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shet. namamaga na mga mata ko. nakakabanas kasi eh. wala na talagang kinaganda tong' araw na toh. sila na nga lang yung dahilan ko para sumaya. sila na lang yung matatakbuhan ko sa mga problema ko. pero di ko parin sila makakasama. aalis na nga ako eh. tapos di pa rin pwede. nakakabanas talaga. ayokong mag lose hope. gusto ko kasama ko sila forever, pero ang daming humaharang eh. what's with this place?! (currently in my TERROR HOUSE). it will be my house na for the next years to come. shet nakakairita. pero kahit dito, kumpleto kami. di ko maramdaman na magiging "home" ko toh. parang there's always something missing in this place. at alam ko kung ano yun. the family i had before. yung kumpleto. although kumpleto rin naman kami ngayon, i mean, saby kumain ng dinner. sabay mag simba pag sundays. yun... sana mabalik yun. isa pa, yung pamilyang tinuring ko na ring' pamilya. yung mga neighbors namin dun. since childhood, para na talagang pamilya ng turingan ng bawat isa dun. na experience ko nang' mag goodbye sa mga taong papuntang ibang bansa. namatay. o kaya lilipat. pero di ko inakalang ngayon, i'm leaving them. ako naman yung sasabihan ng "so long". nakakainis isipin pero face the fact, it's coming. yun nga yung worst birthday gift sakin eh. naaalala ko pa kung pano sakin yun sinabi. 29th of August. nageenjoy ako sa gitara ko. tapos kausap nila si Tita (yung may-ari ng bahay).. tapos hanggang sa, sinabi... i tried to stop the decision, i tried to make them change their minds. pero it was useless. i told them a bit of what i felt. and the rest i kept to myself. siguro the tears showed them how i felt. kasi parang tinusok yung puso ko nun. everything flashed back. weird nga eh. yun lang iniisip ko buong gabi. wala na akong ibang naramadaman kundi.. "i'll miss you"... "bakit ba kailangan pa toh dumaan sa buhay ko?".. i felt so mad. i wanted to curse the world. kung pwede lang eh. that night, i drowned myself to the music of my mp3. wala akong load nun eh. and i need to keep that, a secret. kaya ican't tell bes. kaya mas mabigat yung nararamdaman ko nun. the next two days after that. since i can't tell berks pa. i told kamshi. kasi i really needed someone to tell it to. sobrang sikip na nung nararamdaman ko nun. pamatay eh. parang death note. parang alam mong' may taning buhay mo. diba nakakainis yun?! hayy. siguro feel niyo, "ano ba tong' si janzy.. ang babaw. parang lilipat lang ng bahay eh." well.. hirap kasi eh. alam niyo yun. i've been with them for the past 13 years of my life (over naman. mga 9 years cguro.) di naman silang lahat yun. but at least some. sila na yung tinuturing kong' childhood friends. parang mga kapamilya ko na rin. mga kapatid. ganun. nakakainis isipin na mawawala ka sa tabi nila. nakakainis isipin na you're going to miss a part of their lives. parang andyan ka, pero wala kang magawa. di ka makalapit. di ka makagalaw. di ka makapunta. nakakainis diba?! you can always say "forever" pero, iba pa rin yung kasama mo talaga sla. just like when we were so little. when we were still kids. napaka carefree natin. isa pa. yung mga neighbors. parang nanay at tatay ko na rin sila eh. they're not strangers to me. i feel free with them. mamimiss ko yan. nakakainis talaga. anyway, back to berks.. importante sila sa buhay ko. kasi buhay ko na yung trinu-trust ko sa kanila. ganun na kalaki yung importance nila sakin. kaya nga whenever i have problemas, sila yung napagsasabihan ko. kasi sa bahay, no one bothers to care. para bang kasalanan ko pa na ganun yung nangyayari. kaya nga nagkukulong ako sa kwarto. sabi ng mga tao, napaka swerte ko na nga daw eh. mareklamo lang. sana man lang ma realize nila na mali sila. ang hirap ng pakiramdam na you have everything you want. but not everything you need. and i need my friends. mahirap yung pagbawalan ka sa mga pwede mo silang makausap. tapos matatanggap mo sa kanila puro sigaw kahit sobrang ilang sacrifices na yung ginagawa mo for them. mahirap kasi nasa 'yo lang lahat ng problema. wala kang mapagsabihan. good thing i'm not one of those senseless girls na naglalaslas. i wouldn't dare hurt myself. yung mga kaibigan ko yung anti-badness ko. pinipigil nila yung isip ko na gawin yung mali. kaya nga i'm thankful i have them. and i'm so sad to lose them. this place will really never be a home for me. it's missing a lot. dun sa bahay naming' isa. ever since i was born, dun na ako. i spent half my living life there. and i don't want to lose that. mahirap.
back to why i am crying.. kasi nman, just one outing. ang hirap lumagay. di ko alam kung bata pa ba ako o isang teenager. "worries of a pre-teen". yun yung sabi ng iba. di mo alam kung san ka lulugar. they say you should grow up and be responsible. but when you try to make that "responsibility" thing happen, they don't trust you. nakakinis. nagyaya kasi si Yujiro sa Subic. hayy. asar.
