need of Your help.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

"aaahhh, nalaglag ako!" @ 6/21/2008 01:15:00 PM

it was so relieving that it was Friday yesterday. nakakapagod yung buong week, ang daming down moments. anyway, okay naman. nagtapos ng masaya yung friday ko.

nagwaiting area muna ako, naabutan ko dun si Darwin. tapos dumating na rin si Justin. pumunta saglit sa sds, tapos bumalik dun. andun na si Kai. tapos sumayaw na lang kami. nung dumating na sina nina at emika, yuuunn.. pumunta na kami sa cws for assembly.

health, english, math. tapos LUNCH! homeroom afterwards, diniscuss yung mga class contests tapos nag killer's eye ulit kami. tapos ZL time na. kinesthetics una kaya Futsal muna. ang saya, green team ako. ka team ko si mikalog, si bill at si josh davantes. kaso di ko ka team si abby, oh no. brutal kmi pag di kami magka team, shet.

tapos recess.. tapos ETO NA! DOTA time. hahaha. hindi ko na sinuot costume ko, amp. basta muling nabuhay si mandurugo. actually pati din yung iba. tapos eto na yung laughtrip. sina ian, reden, mark, mikko etc. kasi kasamarin sa DOTA. eh hindi naman daw sila marunong umarte kaya kinausap nila si "de ass". hahaha. tapos hindi sila pinayagan lumipat. edi pinaarte na sila ni ms. cha. ang funny nung pinaggagawa nila. si ian kumanta ng happy birthday nang galit. si mikko, pina-acting nang nahulog sa butas.. si jerome at kazu kinausap yung upuan. si mark kumanta ng always be my baby. si reden sumayaw. yun, basta nag laughtrip. tapos si kathleen ang galing grabe! umiyak talaga siya. ayuuunn. natapos din siya afterwards. hindi pa natapos yung iba.tapos brigada na. elections lang. tapos mentoring na, yun.. kwentuhan lang with Dani. nakaka depress bigla. ewan ko kung bakit. ahaha. flag retreat afterwards.

lastly, nung uwian.. masaya naman. pero mas masaya pa rin yung thursday. :] tapos sa bahay.. chat. hahaha. sa wakas, meron na rin akong mapagtatanungan maliban kay Saint. :]] sige, yun na yon.

chivaaaasss. :]

Thursday, June 19, 2008

@ 6/19/2008 08:25:00 PM

OUCCCCHHH.

perfect word to describe everything around me. hindi kay stranger noh, of course. hahaha. pero everything else. hindi ko kasi ma post, away ito, oh no. hahahah. joke lang. scandal lang pala. basta ganun. urgh, ewan ko ba.

hmm..

si bestfriend, hindi ko na masyado nakakatext. in short, wala na akong alam sa buhay niya. :[

si peps, ganun din. wla na akong alam.

si tomtom, ganun din!

si ate kat, busy sa college.

si llf/pb, eto na naman. nagumpisa na naman yung school year namin na parang katulad na naman nung dati. aw.

si ****, ganun pa rin. nakakasakit pa rin. sana kasi hindi na niya gawin. ang sakit sakit para itago ko toh sa knya tapos nakakatakot i-open up.

si stranger, ayun. yun lng. siya lang yung okay. gahd. T_T

happiness is contentment, and i am NOT happy. :[

hahaha, ang emo.

see the butterflies, baby. @ 6/19/2008 06:42:00 PM

too many happenings for one week! this was the first week that we ever had this school year at ika nga ni justin ben calpo "tuloy-tuloy na toh." meaning wala nang urungan. free sats and suns na lang. aww. goodbye summer na talaga. kaso naman, feel na feel ko na kalagitnaan na ng school year. hahaha. kasi naman, parang tagum lang talaga. new sets of officers lang, pro nga pala me. tsaka yung apat na bagong pasok at apat na kakaalis lang. ang titindi agad ng teachers namin. lahat ng SAC sa bawat dept. lagot na tayo diyan. pero the nice thing is, masaya. maraming natututunan. katulad kay ms. mutya, feeling ko entrepreneur na me. hahaha. kay gmik naman (G. Mickey; parang Gmart kay sir martin) ang saya. nakakautot sa kakatawa. plus, may natututunan kami! o dabah. hmm. si ms. nanette! ang galiiiiiinng talaga. na amaza talaga ako sa maraming bagay, as in. kay sir allan, infairness, naiintindihan ko ang math so far. kay ms. mariliz, excited na me sa monday!! chem lab naaa.

nga pala! success yung grp study namin sa library last saturday. kami nga lang talaga tsaka sobrang daming libro sa table. pero hindi pa namin dinidiscuss sa english.

so far, okay naman ang life. nagkaron ako bigla ng ka-emohan sa likod ng math ntbk ko katabi ng promath results. soooooobrang bothered ako kaning recess eh. nag-promise pa naman akong hindi ako magdodoodle or diary sa ntbks. badtrip, nasuway. pero syempre, may rason naman po.

ganun pa din naman.. same old people. same old days. nagbago lang ay nanonood ako ng PDA pagtapos ng My Girl. errrr, wala akong mapost. hahaha. another random one. ngayong araw kasi na toh, medyo naging "theme" niya ay family. won't expound.

