Saturday, March 22, 2008

HATRED @ 3/22/2008 10:50:00 AM

i've read a quote from Inna. it said that the oppsoite of love is not hatred, it's indifference. because if you hate someone, then it just goes to show that you still do care.

Hatred.
it's the title of this post because i still do care about these people, and i'm so sorry that some of their lives are pretty messed up right now. and that they really piss me off.

The Big Self-Centered Guy
uhhh. it's not that i hate him that much, it's just that this guy is freakin everyone out! i mean, doesn't he even notice his sensitivity and insensitivity both at the same time?! doesn't he notice he's "Kulang sa Pansin"?? doesn't he notice he's Over Acting? doesn't he notice he's hurting my bestfriend? and doesn't he know that he's preventing us from our VERY OWN BARKADA?! dude, that's just way below the belt. i mean, this i have to say. SINCE YOU DON'T CARE TO REPLY OR EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT THIS WHEN I TALK TO YOU. you have a pretty messed up life and yet you're letting it get to you. it's not suppose to be like that. coz you're dragging other people down. can't you just get over everything and start over? just because you love my bestfriend so much and maybe you are the most martyr guy ever.. doesn't mean that she SHOULD love you back! i know that i should not be saying this, coz still, it's my bestfriend's opinion and problem. but it's just so hard to see her get pressured and hurt. she's had enough. so stop making her blame herself for everything that you've been doing.

The friends?
are we really suppose to be called as "that"?
yes, we've been a having a steady friendship ever since but right now? it's like they never thought of others but themselves. i mean, hello. ever thought of consideration and understanding? there are more things bigger than these. but i can't tell them those coz they're going to bring back the drama once again and we're going to say "sorry" or backstab ONCE AGAIN. i'm done with those. probably the reason why i'm writing this post. i REALLY care about these people. but sana naman for once, they'll notice that i do care. all i ever did was help them, but somehow they never realized that. and they ended up making decisions which are very selfish, i tell you. they never even thought of how i would be. they all have other friends to be with after all these were over, but what about me? i can't exchange family. :(

The Classroom Drama
i really miss TC. when you look at us, it seems like we're really united. but actually, we're not. inside TC, it's like frozen solid cold war. i mean it. i don't hate my classmates, i just really hate the misunderstandings, cold war and drama that had torn TC apart. :( i love and miss you TC!

The Replacement
i have this attitude of isolating myself from people. coz when i do mingle, i'll see who they really are. and i don't, when i know what would happen. i mean, there are these people who takes advantage of you when you get to know them better. and i'm afraid that would happen again. well, because of my carelessness, it happened! i thought she would be different. i thought that she would be a real friend. but because of the person she replaced, she became like exactly like that person! but gladly, that person changed. but the new girl became the alternate. ugghh. though she's still there for me as a friend, sometimes kasi it's not that thoughtful na eh. when she begins her advantaging? is there such a word as advanatging? hahahaha.

Kabuts
hahahaha. i love what i call her. coz seriously! she came out of nowhere! anyway, this problem's a little light. but i still do consider her part of this because of her big self centered friend. and this is not actually called hatred. coz honestly, i DON'T care about her. i don't even know her! hahahaha.

that's pretty much IT. :D