"ui berks!! please sumama kayo! para may rason ako para payagan!"
nakakainis. lilipat na nga kami this summer. sa April aalis kami. punta kami sa province. & i'm loaded with decisions if i want to have summer camps. dalawang araw lang yung Subic na yun. parang it was a chance for us to catch up. dapat nga after 4 years pa ulit babalik si Yujiro eh, sapilitan lang yung March-April na toh. pero they still refuse. saglit na nga lang ulit kami magkakasama sama. and still there's this barrier na nasa pagitan. madrama. i know. pro yun yung totoo. and this could be the last summer i could be with them, and yet, di pa rin mangyayari. ano ba yan. the past few days, i was so preoccupied with things that looked more impt. to me. pero di ko alam, i was missing the moments that i should have been with them. bsta. ayaw ko lang lumipat. ayaw kong mawalay sa kanila. ayoko. ayoko.
But sometimes they come back.
I AM WHO I AM.
One thing is clear
I'll wear a halo when you look at me
JNZ ♥
15 years old. Estrogen-kinda-human. Senior HS. I ♥ ROCK music. \m/ Little Miss ALL-SMUG. Dancing is my "escape". Reads. Amazed by celestial bodies! loves Romeo and Juliet, Bonnie and Clyde, Jack and Rose, Noah and Ally, Grace and AJ, Tristan and Isolde, Nathan and Haley kinda romances. TEAM EDWARD! BellaEdward forfuckinever. :) Silent Sufferer. I have a crazy fear of getting pregnant and giving birth. The miracle of life is tagged with vagbreakin' pain. i FREAKIN' looooove STARS! Shining, shimmering, splendid! ^^, ANTHROPOLOGISTprosecutorSOLDIERsecretspyPRINCESScowgirl FORENSICPSYCHOLOGISTastronautCANDYCOUNTERGIRLsuperhero wannabe :] I want to live in the 7o's and be a hippie. Peace, yo! I love DC Comics and its common superhero name pre/suf-fixes. :P Green Arrow, Robin Hood, Peter Pan! Di Caprio, Lafferty, Franco and Pattinson make my heart skip every time! :P La la la la la. I wanna go to Neverland and never grow up. I'll be with Peter Pan and the lost boys and I'll be a lost girl. Easy does it. I love STAR GAZING. Stars! :) SUNSETS and FIREFLIES are love too. I'm a jerk-hater. I'll rip their peepers apart. :| I'm shadowcat/supergirl. THE WORLD IS A VAMPIRE, right S.P? Planet Green, Go Green. I thank God for giving Stephenie Meyer to the world. Twilight is my savior. I also love Wide Awake! Best Fanfiction EVER! I am currently enchanted, captivated and dazzled by none other than a sexy, topaz-eyed, possessive, sparkling vampire named EDWARD CULLEN. Oh boy am I in looooove. I'd become a star one day, in my after life. :) ERASERHEADS will never be ERASED from our HEADS. I wanna see the Aurora Borealis before I die. I'm wishing for or maybe Dark Edward. Either of the two will do.
I am indestructible. I'm a superhuman. I'M EFFIN' SUPER. :>
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
i bleed. @ 3/11/2007 11:58:00 AM
shet. namamaga na mga mata ko. nakakabanas kasi eh. wala na talagang kinaganda tong' araw na toh. sila na nga lang yung dahilan ko para sumaya. sila na lang yung matatakbuhan ko sa mga problema ko. pero di ko parin sila makakasama. aalis na nga ako eh. tapos di pa rin pwede. nakakabanas talaga. ayokong mag lose hope. gusto ko kasama ko sila forever, pero ang daming humaharang eh. what's with this place?! (currently in my TERROR HOUSE). it will be my house na for the next years to come. shet nakakairita. pero kahit dito, kumpleto kami. di ko maramdaman na magiging "home" ko toh. parang there's always something missing in this place. at alam ko kung ano yun. the family i had before. yung kumpleto. although kumpleto rin naman kami ngayon, i mean, saby kumain ng dinner. sabay mag simba pag sundays. yun... sana mabalik yun. isa pa, yung pamilyang tinuring ko na ring' pamilya. yung mga neighbors namin dun. since childhood, para na talagang pamilya ng turingan ng bawat isa dun. na experience ko nang' mag goodbye sa mga taong papuntang ibang bansa. namatay. o kaya lilipat. pero di ko inakalang ngayon, i'm leaving them. ako naman yung sasabihan ng "so long". nakakainis isipin pero face the fact, it's coming. yun nga yung worst birthday gift sakin eh. naaalala ko pa kung pano sakin yun sinabi. 