and lastly, another STRANGER day. :) super duper happy. i love this thursday talaga. mat taekwondo kasi si bro kaya hinatid namin siya sa lptc gym. ayun, nakita ko siya. :) kahit pala malungkot tong' araw na toh, okay din naman pala yung dulo. rainbow after the rain ika nga. :)

ps. omigaaaahhd. DOTA na bukas. hindi yan yung pc game. sa theater arts siya tomorrow. aacting kami (monologue)kaya nakakakaba talaga. tsaka pupunta pala kaming manila doctors sa saturday para sa isang something. actually hindi ko talaga alam kung ano yun pero alam ko lang pupunta kami nina kaii. yun lang naman. :) nakakakaba lang talaga yung bukas. muling ibabalik si Mandurugo! :))

Saturday, June 14, 2008

another heroic deed. @ 6/14/2008 09:39:00 PM

i really don't know what to expect tomorrow, it's so shallow and blurry. alam niyo bang naiyak ako sa Ang Tundo kasi i can relate? hayy, ayaw ko na mag expand. basta, nakakarelate lang talaga ako.

hmm, update nga muna. haha. ang drama kasi eh.

family. uhm. masaya naman. nabawasan ang family outings, doii.. schoolyear.

friends. sa tk, nako.. malayo na naman. sa pshakes, okay naman. kumpleto kami everyday. walang misunderstandings. sa sds, nangangapa pa kami, pero as usual.. tatlong araw pa lang maingay na. maiiwasan pa ba yun? hahahaha. sevendorks and others, hindi ko sila masyado nakakatext or nakakausap.

sa lablyp.. thanks stranger, you know what that's for. another heroic deed of yours. million thank you's. and i miss you too. mentos lang yung nadadala ko palagi. aww...

sa boys,
*may dalawa akong namimiss.
*yung isa naiinsecure naman ako. weird. haha.
*yung isa, AS USUAL, meron talagang nakakainis sa kanya. hahaah.
*may isang napapalapit yung loob ko. hindi toh lovey dovey. mas closer lang than before. wahahaha.

sa girls,
*may isa akong kinaiinisan, nasa building na namin siya.. gaaah!
*may isang nagbago yung ugali. actually di ko lang ma determine. wahaha.
*may isang SOBRANG miss ko na.

at sa istadiies.
ayun, papaka nerd. study group palagi. nung friday si abby, anlo, dan at emika. tapos this SATURDAY (oo, bukas ang lib. thanks micha) kasama ko sina dan at emika at ga-dami naming libro sa table. wahahaha. paka-nerd na! tinapos namin yung english lit namin. :) o dabaaahh.

hmm. wala kasi akong mapost. trip ko lang talaga maglabas ng kung anong sama ng loob sa puso ko, amp. sige na, back to the real world. :D

ps. hahaha. si iste, 14 years old, mas malaki pa uyng grade four na kaptiiidd. hahaha, isteeeee! :)) [ wala lang ah, share lang. peace tayo "saint!"

ppps. ayaw ko ng first day, bagsak ang blog rates ko. hahahaha.

ppps. imy stranger.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Junior Year, here we cooooommmeee! :) @ 6/13/2008 07:52:00 PM

wow. i can feel the school year na. three days ago lang, summer na summer pa. gaaah. ang bilis naman. sabi nila eto yung pinaka ga-lupet na year. chem, trigo. wow goodluck. kaya yan. bagong buhay toohh. hahaha. oh well.. heto na ang aking mga kwento. :)

FIRST DAY HIGH!

excited talaga akong pumasok kasi makikita ko na ang Tagum. na miss ko talaga sila over the summer. around seven-ish ako nakarating sa school at sinalubong ako ng Pshakes. "yes, buo kami this year." hahaha. tapos ayun, umakyat na rin ako sa classroom ko. Surigao del Sur, 3rd floor. Nakakamiss talaga yung Tagum. kahit mainit, okay lang. at least 1st floor, at least may benefits. at least may pintuan.. may STORAGE ROOM! soooooooobrang laking tulong talaga nun para sa amin. dun daming tinatago yung props for plays.. yung mga dala naming mga gamit na pangpabigat.. yung mga needs ng tc.. yung drums pag intrams.. dun nagbibihis yung girls pag may kailangan ng costume. kumbaga, meron pa kaming extra classroom. sayang, nasa tuktok na kami. 3rd floor pa din naman, parang nung first year. lahat na kasi ng juniors nasa iisang floor. ewan ko ba kung bakit binago pa nila yon.

anyway, yun nga.. bago ako umakyat.. nakita ko sina Gelo sa taas, sa third floor. tapos nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Kai na hindi na namin kaklase sina Gelo. huwhaaaat?! kaya ayun, hanggang ngayon hindi talaga kumpleto yung classroom para sa akin kapag wala sila. si cheche at ate lina din. kapag nakikita ko si Gelo.. napapa "awww... Gelooooo.... :(" talaga ako. ampf, mas matalino naman sa akin yun eh. basta, nakakamiss talaga. wala ng willy willy willy o kaya ka duet ko sa mga kanta ni michael v. o kaya kasabay ko kumanta sa may shelves kapag kinakabahan o kaya inuman ng tubig pag klase.. nagbabaon na tuloy ako.

medyo late na ako, pababa na kasi sila. kaya humanap na ako ng upuan. katabi ko dapat si prince eh. hahaha. anyway, pagkababa... ampf.. sobrang INIT. siguro yun yung pinaka tugmang word para i describe yung first day namin. pag-akyat, katabi ko na si charmi.. second row kami, sa likod nina ianne at gab. masaya toh. :) na-meet na rin namin adviser and co-ad namin. si ms. mutya at ms. mariliz. ayos, parang si sir rene si ms. mariliz. :) afterwards, english na. si ms. nanette (tama spelling?) teacher namin. sobrang quiet talaga kami nung dumating siya. lahat kasi kami may impression na talaga na strict at scary siya. pero sobrang intelligent. may high expectations at talagang matututunan kami.