29th of August. nageenjoy ako sa gitara ko. tapos kausap nila si Tita (yung may-ari ng bahay).. tapos hanggang sa, sinabi... i tried to stop the decision, i tried to make them change their minds. pero it was useless. i told them a bit of what i felt. and the rest i kept to myself. siguro the tears showed them how i felt. kasi parang tinusok yung puso ko nun. everything flashed back. weird nga eh. yun lang iniisip ko buong gabi. wala na akong ibang naramadaman kundi.. "i'll miss you"... "bakit ba kailangan pa toh dumaan sa buhay ko?".. i felt so mad. i wanted to curse the world. kung pwede lang eh. that night, i drowned myself to the music of my mp3. wala akong load nun eh. and i need to keep that, a secret. kaya ican't tell bes. kaya mas mabigat yung nararamdaman ko nun. the next two days after that. since i can't tell berks pa. i told kamshi. kasi i really needed someone to tell it to. sobrang sikip na nung nararamdaman ko nun. pamatay eh. parang death note. parang alam mong' may taning buhay mo. diba nakakainis yun?! hayy. siguro feel niyo, "ano ba tong' si janzy.. ang babaw. parang lilipat lang ng bahay eh." well.. hirap kasi eh. alam niyo yun. i've been with them for the past 13 years of my life (over naman. mga 9 years cguro.) di naman silang lahat yun. but at least some. sila na yung tinuturing kong' childhood friends. parang mga kapamilya ko na rin. mga kapatid. ganun. nakakainis isipin na mawawala ka sa tabi nila. nakakainis isipin na you're going to miss a part of their lives. parang andyan ka, pero wala kang magawa. di ka makalapit. di ka makagalaw. di ka makapunta. nakakainis diba?! you can always say "forever" pero, iba pa rin yung kasama mo talaga sla. just like when we were so little. when we were still kids. napaka carefree natin. isa pa. yung mga neighbors. parang nanay at tatay ko na rin sila eh. they're not strangers to me. i feel free with them. mamimiss ko yan. nakakainis talaga. anyway, back to berks.. importante sila sa buhay ko. kasi buhay ko na yung trinu-trust ko sa kanila. ganun na kalaki yung importance nila sakin. kaya nga whenever i have problemas, sila yung napagsasabihan ko. kasi sa bahay, no one bothers to care. para bang kasalanan ko pa na ganun yung nangyayari. kaya nga nagkukulong ako sa kwarto. sabi ng mga tao, napaka swerte ko na nga daw eh. mareklamo lang. sana man lang ma realize nila na mali sila. ang hirap ng pakiramdam na you have everything you want. but not everything you need. and i need my friends. mahirap yung pagbawalan ka sa mga pwede mo silang makausap. tapos matatanggap mo sa kanila puro sigaw kahit sobrang ilang sacrifices na yung ginagawa mo for them. mahirap kasi nasa 'yo lang lahat ng problema. wala kang mapagsabihan. good thing i'm not one of those senseless girls na naglalaslas. i wouldn't dare hurt myself. yung mga kaibigan ko yung anti-badness ko. pinipigil nila yung isip ko na gawin yung mali. kaya nga i'm thankful i have them. and i'm so sad to lose them. this place will really never be a home for me. it's missing a lot. dun sa bahay naming' isa. ever since i was born, dun na ako. i spent half my living life there. and i don't want to lose that. mahirap.
back to why i am crying.. kasi nman, just one outing. ang hirap lumagay. di ko alam kung bata pa ba ako o isang teenager. "worries of a pre-teen". yun yung sabi ng iba. di mo alam kung san ka lulugar. they say you should grow up and be responsible. but when you try to make that "responsibility" thing happen, they don't trust you. nakakinis. nagyaya kasi si Yujiro sa Subic. hayy. asar.
"ui berks!! please sumama kayo! para may rason ako para payagan!"
nakakainis. lilipat na nga kami this summer. sa April aalis kami. punta kami sa province. & i'm loaded with decisions if i want to have summer camps. dalawang araw lang yung Subic na yun. parang it was a chance for us to catch up. dapat nga after 4 years pa ulit babalik si Yujiro eh, sapilitan lang yung March-April na toh. pero they still refuse. saglit na nga lang ulit kami magkakasama sama. and still there's this barrier na nasa pagitan. madrama. i know. pro yun yung totoo. and this could be the last summer i could be with them, and yet, di pa rin mangyayari. ano ba yan. the past few days, i was so preoccupied with things that looked more impt. to me. pero di ko alam, i was missing the moments that i should have been with them. bsta. ayaw ko lang lumipat. ayaw kong mawalay sa kanila. ayoko. ayoko.
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i bleed. @ 3/11/2007 11:58:00 AM 
15 years old. 