nga pala, math teacher ulit namin yung ath teacher namin nung seond year. talaganag.. "OH MY GOD!" nagulat talaga ako. napagisipan ko pa naman na magbagong buhay na this year.. pero try pa rin syempre. conquer your fears ika nga. hahaha. yun.. the rest of the day.. meet the teachers lang, tsaka 3pm kami dinismiss. libraray, first day na first day. geometry ang aking hinanap. doiiii, scared ako kay sir allan. whahaha.

second day blues.

wala na. wala nang excitement. hahaha. wala na rin masyadong matandaan. basta, terror ang aming bagong computer teacher. wahahaha, goodlcuk sa programming. likod pa ako. ayaw na ayaw ko nga sa likod kasi wala akong maintindihan, matetempt akong dumaldal. pero ayos lang naman, si Dani yung nasa tabi ko.. at least nakakaencourage magaral. at si Paps yung nasa isa ko pang tabi.. nakakainspire ang buhok! :)) library ulit nung dismissal, para kaming nasa ukay-ukay nun. englist literature kasi. hanap ng libro dito, hanap ng libro doon. hahahaha.

friday the thirteenth!

as usual, sa waiting area na naman kami nag hintayan. ang cool ng classes pag friday. unang subject Health, followed by two periods of math. tapos lunch.. tapos homeroom, zl and mentoring na. ang saya saya. isang major subject lang. ayos.. ayun, buena mano kami sa recitation sa math. yahoooo. 4 agad! hahahaha. tapos yun na.. orientation na for zl. futsal ako for kinesthetic (indoor soccer), brigada (para masaya!) tsaka theater. pero choices lang yun. hahaha. sana matanggap. after nun, nakaka tense kasi kailangan paunahan yung mga sections sa pagbibigay. kasi may limit sa bawat club eh. rambol to the max eh. hahaha. nauna kami. medyo napabilis ata kami ng sobra kasi yung ibang sections nagaanswer pa. hahaha. kaya naglaro kami ng laro. sina aaron kasi nagsimula eh. eh hindi nila kami sinasali kaya naglaro kami. killer eye. hahaha. yun yung madalas naming laro sa tagum noon. eh medyo maingay na kami kaya pinababa kami ni ms. mariliz. hahaha. afterwards, LIBRARY! eto na talaga yung pinaka madugo sa lahat.. talagang todo search na talaga! anyway.. more to come tomorrow.. grinab ko na tong opportunity na toh para makapag blog.

**baka mag-Cabal na din ako afterwards. sana di mag lag. ayaw ko na ma stuck sa level 2. hahahaha. ge, take care! :) "students" na naman tayo. gaaarrrr.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

the summer sends its love to you, the same as every year. @ 6/10/2008 04:07:00 PM

patapos na ako sa Ang Tundoooo. last five chapters na lang. yehey! at least Noli na lang ang pproblemahin kong basahin maliban sa mga book reports. hahahah. garabe, papasok na naman bukas! excited ako pero wala pa ako sa tamang pagiisip. hindi pa ako sanay gumising ulit ng umaga. in short, hindi pa ako ready. sino ba naman diba?! hello, JUNIOR YEAR toh. ang pinaka mahirap, pinaka madugond year sa high school. nakakainis. ang dami kong maiiwanan na memories.

during the early days of summer, busy pa rin ako since usherette nga ako. one whole week of practice. that was the same week na bumalik si Yujiro. i was so lcuky that time kasi after grad practices, magcocommute lang papuntang Augustus. sayang nga lang hindi lahat ng TK naksama ko nun. naiilang kasi siguro kay Yujiro since he was not here nung nakilala namin ang boys ng TK. nung last day na ni Yujiro, hindi ako nakapag stay ng matagal since may taekwondo pa si EJ. that was the time na nagstart gumaan ang loob ko kay "stranger" or Ivan Santos. :)

i was weak back then, umiiyak ako nun kasi nga hindi ako makakapag stay sa last ni Yujiro. then Ivan looked like he was so concerned hanggang sa yun, napadalas na rin yung pagsama ko kay Ma. nagstomp din kami ni lexxi. Stomp Dance Studio. hip-hop yung tinake namin at si sir christian yung naging teacher namin. tuesdays and thursdays, so nagkakachance akong dumalaw sa Las Piñas Taekwondo. after every class, nag sa-starbucks kami ni lexii para maghintay ng sundo or magpalamig. si sir christian, marami akong natututnan sa kanya. sa apat na choreo na tinuro niya, higit pa dun uyng natutunan ko. marami siyang sinabi samin, mostly about dance.. about it's real meaning and purpose.

madami dami ding' gimiks nung April. mostly kasama ang family. nakapag star city din kami ng TK nun. yun na yung last time na nakita ko sila this summer.

nang matapos ang Stomp days ko, natapos din ang Stranger days ko. hindi na din ako masyadong nakakapunta dun pero naging busy din ako sa ibang bagay. Nagkaroon kami ng vacation, finally. ito na talaga ang vacation since sa Pitogo na kami pupunta. sa beach! parang pagtakas na rin yon sa problema. pagkauwi, medyo nagstart na ang aking kasipagan sa ibang bagay at katamaran sa pagttext, computer at iba pa. Ewan, mas namulat ako sa ibang bagay. (ang lalim). hahahaha. dun ko na assure na may natutunan ako this summer.

ito kasi yung pinaka unang summer na medyo "alone" ako. ito kasi yung unang summer ko na hindi sa augustus. hindi yung araw-araw nasa kalye ako o kaya madumi yung paa pagkauwi gabi-gabi. nakakamiss yun, oo. pero may natutunan din naman ako sa pagiging mag-isa ko. sa text ni aya a couple of days ago, nasabi niya na mas less yung saya ng summer na toh compared to last year, pero mas madaming natutunan ngayon. tama naman talaga. as life goes on, malalayo ka talaga sa mga kinagisnan mo, mas matututo ka sa ibang bagay. nakahanap ako ng comfort sa mga pinaka maliit na bagay; yung mga bagay na hindi ko naman inaasahang bibigyan ko ng meaning. nakahanap ng comfort sa ibang tao; mga taong hindi ko naman inaasahang mapapadpad sa mundo ko. sana naman, napasaya ko rin sila.. kasi napasaya din naman nila ako. and of course yung mga tao na naging parte na ng summer ko ever since, kahit na sila yung hindi ko kasama ngayon.. it's okay. GoD has His own ways. naniniwala pa din ako na trial lang toh... there's always a brighter tomorrow.

ngayon na last day na. panibagong chapter na naman. mas mahirap, mas mahaba pero mas matututo naman tayo. :)

since patapos na nga ako sa Ang Tudo man, may Langit din, mas marami akng nalaman. mas madami akong na-realize. unang librong nakapag paiyak sa akin, grabe. hindi ko inaasahan yon. nakakarelate din kasi ako. sige na.. tatapusin ko na yung book.

pano ba yan, tapos na ang summer posts ko.. yung sunod kong' post.. tungkol na sa first day ko. :) well.. see you then. bye guys.. goodluck sa schoolyear. sana mas madami tayong matutunan di lang sa loob ng classroom, pati rin sa labas. pero wag kalimutan, always have fun. :) thank you for the whole summer, for allowing me to share mine with you and sharing yours with me. next time ulit. sabi nga ni Tata sa kanyang stat : start the countdown for SEMBREAK! hahahaha.

Monday, June 09, 2008

lights will guide you home. @ 6/09/2008 12:28:00 PM

hmm, hindi ko alam kung anong uunahin ipost. hindi ko alam kung saan magsisimula. dapat talaga gagawa ako ng tagong blogspot. as in wala lang, labasan ko talaga ng mga bagay na ayaw kong' mabasa ng mga kakilala ko. hahaha, weird noh? ewan, hindi kasi siya personal stuff, basta.. may gusto akong ishare sa buong mundo, pero hindi sa mga nakakakilala sa akin. swetihan na lang pag nakita niyo. pero hindi ko pa naman ginagawa yun. naubos kasi oras ko kakabasa ng "Ang Tundo man, may Langit din" ni Andres Cristobal Cruz. yun kasi yung novel namin this year. ayaw kong' matulad sa last year, di ko nabasa yung mpad. sabagay, hindi ko naman masisisi sarili ko, hindi ko kasi gusto yung libro, boring kasi. hahahahaha. ay mali, malalim pala. para hindi naman masyadong harsh.

isa pa, laging nasa computer si bradEr. ayaw niya akong pahawakin ng computer. well.. ayaw ko din naman talaga eh. wala na, bored na ako. gusto ko nang gawin yung hidden blogspot na yon. yung cellphone ko, hindi never-leave-without ang status. si Dan, nahalata na rin na laging busy ang stat ko sa ym. hahaha, ayaw ko lang kasi talaga ng may kausap. minsan, kapag trip ko nang maglaro ng games, mahihirapan pa ako mag bye. may ibang napaka haba pa ng concluding rites. :)) ayaw ko na ng ganun, payapa na ang mundo ko. gusto ko lang.. gawin ang gusto kong gawin.

games na lang din minsan ang pakay ko sa computer. at syempre si bloggy. games tulad ng Perfect World at o2 jam na binura ng kapatid ko upang magbigay daan sa kanyang special force at Cabal. BADTRIP! !@#$ nakakainis, selfish. hindi ko na tuloy malaro, kaya napa Cabal na din ako. napansin ko din sa stat ni Dan na naglalaro rin siya, kaso... nakakahiya. haller, level 2 pa lang ako. hahaha. eh ang bilis naman mag level up dun. pumatay lang ako ng ilang mantis, level up agad. pero kaso, ang hilig mag lag ng computer. tapos sa special force naman, hindi ko pa talaga laam kung sa eenter dun. may account na ako and all, wala pa rin. minsan, kung wala na talagang pag-asa, BOXHEAD! hahaha. wala eh, walang magawa. kapag naman tinamad na ako sa kapopost o kaya sa kakalaro, yun na... aatakihin na ako ng kasipagan. o dabah.. maglilinis ako ng buong bahay pag ganun. pag tinamad na ako o pag tapos na.. edi tv o kaya tulog. pag hapon na, laro ng basketball o kaya kung anong mapagtripan na laruin na nakakahingal. nakakmiss na kasi yung ganun. hindi na ako masyadong nakakatakbo. nakwento ko na pala yung dramang yun, enough na. :)

hmm.. isa pa.. hindi nga pala ako naka attend sa Opening Night. argh, ang sama talaga ng loob ko nun. hindi ko na pinost yun nung araw na yun kasi nagtimpi ako, baka maka ilang mura ako sa blog ko. and that's one big no no. in times of emergency lang yon. hahaha.

madami talagang nagbago sa akin nagyon. hindi mo alam kung anong pwedeng mangyari in one year, better yet, in one summer. dahil madami ngang nagbago.. madami din akong natutunan. akin akin na lang yon, too personal to share. :)

oh well.. malapit na ang pasukan. hindi naman ako kinakabahan. excited pa nga ako eh. sila pa din naman kasi mga kaklase ko. pero siguro, kapag rest ako this year.. naka ilang ritwal na ako ngayon. kabadong-kabado talaga. hahahaha. pero buti na lang. at least hindi na ako magpapakaloner. wahahaha. naiimagine ko na tuloy na parang Tagum lang ulit kami. si Abby, may kawawa na namang hinahabol.. si Anlo, napapraning.. naguusap yung mga Da Boys.. feeling ko si Aaron nagvovocalize na naman or sumasayaw ng cheerdance or nagpapractice sa kanyang invisible trumpet slash flute. hahaha.. si Bianca tumatawa, as usual. hahahaha. hyper na naman siguro yon.. si Patrick siguro bangag. duuhh. baka maabutan ko na naman yun na nagpapractice ng martial arts tulad nung avatar noon. well, naaliw din naman ako, kahit ako nagpaturo. hahaha! si Dani, for sure.. kwento agad yan! si Gil, hahaha. humanda yang tiyan mo sa first day!! si Jasper... hahaha. siguro nakausamod na naman yun sa sulok. siguro mayabang na naman mukha nun sabay mangaasar.. yung mga girls magkkwentuhan. si Kai sigurado hahanapin iba naming mga katropa.. at si Kevin.. HAHAHAHA si kevin.. :) hayy boss, nakakamiss ka.. oh well.. basta si Kevin.. hindi natin alam kung anong pwedeng mangyari.

EDIT | 2:26pm

nga pala, nanood kami ng last full show sa town kagabi. dapat kasi magsisimba kami.. eh nauwi sa dinner with tita joy's family. nag dinner kami sa pancake house sa starmall las piñas. nagkaroon na rin ng boy's night out na rin.. nagpunta sila sa milky way tapos kami naman dinayo ang town. weird noh? may pancake house naman kasi sa town, may mga beerhouse.. susko, trip magaksaya ng gasolina. wag tularan ha.

tapos ayun, ga-habang pila sa KUNG FU PANDA! niyaya kasi kami nung bubwit kong pinsan since napanood na namin yung narnia at hindi naman sila pwede sa sex and the city. infairness, patok si Panda.. hahaha. siya ang pinipilahan. ayuuuun.. 10:15 ang pinunta namin dun, kaso all seats taken na. so 10:45 na lang. ibang klase talaga si Panda, ubusan ng tickets! hahahaha. kaya ayun, nakapasok na din kami. shet, LAUGHTRIP siya i swear. hahaha! as in funny talaga. :) ayun.. that's all.. mga 2am na ako nakatulog kasi nagbasa pa ako ng Ang tundo. chapter 30 na ako ngayon. gumising kami ng super aga kasi magpapa adjust ako ng braces. eto ang araw na nagkakaroon sila ng pagkakataon upang mabarena ang mga ngipin ko. naka power chain molar to molar ang upper ko. mmp. masakit yun, wag niyo na tanungin. nakita ko din pala sa Manong Mayo, si tita din ang dentist ng kapatid niya. hindi ko lang nakausap masyado, nagmamadali kasi sina Ma, kakain pa kami sa Max's. ayun pa lang naman ang nangyayari so far. :)

Friday, June 06, 2008

finally, my heart gave in. @ 6/06/2008 08:02:00 PM

"Bakit ang bike nakakapag-brake,
Ang cellphone nalo-low batt,
Bakit ang puso hindi napipigilan?"

Famous line yan na dineliver ng one and only na si Kim Chiu. out of boredom, napanood tuloy ako ng I've Fallen For You. That cheesy teen flick lovey dovey movie I was telling everyone to watch around September 2007. Hahahaha. It's my second time to watch the movie. I had seriously nothing to do and since I'm a Kimerald lover, I just had the feeling of wanting to see Kim and Gerald's first on-screen kiss.

Kim and Gerald portrayed girl and boy Alex Reyes. Yes, they have the same name. Kim was this hard-working girl na hindi nakapasa sa UPCAT. at first, she thought she did, pero si Gerald pala yon. They kept on bumping into each other hanggang sa nagkakilala sila sa Anime Party dressed as Sasuke and Sakura. Then, everything followed. They became bike partners beacuse Kim needed money for tuition; family problems like finances and Kim's dad having an affair with his college sweetheart slash one great love which was Gerald's mom. When everything was over, kahit ako akala ko patapos na. Hindi pa pala, another conflict was about to happen. Since everything was okay between Gerald's parents (his dad is in another country), they were going to follow him in Chicago which would lead to Kim and Gerald's separation. Then Kim's mom gave her advices about trusting the one you love, yaknow.. yung mga magulang na ayaw matulad yung mga anak nila sa kanila. so Kim showed up in the bike race and won second place. Then the kiss part. :)



Nag-improve talaga sila sa acting. Hindi katulad noon sa First Day High. Although, parang may pagka ilang pa din sila. Gerald had some I-never-said-that-I-love-you Sam Milby moment with Chin Chin Gutierrez as well kaya kitang-kitang nag improve talaga. Predictable din naman yung mga mangyayari tsaka medyo impossible yung iba pero maganda, i mean... nakakakilig. :)

movie review: click here.

"Anong nangyari sa we'll always be together? Anong nangyari sa forever?"
-Kim as Alex

Thursday, June 05, 2008

my blog is flying solo. @ 6/05/2008 05:15:00 PM

hay nako. burado na lahat ng links para dito sa blog ko. hindi niyo na siya makikita sa multiply page, friendster.. kahit meta tags inalis ko para wala sa search engines. ay nako! nakakinis kasi. baka mabasa na ng iba kong ************** na hindi naamn dapat nakakabsa nito. okay lang ang strangers dahil wala naman siguro silang kaalam alam dito, kaso yung mga ******************, urgh. ayoko. no. never. tanging sa links sa tagboard, link sa blog niyo, stat ko, sa address bar o kaya pag tinag ko kayo beacuse of some reason niyo na lang makikita si bloggy. ayaw ko na sa kanila... nangingialam ng personal na buhay! :)) GM pa yun ah! fine, kung yan ang pamamaraan niyo.. fine. basta akin lang, personal stuff ko toh, kung ayaw niyong' pakialaman ko din yang personal spaces mo, wag kayong kokontra sa personal life ko.

another of tagum's production @ 6/05/2008 04:15:00 PM

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

some kind of robert schwartzman madness. @ 6/04/2008 10:23:00 AM

since i posted somethin about the princess diaries yesterday, i think i just got addictyed to Robert Schwartzman a.k.a Michael. i found out that he is the frontman of Rooney. it's a great band. its really very nice. click this for the playlist. the album is entitled "calling the world." i think it really has deep meaning. but they really sound like The Click Five. hahahha, funny.

soooo.. i'm gonna go to school later. it really sucks. there's like 7 days left before junior year starts. seven. like a single digit number. things are really going way too fast. i can't cope up. aw. i'll be dealing with tons of stuff again. i hate schoolyears. sana summer na lang forever. masaya kasi eh. but the good thing is i can be with my friends ulit. yipee! yun lang naman talaga ang habol ko. sana maging maganda tong school year na toh.

by the way. may napanood nga pala ako kagabi. the title was Bubble Boy. ang funny. naalala ko lang yung napanood namin sa Discovery Channel. yung pinaka-unang bubble boy. nag survive ata siya for 12 years i think. wala talagang nahanap na cure. anyway, sharing lang naman. geh, till the next post.. take care loves!

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

I don't need wings to help me fly. @ 6/03/2008 10:18:00 PM

The sweetest movie moment would probably be the final kiss in The Princess Diaries 1. Michael and Mia's "moment." :) yaknow, after the dance when they sneaked into the garden and had a talk.. :)

Michael: Why me?
Mia: Because you saw me when I was invisible..
And just because I'm royal doesn't mean I'm any different. Come on, I'm really the same person. Yes, I will haveto live in Genovia... but I'll still go to school and...

*kiss* and then Mia's foot pops and switched on the lights in the garden.

credits to the movie's transcript. please click here.

i know, i know. it doesn't mean that much but it is the sweetest thing right? Michael is like this passive guy who just plays his music most of the time and Mia is this outcast who just found out that she's a princess in like friggin five minutes. I still want Mia and Michael to end up. I don't like Mr. Just Get Lucky guy in the following movie. There's no spark at all. Anyway, enough about that, there were other movies that made me cry like a baby. Like Armageddon, My Girl, The Notebook and PS I Love You. Yes, I'm a very sensitive person. If I want to cry, I cry. Hahaha. But those are movies. Let me share a secret with you guys. Sometimes, I really wish I'm part of a movie. When I'm in a movie theater, I get so carried away that sometimes I feel like I'm part of it. That sometimes I'm one with the movie. I know it sounds childish, but no kidding, it does feel good to be free from reality once in a while. Sometimes I even pretend like I'm the hero once I get out of the movie house. I pretend like I'm Spider girl or Bat girl. Hahahaha. It's really funny but it's damn true. ;)

I had enough of the night. I watched My Girl and Gossip Girl already. Urgh, Jenny became such a bitch. Oh well.. more on Tuesdays 8pm. Glady, I could post it before I get pissed on Beauty. :)) Oh well.. I'm off to school tomorrow for books and to get my eyes on those sections. And I am still crossing my fingers for dad's approval on Friday's Opening Night. There would be an ATC walkathon on Thursday with TC. Sadly I can't come, once again! I feel so guilty for not spending any summer day with them. Good thing we'll be seeing each other on the first day. Hoorah! It's been a long day.. the Vanilla Ice Cream taste is still in my throat. Mmmm.. this is heaven. Oh well.. candy dreams everyone. I'm dozing it all off. Till the next post!

ps. that's it, i got pissed. beauty was just labeled "pinaka nagpapakatotoo." she may be, but she's way too OA. see, she's very inconsistent with her answers sa lie detector test. plus, inadmit na niya na she does not want to be a role model. what's the harm with trying dabuh!? oh God. si ejay na lang tuloy ang bet ko; or robi. na evict na kasi yung mga gusto ko manalo tulad nina valerie, nan at rona. and shy too. kaso hindi naman siya talaga mananalo dahil house player lang siya.. at! tapos na ang issue niya with gerald. kaya even though i'm a kimerald fan... past is past. let her live her life, please..

pps. big brother must be really pissed with the housemates. the irresponsible housemantes living in his house. we can't blame them. na-attach na sila sa isa't isa. oh well, we'll all be looking forward for the big night, right everyone? seriously, napaka unpredictable ng season na ito, i swear. hahaha.

ppps. i'm starting to enjoy these blockquote things. hahahaha. million thanks to pearl therese once again. anyway, goodluck burning your things housemates! as if.. pft.. kuya's just testing you. goodluck! :)

" I was hoping that you'll be the one I share it with. "
-Princess Mia

got tagged by ate denise, i'm tagging anyone. :) @ 6/03/2008 04:33:00 PM

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag eight people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These eight people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to eight other people.

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1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
♥ well.. let it be. i mean c'mon, the world is filled with blood-sucking males out there. unless its really something special.. i still can't do anything about it but move on and let go. and of course kick the slut's butt. then again, make love not war. so imma save her butt for some other time. accept the fact that he was such a sore loser and see what big loss he had. :D

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
♥ some people usually narrows it down to friends but seriously, will he accept it? the line "okay na yun kesa sa tuluyan akong mawala sa buhay mo" is gasgas na already. so.. i guess i would just have to face the dude and just tell it all the way. we can be friends in some other time. :D

3. What if question number two was the other way around?
♥ i'd move one. it's soooooo wrong to wait especially when you're clingin on flase hope. trust me, i've been there.


4. Would you rather be dumped by your bf/gf or see him/her cheating on you?
♥ see him cheating. you get to dump him then have the right to get back. and again, make love not war. ;) amsorry.

5. What's your ideal bf/gf like?
♥ just someone with sense and someone who cares. and someone who's ready to go through anything with me as long as we're together. :D

6. Is it okay if he/she smokes?
♥ no. ;)

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue for them to change their feelings?
♥ hell no.

8. If the person you like is already attached, what would you do?
♥ nothing. whatever happens happen. ;)

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
♥ yes. look down below. :D

10. What do you want most in your life?
♥ traveling and charity. :)

11. Have you ever experience being courted by two guys at the same time?
♥ yep. total mayhem dude.

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your bf/gf, how would you react?
♥ it depends if the guy is really special. but if its just a fling, its okay. ;)

13. Who is currently the most important person/s to you?
♥ my parents. :D

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
♥ artistic and creative. ;)

15. Would you be rather single & rich or married & poor?
♥ single and rich, definitely.

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
♥ nopey. that's too much. :D

17. If you fall in love with two persons who's worth simultaneously, who would you pick?
♥ neither. :p

18. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do or how would you react?
♥ try to get us closer. :P

19. If you were to get stuck in a movie, what movie would it be?
♥ dead or aliiiivvvvee! oh the fantasyyy!!! :D

20. Where do you see yourself 5 years from now?
♥ college. :D, doiii.

tagging: anyone! LOL.

i'll be tagging you with this. :D lotslooovveee!

TAG! ;)

please proceed to: click meeee.♥

Love is Free @ 6/03/2008 02:28:00 PM

here i am again. not so pissed, not so friendly friendly.
nandun sa point na you want them to change and yet you are getting pissed when they don't.
its hard to explain. ang dami dami lang kasi talagang taong napupunta sa maling direksyon. hindi naman siguro nila kasalanan pero sana naman meron silang common sense or konsensya man lang para maisip na "ay! sumusobra na pala ako" o kaya "ay! mali pala tong ginagawa ko." hindi ko talaga maiwasang magsalita sa isip ko. sakit ko na siguro yon. parang meron akong automatic blog sa isip ko. hindi ko naman naisisigaw eh, kaso baka makuha mo sa facial expression ko. pag memdyo parang may binubulong-bulong ako.. yun na, topic na kita sa utak ko. hahahaha. anyway, yun nga. masyado kasing nagkapatong-patong yung mga ugali nung mga taong toh eh. hindi na ako naka catch up para sabihin sa isip ko na intindihin ko na lang. mahirap na, minsan sarili ko ng mga kaibigan yung nagkakalabuan dahil sa ugali.

merong mga taong mahilig mag discriminate or manglait. yung mga tipo ng tao na akala nila sila na ang mga pinaka perpektong taong ginawa ng Diyos kung maka panglait. parang yung mga babaeng mahilig magtaas ng kilay tapos tititigan ka from top to bottom tapos tatawa. o kaya the typical school bully.. yung mga ganun. meron din namang mga taong napaka insincere. jusko, parang hindi na ata titino. eto, madalas kong nararansan eh. sawang-sawa na ako sa mga pasikot sikot ng ibang tao. magsosorry, after five days, boom.. there he/she goes again. parang nalimutan na ata na nagsorry siya. tapos magagalit ka syempre, magsosorry na naman! wtf. life cycle ba ito? ganun ba ang pamamaraan nila upang mabuhay?! sana lang marealize nila yan bago sila mawalan ng mga kaibigan, sana lang.. sana lang talaga.

eto isa sa mga personal hates ko. kay ate denne ko natutunan ang word na toh, hanggang sa nakikita ko na rin sa mga gumagawa ng themes, posts, blogs, etc. the word is "ripper." sa word na "rip-off", it means theft, or stealing something. and what would you feel if someone stole your own things or your own designs? nakakainis. baby rippers. die, die! hahahah. nakakainis kasi eh, pa simple pa.

iba naman para sa mga judge-mental freakazoids. meron silang way of feeling na something's wrong with you kaya ayaw ka nila. and so on... argh. ayaw ko mag explain. bwahaha. meron ding bossy and boastful. alam niyo na naman siguro yun dabah? eto, matagal ko na rin ayaw sa mga ganito.. SLUTS!! sinisira kasi nila yung dignidad ng mga single women eh. galaki ng mundo para maghanap ng lalaki dun pa sa may asawa or boyfriend papatol. juskoday. hmm. hindi sa ayaw, pero naaawa ako sa mga emo at labeled people. nabasa ko kasi sa isang graphic icon noon sa friendster-tweakers yung quote na ito. "punk. goth. prep, REAL PEOPLE don't need labels." which is so damn true! hindi naman kasi tlaga kailangan ng ganun eh. nagkakaron lang ng ganun kasi people wants to belong parati. they do it for peers for groups. yun yung mga tip ng tao na hindi kaya magpakatotoo sa sarili. sa tingin nila, ang paglalaslas at padaramdam ng napakalaking problema ang solusyon sa kanilang kalungkutan. wag tularan ha!

merong mga mahilig mangtrip. hindi nila alam kung kelan sila dapat tumigil. may mga liars, plastik and backstabbers. napaka common na siguro niyan. marami ng ganyan sa mundo natin ngayon. minsan, dahil naiipit na, minsan naman dahil likas na masama na talaga. merong ding mga oa at ksp. hay nako! eto yung nakakainit ng dugo! may mga bugoy.. nalaman ko toh from ianne. siguro mga lalaking malipat lipat, hindi nakuntento o simpleng insincere lang talaga. mga tipo ng tao na hindi pa alam ang true meaning ng love eh i love you till the end na ang sinasabi.

mga taong masyadong proud at akala nila diyos at diyosa sila.. mga duwag sa makabagong henerasyon o mga lalaking duwag at idinadaan sa text ang panliligaw at mga pakialamero/a.

merong mga self-centered. wala ng ibang inisip kundi sarili nila. ugh, hindi ko maexplain. isang tao lang naman ang nasa isip ko. HE really made it this far and yet he still pretends na selfless yung ginagawa niya. oh'cmon! the world doesn't revolve around you.

eto yung pinaka nakakainis. sa pbb teen edition plus ko ito nadiskubre. nung pumasok si shy sa bahay ni kuya, grabeng scandal agad. gusto ko si shy, i love her personality. pero hindi ito yung topic. yung nakakainis dito ay yung pagjujudge ni beauty. oo, naiinis talaga ako sa kanya. natatawa nga ako kagabi nung humarap siya sa grand council eh. i think she got what she deserved. kasi naman, hindi porket mabait ang isang tao at parang walang pagkakamali eh plastik na siya. i mean, para sa henerasyon ngayon, being bad and dirty is what makes you a real person. kumbaga, once na naging ganun ka, yun na ang true colors mo. parang napoportray tuloy na ang tao ay likas na demonyo. ang saklap diba?

and lastly, all the blog haters. critics are okay pero yung laitan to the max, hands off! a blog is a personal outlet. gumawa ka ng sarili mo kung gusto mong' magialam.

yun lang naman. ooh, and updates! napag bawalan akong mang-away ni bestfriend. kaya ayan, todo cheer up ako kahit nakakainis na minsan. pero ayos lang, sumasaya naman sila. at si bestfriend ay kinikilig sa nicosef, as usual. :)) at napagbawalan akong magsabi ng "welCUM" ni dan. hindi daw lady-like?! haha. wtf. pero, ako'y susunod sa kanilang payo. para sa ikabubuti ko.

ps : madami talaga akong kinaiinisang tao ngayon, pero i give them chances for them to change. yung iba naman, wala lang.. hindi ko na lang pinapansin kasi hindi naman kami close or magkakilala. bahal na mga sarili nilang kaibigan dun. i may really hate these people but i want them to change for the better. pero kung ayaw nila, no big deal... hindi naman ako yung mawawalan eh.

pps : ayoko na sa mga taong nangiitsapwera. lintikan, parang walang pinagsamahan eh. fine, ganyanan. friends with benefits lang talaga. grr. boo you.

ppps : sorry kung super hate post toh. i just need to get it out of my system.

"Be nice or Leave"
-Love is Free by Sheryl Crow

Monday, June 02, 2008

after the migraine @ 6/02/2008 02:01:00 PM

oh my God. ang sakit talaga ng ulo ko kagabi. parang pinipison! anyway, before that, we went to splash island again. it was jared's birthday. the people were more good-looking this time. hell of a view, if i may say. :) i bumped into nick (3rd dork) in the agos grandes. i was drifting along with the waves when suddenly someone yelled at me. anyway, not much to tell about the whole splash islande experience since it was the third time already. it wasn't very thrilling anymore. hmm.. after that, the adults were supposed to go to sitcom and i was was to babysit. good thing everyone was exhausted and called it a day. we went to mass afterwards and that was when the migraine strated. ohmyGod does it hurt. gladly, i just dozed it off. :)

by the way, aaron told me we were classmates again. that was such a relief.. at least they're still my classmates. i had some serious bad dreams about the sectioning, i swear.

see... i learned how to use blockquote already. :D million thanks to pearl therese.

and, haberdeii zeke!
always stay pogi and humble. :)
enjoy your birthday!!